I want to be the kind of girl
that people fall in love with
The girls with the pretty smiles
Fixed on an even prettier face
And laughs that echo through dreams
The girls with elegance and grace
Who are just needy enough
Without being annoying
Who are never sad, never jealous
Secure in who they are
Girls who can dance
Who the in-laws adore

I’ll never be that
My smile is awkward, just like my laugh
But they are genuine, I promise
And I look pretty, some days.
I can be needy, but I just miss you
So much, I can’t help it
I let my jealousy and insecurity
take over sometimes
And I have two left feet
And your parents don’t like me
Because I’m weird
And I’m not the kind of girl
You’ll fall in love with

I know at night
Searching for your warmth,
You're always in arms reach,
but it feels so far.
You're an eternity away,
yet under the same sheet.
I simply roll closer,
Arms searching for skin.
Though it is dark,
Your silhouette is clear.
Briefly I hesitate,
Am I a comfort to you,
As you have become to me?
My arms close the gap.
Your skin it too warm,
My hands are too cold.
You sigh softly, content.
Our legs instinctively intertwine.
Then your hand closes around mine.
When did this become familiar?
Before I can really think,
I'm comforted by your touch.
Your breathing, so steady,
Matched by your heartbeat.
Then, without my consent,
Without my conscious present,
I begin dreaming.