days like these
give me hope
and hope is
what i need
currently
finally feeling like
i can do this
cause a day like this
gives me hope

a ghost I am
my soul left me a while ago
no one realizing
thinking it’s still me
but I’m gone
forever lost
hope nowhere to be found


how could anyone help me anymore
don’t know where to start
if I try, I fall
   I fall deeper
       I fall deeper
                   deeper
no exit
stuck
inside
full of pain

I just wanna
FLOAT
On the ocean
Drifting away
Letting myself go
Into the unknown
Which can only be better
Than this

it’s always sad
being left behind by a friend
you have so much memories with
you might resist the slate
but deep inside you know
your boundaries are being stepped over
so you have to let go
let go
let go
let go of a friend

normally the only time i write poetry
is when i‘m going through ****
feeling like ****
acting ******
breaking to pieces, drowning, a storm inside of me
i am a poet when inspiration strikes
i don’t control the art i make,
the art controls me, so to say

so i just wanted to say
keep being poets and letting it out
until you can be non-poets again
:)

cherish the good moments
cause they’re rare
but when it happens
everything is worth it
i am grateful
for feeling this way

life‘s left my body
the world feels heavy on my shoulders
the floor being the only thing that catches me
i can‘t get up, i can‘t get better
no matter how much i‘ve tried
gravity flows through my body
i always end up on the ground

i’m living in a depression room again
the hurt inside me screaming to get out
but i see no way out
it’s surreal to be living this way
while seeing all my missed opportunities and my failed potential
who i could be
but instead i‘m stuck on the ground
i can‘t get up, i can‘t get better
i wanna soar high up in the sky
i wanna be somebody
but i’ve failed my younger self
in fact i’ve lost her
and currently i’m nobody

how burdensome it all seems
everyone around me managing more than fine and creating wonderful things on the way
while i am here
the floor is what catches me
when gravity hits
and once again my life and what comes with it is feeling heavy
so all i can finally say is
gravity

it’s happy tears
for once
i’m grateful
to be feeling
the way i’m feeling
grateful for this hope
flushing through me
finally excited
for my future

hot tears
again?
i am so used to this ****
over and over
i wanna feel light again
purposeful
i don’t wanna feel these
hot tears
again

how come the earth is so beautiful but i am still sad? how come i listen to people‘s opinion? how come i let myself down everytime? how to scream without anyone hearing?
how
how
help me

you see me walking normally
i might look joyful and full of energy
at least that’s what i go for
but you are mistaken
even if my body is functioning correctly
my soul and heart are not
i am on the ground
no energy is left
i have dropped to the floor
i have drawn my final breath
I have given up

there’s this girl
you can see the hardship in her eyes
she is drowning in sorrow
there’s a brick pushing down on her at all times
but no one can see it…
she has to fight twice as hard as the others
getting pushed down then getting back up again
it’s a cycle of misery
i know this girl
because
i’m her

inside, it hurts
it screams
it pains
it aches
it wishes and hopes
but never arrives

my heart

sometimes
i could burst out of love
it overpowers me
it‘s a beautiful feeling.
when i’m done giving you hugs,
where does the excess love go?
i love
you

good memories hurt
because it‘s all bad now.

My smile is extinct
Never to be seen again.
Lost somewhere on the way
When I was left alone.

Alone to fight the demons
Draining the soul out of me,
Leaving my smile behind.
Only thing left, the dark.

and it hits again.
the d word.
the one i can’t speak out to people
because that would mean having to explain
and i don’t have the energy for that
so, i just let it hit again.
pulling me down to the ground
lying, crying, dying
depression

we live in a ****** up place
the people are ****** up
our actions are ****** up
the only thing beautiful is the earth by itself
tell me how to live
in this ****** up world

my heart feels heavy again
weighing me down & stopping me in my flow.
i hadn’t realized it had gotten better
it felt like there was suddenly a ladder to climb up from my dark hole i had fallen in,
and now i’m so grateful for the time in between.
was it because of the summer?
was is the fact i finally confided in someone?
after that improvement came the excitement for something new.
a new period of experiences, challenges and growth.
but where has that gone now?
i am now suddenly back in my old headspace - the ladder has disappeared again.
all alone in my dark hole.

i‘m sad to be sad in this beautiful world

    mother earth

today i’m seeing pink skies
yesterday i saw a rainbow
perfect timing
i am so grateful for the universe & its signs
comforting me & showing me that i’m on the right path and i’m not alone
that i am on a journey

the journey is mine
and i am strong enough to continue

silent tears streaming down my face
i want to speak up
i want to scream it out
but i have learnt to stay silent
cause no one hears me anyway
so i stay silent
and my tears do too

I love that I am strong
Or call it resilient
And I love that I know I can get through anything
As long as I have myself
I love that I can build trust in myself
Even though sometime I fail
But that is part of the process
And the process is all I need to trust.
This is my journey -
And I am strong enough for it.

i need people that are like-minded
i need people to hype up my enthusiasm
i need people to feel me
i need people to run after me
instead of me always having to run after people
i need a support system
a healthy support system
is that too much to ask?

We will be smiling
We will be shining
We will be bright as stars
with futures and happiness ahead of us
The day will come
Where we’ll be content
With who we are
That day is not now
Nor tomorrow
But we will be beaming, gleaming
sparkling, glowing and twinkling
radiating hopefulness

i am patiently waiting for that day

Do you see the pain in my eyes?
The hurt they had to endure
All these tears
Full of emotions

My eyes hold my soul
My soul is damaged

Do you see the pain in my eyes?

When you can’t anymore
When you feel like it’s the end of the world
Turn to love
It‘s the only way
Accept help
Going through it alone won‘t do it
Turn to the people who have always been there
Trust me, i have tried
Nothing else will save me
Love is the only way
Open up