I'm a *******.
An emotion addict,
Dramatic,
A ******* deatbeat-
But I don't steal.
*******.

I wish your lips gave cancer
Instead of what you took from me,
I'll admit, I was your *****-
But at least I'm not your current cheat.

I used to trip on nothing
During first kisses,
And follow boys
Like fall leaves
Follow chilly breezes.

I just want to hug you
One last ******* time,
And tell you it's okay not to want me anymore,
Because I know who I am.

Lazy hazel sparks
At the sight of you,
Stretched out like the trees-
You told me.
*They reach for stars in the same way
You used to reach for me.

I can't believe I let you ruin me*
My skin is raw from remembering
The way you captured me
With every sip, hit, drag,
****.

My skin feels like you kept it.

All these lines-
A hit here,
          A shot there
They cross and cover us
   They complicate us.
**But we drew them.

My ribs seep
From paled olive skin
Like a curtain
Closed to the show
Within.

Even her necklace hangs
Like her head
She's awake, but
Probably better off dead.

Charlie Sorrow shattered,
And we scraped
His broken bones.

Your breathing chases ghosts away.*
I exhale shotgunned smoke
And laugh at my own words.

Canvas sits in dim lit cars
While silver trails into the stars
My pipe breathes just beneath the seat
Where art and people meet.

He pictures me in a baby blue dress
(Not wrinkled)
Without my flannel
And the pocket that holds
Half smoked cigarettes

My ribs grip
Smoke
As I hold Sorrow and a brown lighter.
I don't care.
Never did.

It was cigarettes
And ****** up nights
You know you should regret.

I am venom,
But you are grace.
We are toxins poured to dissipate
In false begotten fate.

Look at me*
Tremors wrack my
Tense,
Paranoid form.
There's nothing wrong with you.
My mouth hangs slightly open,
And I believe the man
Who waits patiently
within my head.

”What's your problem?”
”You resist my charms.”
I laugh to myself,
Smile over a glowing screen.
There's no resisting that boys
Eyes
And smooth laugh
Or even the badly placed lip ring,
Like mine.
”I try.”

Paranoia has settled it's way
Back into my diseased head.
I hide from the eyes
Of windows
And I'm trembling again.

Another headache
Splits my brain
And scatters the voices
Thatre my only friends.

Sadness is a sickness
Turning lips
chapped
And blue.

Why do I love what you type?
Every tiny pixel, colored black and white
Painting all the colors
Of your burdened life.

I love your words
Before I let them leave
Your mouth
Because
Believe me,
Just the taste is enough.

Somehow,
       Life goes from stealing
     Sweets
from moms purse
To counting your pills
    And realizing that
        Tables can turn.

I miss when you'd whisper
Secrets and dreams
In my ear
Under stars and summer moonlight
While you picked at your guitar
With a lighter
And a smile.

There is a bird
Trapped firmly in its cage
Torturing me
Beating its wings
Until I cannot sleep

I'm halfway between a dream
And reality
What's burning?
Just a tiny thought.
Not even for a second.
*”Hunny, you are.”

You can keep me in a locket
And rip memories from our pockets
You can take your lips away from mine
But ill still be on your mind.

Midnight spends
Only seconds in my head
So doped from meds
I pass up life
And dream instead

I carved you away
with a bitterless taste
No ache in my heart
No laying awake
I'm ******* great.

I used you.
You were just a ****
I pulled you along by the hair
Of your hope
And whispered nice things
To make you trust me-
To make you ******* bleed.
**You can bet I ******* loved you.

I don't believe in breath
Because it seems the world lacks interest
In anything but ***
And how to breed
And to infest.

Sara is a dream
With an attitude you won't believe
An addict for advice
She sits alone most friday nights
Spinning suns
And breaking ways
To find a reason not to stay
And live a life
She cannot stand to hold
So pretty in her hands
But quickly breaking down