the sun came out today,
for the first time in weeks.
i had forgotten all about her.
i had gotten used to the
dreary, grim, and silent life.
i had gotten used to the lack of colours,
the shades of grey.

yet she came to visit today.
tauntingly teasing.
i felt her on my frozen skin.
i stood there, stuck in time,
and i waited for her warmth.
for her to thaw my mind.
no colours ever appeared,
grey dripped all over me.
she left again at once,
so suddenly.

how irresistible is the strawberry ripe with bliss,
dripping with bloodred ecstasy.
how beautiful is the mouth that feeds on this,
a vision from my carnal fantasies.
how mesmerizing are those lips that kiss,
stained with red and tempting me.

how jealous am I of the strawberry you hold,
in your bloodred stained gravity.
how I want to taste the passion you control,
and throw myself into your rhapsody.
how I want those lips to dance with heart and soul,
upon mine own with sensuality.

if I were not these bones,
and not this flesh,
if I had no soul,
and no regrets,
would you finally love me?

if I were not this wreck,
and not this deformity,
if I had no defects,
and no enmity,
would I find happiness?

if I had not these flaws,
and not this disgrace,
if I had no façade,
and no mistakes,
would I finally be human?