Nothings sweeter
Than my heart-shaped mouth
Nothings more bitter, either.

My head aches,
My hands and legs shake,
Caffeine drenched just to feel awake.

**”-...Anna? Did you take your meds?”

Blue eyed secret keeper
He held me and was still my reaper
Tequila scythed, taking life with needy fever
I wanted you to love me.
but the broken cannot see.
It's turns out that love is not the only thing I need.

Love is something else today, not Disney with their lies.
I learned the hardest way that love can mean demise.
Love is not enough today, despite the times we tried
Tried and true, our triggers do- they start to dry our eyes.
"Empty clips for broken hearts"- they should put that on a sign
I could make a million dollars but I can't leave this heart behind
Like shattered glass, I'm deadly, but just half of what could be
Like shattered hearts we always hang the pieces in the trees
Like necks in nooses, willingly, this love could set you free.
We beat the **** out of each other because the best love costs a fee.

These dreams could make the corpses bleed I keep beneath my bed,
and these stitches couldn't really be 'till I had them in my head
You used to call me in the hospital and laugh with me,
and cry.
Now you're handing me a knife and offering a ride.

People like you
always run out of time
For people like me.
I'm wretched,
I'm sick.
I'm never good enough for
Anything good.

I became fire
Licking at canvas- deep and blue.
Clutching tin with sharp edges
And biting at a ball in my lip.

Can I see them?**
I sighed, and rolled up my sleeves.
I was puzzled by the boy
and offended.
He ran his fingers across my soul.

I held your hand
With caution,
I thought you took mine by mistake.

I killed another person
Through my disgusting charm
I promised you forever,
Then we never spoke again.

Dude, I ******* made you-
You hated who you were.
Thank me with a severed spine,
And wishes on a star.
Empty hands, I used to hold
But you've taken them too far.
Everything I had in me;
it's everything you are.

I don't know
How to accept
Anyone being kind.
It's gotten to the point
Where I just feel
Heartbreak in advance.

Things haunt me
That I have not a right to feel.
******* is the anthrax
To my limited mind.
It knocks on my doors,
Peels back my eyelids.
Scratches ****** paths
Through brick walls of my conscience.
It is the appeal of sugar, to the child
Sick with diabetes.
It is forbidden fruit
That I have not the heart to taste.

I'm weary.
Forsaken.
I think I'll
**** myself.

Since I was little,
I'd drag my nails across
My skin until I bled.
Teeth clenched,
Body tense-
So then I could
Dream.

When you text me now
We speak like old
Bitter friends
Mocking and secretly hating
Ourselves through humor.

Your breathing chases ghosts away.*
I exhale shotgunned smoke
And laugh at my own words.

I used to trip on nothing
During first kisses,
And follow boys
Like fall leaves
Follow chilly breezes.

Charlie Sorrow shattered,
And we scraped
His broken bones.

I'm tired of not sleeping
Because I'm busy in my
Mania.
My bones freeze at three
And there's no one who wants
To calm me down.

Let me
Dip my teeth into the vemon
Of your skin-
Liquify my insides
And I'll do the same
To the ice in your gaze.

I woke up,
My body's ******
And I'm a shittastic
Failure.

babe, just get me bottle.**
She's driving,
He's kissing his pipe.
she pleads,
And my body aches.

Short hair,
Framing a face in greasy locks
Colourless eyes,
That are drenched in more shades than I've ever seen
I make no effort as of late to appear invested.
Clothes hang off of a sunken frame,
That once seemed appealing
I guess I'm a bit delapitated.

Everything burns
Because I'm never given peace.
They grab ahold of my heartstrings
And tie them in knots
Around my lungs.
I think im suffocating
So they pull back my flesh
That seemed too tight against weary bones.
Its agonizing,
Please, stop
But my tongue swells
Like a corpses
And my words are
Trapped by choking noises.

Candle-lit it feels nice
Nights
Start to lace themselves with
Cyanide-
Another boy,
Another bed
But jesus ****
The first is still stuck in my head.

I'm a cat,
In pursuit of
The mouse
Strung up by it's own
Tail.

These scars
That cloak my body
And comforted my darkened mind
Have cost me more than you can imagine.
They have soured my tongue
With the taste of self hate
and shame.
I am numb
I am cold
And each silver slit
Is a secret
That no one wants
To see.

"I just want to see you smile like that. Just once."**
I tried not to be struck by that comment.
I never realized how
Transparent
Depression is.

And, uh, do the boys mind when you kiss them with that thing on your lip?
I smiled, laughed.
Graceful with my mask.
Well, I haven't kissed a boy with it yet- but the girls dont mind.

God, you're like crack.
He ran his hands down my body.
His eyes and body burned.
Just hurry up, my buzz is dying.

I am a porcelain doll
My small hands are fragile,
So I let no one touch them.
I try not to blink
Because my eyelids scraping against marble
Is a sound that unnerves me.
I am a stop animation film
In my first language
Twisting tongues.

I feel sick.
My pulse quickens,
My face pales.
I hate you.
I hate me for
What we did.

My sadness is an ocean,
My smile is the shortest line.

Crimson leaves peek through the mist of morning.
Bright and brittle like me;
They cower and continue hiding.

Sometimes I think of the bitterness
That made me just another 'x' on your list
I could've been better
You could've been a lot less of a ******* *****.

I'm such
A piece of
****.*
Get drunk and get over it.

We sat tossing breath at darkened windows
A bottle to my mouth
And lyrics spinning out from yours
Dancing in conversation
Next to trash in the back seat.

If you knew about my P.D.
And how I still undertake a fifty hour work week.
I graduated early.
I even smile a strangers now, dzia dzie.
We still miss you.
I still hurt.
But life got better.
**Actually ******* better

You can keep me in a locket
And rip memories from our pockets
You can take your lips away from mine
But ill still be on your mind.

Tell me where trouble goes
So I can laugh about the things
Your type of trouble doesn't know.

I'm a *******.
An emotion addict,
Dramatic,
A ******* deatbeat-
But I don't steal.
*******.

Lazy hazel sparks
At the sight of you,
Stretched out like the trees-
You told me.
*They reach for stars in the same way
You used to reach for me.