How much time you can cry without feelings your tears running down your cheeks?

How much pain your heart can hold?

How much suffering your soul can grief?

You were such a beautiful dream, you were the happiness of my life, you were, indeed, my life itself.

And now you’re gone and I can only hide myself under black sheets because your memories keep hitting me.

And now I’m alone in this world without your words and voice, without your feelings and love.

And now I can only cry in the darkness of my heart because I don’t know where you are.

Everybody is scaring me.

Everybody is hurting me.

Waiting every second of my hours, every hour of my days for just a couple words of yours.

Even if I’m trying to be strong, my inside is so ruined, I can’t do anything else, I just can miss you.

And the world is falling apart without you, and everything is so cold.

Is that bad that I want you back? Is that bad that I want to believe you even though everyone is telling me not to.

I want to believe what you told me, but many doubts are rotting my heart.

Everything you told me cannot be a lie.

And when the nightmare comes and makes me sleep, seeing the dark night and the black water falling from the sky, the windows will turn into the gloom colour that I don’t want to look at.

And then nothing will be the same without her eyes, the music will be quiet, the sun will not rise and the moon on the sky will bright forever; the clouds will remain as statues of my mind.

And when the day won’t end and you live the same over and over you will notice some part of your soul is lost, and your heart won’t beat again the same as it did once ago.

Suddenly your see her.

Suddenly you feel her.

And she’s not a ghost any more, and she breathes and she lives.

And she loves you, and she calls your name in the dusk.

And tears stop running down your face.

And one star commits suicide giving you the light to illuminate your life.

And you will smile after one of her words, and the world finally will have the meaning that you were looking for.

**And all of you want is to be with her in a never ending sleep, when no one can wake you up.