my face falls on the outside
as i crumble inside
there's a weight assisting gravity
pushing down on my shoulders
         creating
a
    spiral

i heard it
on my way upstairs
your mocking you thought i didn't hear
now i sit with tears

i want to feel warm,
but this room is dark.
a heavy atmosphere combats my cold.
there's a soothing voice coming into my ears.
a ball on the floor, i curl up,
that's in my head.
a stormy world outside to match me, to catch me.

my coffee is cold.

bending over in agony,
as silent tears fall and flow.
time to find a way to go...

no, i must learn to grow.

wasn't my fault
~
but somehow i'm the one who get's in trouble

fingers flow along the sea of white and black.
mind consumed with memorized melodies.
it's like coming up for air.