when u said, "i am not coming back."
i didn't know what else to do but laugh.
i couldn't take u seriously.
but when u didn't come back i cried furiously.
i didn't know what you ment
til the phone call that you sent.
i cried and i cried afterwards.
it made them mad what they had heard.
it wasn't my fault.
it felt like someone had opened my wounds with salt.
i cant let you go.
i dont want them to know.
that you committed suicide
they will never be able to say goodbye.
but i know that i can someday.
i just wont know what to say.
i just want to know
Brother why suicide?

I thought that u cared!
I thought you never had fear.
I thought you could understand.
Now i feel like im not on land.
I miss the feeling of being with you.
Hopefully I'll see you but for me not soon.
You are the best brother.
Why'd you have to hurt mother?
You know that that hurt.
You made us all feel like dirt.
I miss you
Hope you miss me too.

you hold me.
but i bet you cant see.

that im in pain.
i dont know if i'll ever stay sane.

u drive me crazy
people called u lazy.

i love you, Kyle.

u would yell.
but you wouldn't tell

your pain is back.
your tired of being smacked.

i love you, Kyle.

your parents don't understand.
that i will always be your biggest fan.

i love you, Kyle.
i'll go the extra mile.

just to make you see.
the person you could be.

i love you, Kyle.
and i will see you in a while.