Dont come to me in a crises and say you're always here ,and only one week passes and you are nowhere near ,don't come to me in lies asking only whys ,come to me with an open mind always loving  always kind, come to me hold out your hand and take me to the promise land ,hold me close hold me near your love will get me through my fear , don't give up don't give in hold my hand and help me win!

is there anyone out there ?
anyone at all , that understands my struggles,
that will catch me if i fall?
is there anyone out there, that knows just how i feel?
that can help me in this moment that will help me start to heal?
is there anyone out there that loves just like i do?
that could love me through my sadness , just help me to pull through ,
all the anger and the sadness , all the hurt and all the pain ,
all the **** that causes trauma, all the crap that fogs my brain ,
please dear lord just tell me if i have a chance in hell ,to get through all the misery , to get through all the hell ?
lord just give me one more moment to express the way i feel before the walls collapse  on me and my life becomes so still...........

I've cried my millionth tear,
And heard my millionth lie,
I've asked my millionth question,
and said my millionth why,
I've lost my millionth battle,
But won my millionth fight,
I've had my millionth sleepless one,
and cried throughout the night,
my heart has skipped its millionth beat
my feet have touched there millionth street,
My body took its millionth breath,
my soul has died its millionth death,
I cried my millionth tear today!

Confusion overtakes me,
The stress is gonna break me,
the pain it overtakes me,
Please somebody wake me,
              I'M SCARED,!!!

Love me through my troubles,,
And hold me through my pain,,
But please dont keep on judging me
It only brings the rain.

Hearts a mess broke in two,
have no idea what to do,
tied in knots filled with pain,
consumed with guilt,
consumed with shame,
lost for words lost in thought,
lost in all that I've been taught!

How many times will you,
   rip apart my body,
and tear apart my soul,
  Shattering my spirit,
only to let go,
   Leaving me in brokenness,
leaving me in pain,
    leaving me to drown alone,
in all my guilt and shame!