One day so long ago it seems I fell in love with you, the best dream out of all my dreams was finally coming true. The months crept by so slow, I thought they'd never end, Motherhood, so much to know, a new life to defend. Six weeks early my time came, and there was so much pain, but I disregarded it, I had so much to gain. I laid there as they worked on me, and I was scared as hell, I hadn't heard my daughter cry, just why I couldn't tell. They wouldn't let me see her, they didn't tell me why, I was behind the eight ball, and i felt like I could cry. They finally let me see her, but not till the next day. She was so tiny, delicate and cute in every way. The first day that I held her, was the best day of my life, but when I had to put her down, it sure cut like a knife. The day I left the hospital a sunny day in May, but I was not so bright inside, my sweetheart had to stay. And now I feel lost at home my nerves on edge and jittery, I sit and hold her teddy bear, and cry to bitterly. I go and see her everyday, but it does not seem fair. I have to walk out every night and leave my baby there.

Not long after your sister was born, Angie I learned that I was gonna have you. The only thing better than one little baby, was the fact that I'd soon have two. I love you so much, you are both so sweet, with your pretty blue eyes, and your small hands and feet. Brittany with blond hair, and Angie with Brown, mommy finds it so hard to put either of you down. But sometimes I have to, I have only two hands, and life always hands you a lot of demands. I wish I could hold you, we'd cuddle all day, we'd laugh, and we'd talk, and be happy and play. But mommy wants you to be sure and know, I love you both so much. When I hold you in my arms, it's my heart that you actually touch....

Its been twenty years gone by,
These years drug on and on....
Since the day we said goodbye,
Those years now past and gone....

Most days it seemed would never end,
While waiting for the day....
I wondered if my heart could mend,
And now it seems, it may....

The day the postman brought the news,
You were in search of me....
The day that every dream came true,
My lost hopes I could see....

I've read your letters many times,
Since the day that they arrived....
It seems our desires do combine,
From your words, this i derived....

And so I wrote you oh so much,
Of what these years have done....
It was almost a book, of such,
It seems I jumped the gun....

When a heart waits twenty years, you see,
To reconnect with love....
Of Brittany Jo and Angelica Leigh,
Two angels sent from up above....

And so I've thinned my letter out,
A bit less at one time....
Of what my life's been all about,
Since back in 1989....

So I'll stick to what is happening now,
For this first letter, to you two....
It comes down to when and how,
But I'll tell it all to you....

I have no secrets here to hide,
I want you to read it all.....
Please know, in you, I will confide,
How fast, must be your call....

So you can ask me anything,
And time may start to fly....
A whole new world, your letters bring,
To twenty years gone by....

On this day you came as two separate, but leave as one
united. You have found your harbor together-and are now
anchored, safe in each others hearts, minds and souls.

When one of you is in pain, the other will comfort.
When one of you sickens, the other will heal.
When one of you calls out, the other will answer

Your fortunes are now tied together. No longer is it your or
mine, but ours. Let no one cast a shadow upon the other
with out rising strongly defend and uphold.

When one of you is called to battle in times of war, may the
Love of the other be your shield against all danger and
protect you when all around is chaos.

In days of yore the hearth was the heart of the home. When
it was warm, there was true love in the house, but when the
embers die and grow cold that love has failed.

May nothing chill your hearth-and always remember this
day when things are in the darkest hours. Let your
memories and the beauty of this day strengthen your hearts
and resolve to love always.

May your Love Conquer All forever

As I sit here all alone, my memories arise;

They carry me away with them, across the clear blue skies...

I think about those precious, tender moments that we shared;

That second of eternity, you knew I really cared...


The problems that I had back then, was no ones fault, you see;

I found I could not handle things when you two needed me...

And so I did the next best thing, and found someone who could;

I didn't want to give you up, but I knew that I should,

So, I made the biggest sacrifice that any mother could...


Now you two aren't here with me, but memories never die;

They carry me away with them, across the silver skies...