What I try to tell myself that I want i te opposite of my real feelings
I feel that I need someone to love me and hold on
I tell myself that I want someone to **** me then get out
I'd be a woman and be unsmotiable.
I just need love from someone in a way I've never felt.
I want the love I've felt in my past
I'm not of age but I know how to feel
I know the way of people I've come of age
I feel the same pain you do when you divorce.
I want to feel the love I tell myself I deserve.
I don't know if I deserve anything let alone happiness
But I want it whether I find the right person
or if I'd rather make someone the right person.
Selfishness can take a toll on the way to love a person.
Just as long as I can use this love I can feel it again.

As I see you on my bathroom floor
I know there is no going back
I take our hand and help you up
You pull me down with you.
I lay on the floor next to you.
I become soaked with ***** water
and the same blood of your own.
I can't help but wonder what there is to do.
I can't make you better.
No way to make anything better.
All there is to do is wait with you
love you in your last remark
as you slip away spilling over my bathroom floor
no way of knowing what the coming morning will bring
you your life or me my sorrows
I wait with you forever in your debt
Make your choice to be or not to be.
But let me see whether you need or not.
I need you as you need me now.
At last I'll help you back off the floor.

You are as sweet as they come
You help me in simple ways.
As your juice flows through me
I have a suddle relief
There's very some comfort you proide
It is always a brief release you give me.
Your'e my guilty pleasure
I just need a bit of you in my mouth
I want to **** on something
you are it

I can't move
or I choose not to
I wait for any sign of compassion
even when it does arive
I'd rather sit about in my own filth
No way of knowing what will become of this tragic mess
Only way to see the days
Is to look inside
Pull out all the ****
it's all made of red white & tissue.
Nothing made of anything worth
Just continuing to gain the lesser value.

I just want you
someone to take me seriously
not to think I'm just some kid
Just a little toy to play with
No big deal if it gets broken
just as long as theres another one
waiting for you to play with.

I need you
Someone to take care of me
I'll take care of you
I'll keep you healthy
and make sure you stay out of trouble
I'll make you feel good at night
and cook you breakfast in the morning.

Just as long as you treat me right
I need someone to take care of me
I want you to make me feel good
Hold me back from insanity
Push me to the edge of creativity
Make me be me.
I need you.
But first I need to find you.

Siting at home alone
all I want is to feel your hands
all over
your beard tickling my chest
as you rest your head.
I haven't gone a signal day without the thought of you
it never seems to amaze me
the way I long for your touch
She never seems to give a ****
just an old has been that cant get over the past
I can't deal with any bit of you
Just once I'd like to be gone.

It comes to me like it's nothing
whether its any good or not
it just pops out like a crowning child
graphic or theatrical
no matter whether it's idiotic or repeditive
I'll still put it down
If I turn into anything I know it'll be big
I just want the attention
To make my name known so people will have to listen
Before I die I'll love a serial killer
make another person come alive
and have my name become house held.