As I sit here writing,
so many different things are flowing through my head.
So many different emotions.
I feel humiliated, at the same time very gullible.
I feel I should have taken the signs and ran all the way with them, other than contemplating.
Hoping that there would be a change.

They say you learn from your mistakes,
but I believe you have to make the same mistake a couple of times to actually learn from it.
You need to see and realize what you're doing wrong.
Sometimes you tend to blame the wrong things as the cause of your problems.
You say maybe if this one thing was different, everything would be perfect.

Some find it hard to face reality, and just realize the situation you've been trying to make right this whole tine was just not meant to be.

As I sit here writing,
So many different things are going through my head.
So many different emotions.
I feel let down, at the same time angry.
I feel I should have taken the signs and ran all the way with them, other than contemplating.
Hoping that there would be a change.

I hate being angry.
Its not a feeling that excites me.
Not anyone at that.
But at the same time, it's an emotion that we all come across a lot.

I let little things get to me and stick.
They tell me to let things go and to just flow.
But as they say, things are better said than done.

The feeling you feel when you feel let down is dissappointment.
Not so much to the person or object that has let you down,
but more so, yourself.
You're dissappointed that you let your guard down.
Then  it came back to bite you in your ****.

Then when you're let down over and over again,
you start to have trust issues.
Which is enough to drive you crazy.

As I sit here writing,
so many different things are flowing through my head.
So many different emotions.
I feel calm, at the same time collected.
Because even though I didn't take the signs and run all the way with them, I still feel that I've learned.

I feel a sense of accomplishment and achievement.
I'm not blaming anyone or anything.
Everything happens for a reason.
That is what I believe.
So as I hold my head up high,
I smile at everyone and everything that has caused me to feel humiliated, gullible, and angry,
because it has all taught me something and gave me an understanding.
And it has lead me to a journey of no worries and happiness.
Thank You!

A girl.
Young confused girl.
Not exactly sure of what she wants.
She's confused and lost in this big, weird, crazy place we call the world.

Very difficult,
very stubborn.
But she knows where she is going.
Then someone comes along who will deal with it.
Maybe it's just a little fling like the others.
But no, it's something different!
Someone that loves we for her,
that she can be completely weird around, but feel as if she is the coolest person in the world.
Feelings aren't easy to be shown through her actions.
Maybe it's just in her genes.

This person who she said to herself would never give up on her and always be with her.
Yeah she felt wrong.
It's her fault at the same time him.
Well it's nobody's fault,
maybe they weren't meant to be.
But it is meant to be that they are there for Eachother.
it is meant for them to listen to each other and hear each other out.
But everything has to come to an end.

The beginning was amazing.
The middle was crazy.
And the end was just confusing.

This girl can't help but know that this was mostly her fault.
She kept pushing and pushing just to see how far he would go.
How long before he just goes.
But she always thought he would keep going and not give up.
There is things she could have done different no doubt.
But maybe things just weren't meant to work out.

Hopefully things will be good even though things ended.
Maybe it's a door opening to a new beginning.
Never know, never plan, but one things for sure,
the girl will always love the wonderful man.

Everyone needs a friend.
That is for sure.
There is an empty space in your body if you are without friends.
Everyone needs someone to laugh with,
and to cry with.
One who you can always tell the truth too,
and have no doubt that they are being truthful too.
At least one person to just click with.
To always have fun.
Have those sleepovers when you just talk all night.
Not everyone is lucky enough to have that one friend.
But I'll be your friend if you're mines.
I will be there for you,
talk to you, listen to you, trust you!
No doubt.
I'll be the best friend you want me to be.

Confuse, lost, and don't know where to go
Don't know where to turn
Don't know who to turn to.

I wish I had someone to listen to me
Someone to help me
A person that will be all ears
Someone to understand me

I wish I could have a map to this completely confusing maze
I'm lost
I'm stranded
Just confused

We met and never a thought of being together
A typical boy girl friendship
Tell each other about who you like

Months pass
The friendship continues
I secretly get feelings that I wasn't expecting
He's secretly feeling the same way

Feelings are expressed
We form a bond like no other
Not only my boyfriend but my bestfriend

Yeah we have our fights
We have out ups and downs
We may have some lows,
but our highs are HIGH!

We love each other with all our hearts.

That's exactly why he's My Lover Boy

Without you I would be nothing.
Not something of existence.
Someone in the crowd waiting to be noticed.
Someone looking for that one special lover.

You complete me completely
You make me whole.
I was a decimal
You formed me into a whole number.

I found the missing key to the lock
The one that was pre-formed just for me
It was just meant to be

Peope say we weren't meant for each other.
They said the same thing about PB & J.
They obviously were made to be put together,
and everyone loves em!

The love we have for each other is so crazy
but at so true
Something indescribable
But I just wanted you to know
That I love you(:

Why ask a question,
when you know the answer will only make you turn in anger.
The question you know the answer to,
but just don't want to believe that it is true.

The question meant to be un-answered

Its a pain in my Heart
One that is non-healing
Feelings of hurt and confused
You don't know what to do.

Maybe talk to someone, hit up a different boo
But no you can't
Because you just left the person closest to you.

You wish you could take a couple of steps back, and see where things went wrong
To reminisce on the things that we didn't do.

"What did I do wrong?"
"No! Maybe it was you!"

Questions run through your head.
Who's fault was it that this nightmare has come?

Man thoughts of a broken hearted girl.
Something so hard,
but something so trueee

It's crazy how you call once she goes to sleep.
You wanna talk when she out and about with her friends.
You wanna lean on me when she's not there to hear you out.

But that moment she's back to have that little talk with, all I get is a dial tone. . .

You want me to be your back up chick.
A fire hydrant sitting there waiting to be used.
But then again, some how I'm okay with that
Not really

I just want you to love me
But not the way that you do
If I can't have you to myself, I'm willing to take half of you.

I know it ain't right, but I feel so lost, I need a clue.

Man I'm just a back up chick,
I just wish I was the one you would choose