I am shy yet sweet at times
I wonder why people can't hear my cries for help
I hear whispering in my head but nothings there
I want the pain to just go away
I am shy yet sweet sometimes

I pretend to smile on the outside but on the inside I'm really crying
I feel like just giving up
I touch nothing but fear
I worry I won't be able to trust people again
I cry because the whispering just won't leave me alone

I understand that one day the pain will stop
I say god is helpful but why won't he help me
I dream more and more pain each day that I sleep
I try to stop the suffering
I hope I  Can someday take my wall down and invite the light in
I am shy yet sweet at times

I'm sorry. I apologize. I never want to hurt anyone ever again. I know that sometimes we do or say things we don't mean, but even though we don't mean these things they still hurt people. I don't want to be remembered as  the girl who mistreated others because she was so upset with herself. I'm not going to purposely or even non-purposely make someone feel sad or upset. I care. If I've ever mistreated you or hurt you. Please understand that I made a mistake. I may not have realized I hurt you. But I'm sorry. You don't have to forgive me. Just know that purposely hurting someone was never my intention. And it will never be. I'm genuinely  sorry. Truly.