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Angela Herzig Jul 2012
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Everything is breaking; cracking. And you are trying to fix it with duct tape. Just because it's covered doesn't mean it's not there. The walls that fell. . . Well I've been regretting that. I am naked and cold. You think that you're giving up a lot. You can't even see my sacrifices. You stab me with those eyes, love. You burn and freeze. And I'm just a stop on your path of destruction.
Angela Herzig Jul 2012
Last night was home
I saw heavens gates
I let go of feelings
Of all my wants and dreams
I found peace
I was loved by something more
More than anyone else could give me
Everyone became a speck
Nothing more than a bother
I was drunk with more than love
And I was alive
The angels held me
Because I have felt this
Nothing of this world matters
Because nothing is worth anything
And everything is worth the world
But the world is meaningless without peace
And the love we give to each other
Angela Herzig Jul 2012
I can’t always be the one who smiles
I said I would always be there
But I’ve had my own issues too
I am in pain and you can’t see
You’re not the only one who needs help
You’re not the only one suffering for mistakes
That you never chose
I can’t give you the help you need
I’m still looking for something to heal me
I’m not a miracle worker who can see the future
You hold it in the palm of your hand
I can only smile so much
Before the pain becomes unbearable
Don’t ask for me to care
Cause I really don’t
Care about me first
Then maybe it’ll be ok
For me to feel some emotion towards you
But you’re only a selfish *******
That only feels for yourself
My life isn’t perfect so why come to me
The log in my eye is overpowering
I can’t always be the happy person you always see
My tears fall and **** my innocence
But ignore feelings that I might have
Because they really don’t matter
I don’t know if they even matter to me
But they are there
And there isn’t anything I can do
But pretend nothing matters
That’s what you want me to do
You act as if it wouldn’t affect me
But how am I supposed to take that news
How do you want me to react
Because it’s all about you
Should I smile like always
And cover up my spilt tears
It is what is always expected
That girl who is always happy
Am I supposed to be an unfeeling *****
I’m sorry but it’s too much
And I just don’t care enough
Angela Herzig Jul 2012
Do you see this monster
Well I can't anymore
Have I just grown used to my hell
Am I just used to the burns
I just really don't care anymore
I'll take the best
I think I ******* deserve it
I don't see this monster
That you made me think was there
So how will you control me now
I understand now that you poisoned me
Love that strangles
Can you justify yourself
You are just a twisted abuser
I am sickened to think you were my puppeteer
The strings have been cut
No more am I controlled
By your sick twisted world
Angela Herzig Jul 2012
Take what you've got and be done with it
I want to crawl into your window
And carve out your unfeeling heart
It serves no use to anyone
Because you were burnt, you burn others
You, the living dead, drown in your fears

Take your pain and let it poison you
Nothing is better than being alone
And while you face your empty fate
There will be nothing left, you're stone cold

The empty grave is all you are used to
You yearn to be void of everything
Never expected to trip into love
And with no choice it enters and consumes your soul
The only good thing makes you feel
But you hate to feel

**** the only thing that has ever cared
Just because you can't face the truth
You were worth fighting for and I tried
But you wanted to hate yourself
And you break me because you can't stand to be happy
I hope you stay the hell alone
Angela Herzig Jul 2012
Emo *****
You're so beautiful
With maggots as eyes
And venom for words
Crush the coal
Known as your heart
It hasn't been beating
It is useless to anyone
Oh pretty girl
***** and lost
Why waste your time
You knew all along
What would happen
No happy ending
This is no fairy tale
Your prince carves death
Into everything you gave him
And you keep hoping
With everything in your destroyed world
That this isn't so
Continue on
For a maggot is just a maggot
Not a precious jewel
And maybe someday
You'll be able to see it too.
Angela Herzig Jul 2012
The poison seeps
Into the minds of the weak
They all follow
Their meaningless lives overcome them
They are just wasted time

Blindly they accept
The lies of their seemingly perfect world
Until they become numb
And the poison becomes their happiness

I have lived their life
I have told the lies
But the poison burnt me
Instead of controlling me
It has turned me against the living dead
I refuse not to question
What others accept
And the poison forsakes me
Leaving me alone

When I look I see
Nothing but those who mindlessly follow
They take their pills and smoke their drugs
So that they can escape from their poison
But it is temporary
They need what kills them
They want to slowly die
I watch and am sickened
Their fake smiles and plastic friends

Praise those who are alone
They are the ones who are really alive
They have rejected their poison
They see reality as it really is
Not as it is painted for them
They are the ones who really feel
And because of this they are hated
Angela Herzig Jul 2012
Water mixes with blood
As you try to wash it all away
All of the pain you feel is self inflicted
And you can't see that you cause your own hell
You choose to be unhappy
And you think that you are making your own way
But really, you are following what others have laid out for you
You refuse to see those who really care
And you are blinded by the lies
You trust the snakes and spiders
And you strip yourself of your wings
You have the power to rise above
Fly love to a better place
Angela Herzig Jul 2012
I look to you for strength
But your fear shows through
What you did is what I hate
But I can't help but love you

You turn from me to hide your shame
I just don't want your lies
Your coldness cuts through me
Tearing me up on the inside

I don't want to leave you
But I don't know if I can hold on
How can I live without you
When it's you who makes me strong

So here we are, you and I
With no more tears to cry
I don't want to be the one
To say this last goodbye
Angela Herzig Jul 2012
I am a leaf. I started out as a bud. But even then, I found how cold the world is. I opened myself up and saw the sky. I fell in love. But no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get the sky to notice me. So I changed my color. Maybe the sky just didn't want a green leaf. I became red with the hope of pleasing it. But the sky still showed no interest. I became jealous of the clouds. They were so close to the sky. They were always together. So I jumped from the only home that I had ever known and gave up everything to be close to my love. But instead of flying to a new beautiful life, I was rejected. I fell to a world I had not bothered to notice before. And I was alone. I did not know what to do with myself and my emotions. While I lay there dwelling in my sorrow, I was attacked. I was pushed and rolled around. Before I could really comprehend what was going on, I was surrounded by others like myself. They had all given up something important to them and got nothing in return. I was no longer alone. And although I would never be with the one I loved, I could still go on with life. I could find a new kind of happiness.
Angela Herzig Jul 2012
I'm so tired of being a disappointment.
I let all that you've told me go.
You only wanted the best.
Did you really think I could be the best?
Everthing I thought mattered
Lays in waste around the shattered mirror.
But the last time I looked I saw a monster.
Could you not love it?
I saw a monster in you, too.
We weren't so different.
I miss the moments of laughter.
Even if they were an illusion.
It is better not to know what you don't have.
The jealousy is enough to tear and rip.
The mask that hid me wore me out.
I could no longer breath with it.
So I took it off and now I'm afraid.
I can't hide anymore.
And I didn't think anyone but you
Would ever care.
But you made me hide.
And even though I'm afraid now
And no matter how alone I am
I can not return.
I know now what is on the other side.
I have been given a taste.
It is bitter and fruitless
But sometimes it is more.
A possibility of love and joy.
So I will risk the strangling of my heart
And the harshness
For just another taste of something better.
For a chance of a fairy tale love.
Rather than to hide myself with you
And waste away in your bitterness.
Angela Herzig Jul 2012
This is the time. And here is the place. Just another lost cause with another lost face. This is empty. These walls do not speak. They are waiting for you to tell the stories that will be passed from father to son. A long night and a burning taste. It will fill your mouth and consume. The passion you always wanted but could never muster. I swear she is ok. Still living somewhere deep inside there. It's not my fault you are blind to the world. Blood is meaningless. The most foul dirt. Why is it so treasured? It is going to spill and evaporate. The heart is weak and the mind frail. Easy to destroy. Let's play a game , you and I. Who will last longer? Just a jumble of words to you, but so much more is hidden between the lines. I told you you were blind. The heart of a circle is really a square.
Angela Herzig Jul 2012
Go back to your old friends
You emo little *****
Paint yourself as black
As your decaying heart
I hope the blood pours
From your wrists
When he beats the ****
Out of you, I'll laugh
I tried to help you
But you never wanted anything better
How could I have cared
About someone as ****** up as you
Continue on your crooked path
At least it was straight for a while
I refuse to care about
Someone who hates himself
You have pushed away
What you needed most
And now you know
You made the mistake
Harden your heart
No one will care as much
As I stupidly did
Chase after the fading highs
Try to replace me with those
That can't stand your voice
Don't ever expect me to
Respect you
You were the one who
****** yourself
I have wasted to much time
Caring for a selfish *****
You have eroded my feelings
There is nothing left
I can no longer give you
Everything that I am
There is hardly anything left
And what is there isn't for you
Angela Herzig Jul 2012
You walk around here like you're living
But you are dead inside
Just like a zombie
You can fool everyone
But your heart is rotting
Just like a zombie
You are a zombie

I am just as bad if not worse
You marked me with your hate
Pretended that you were alive
Just to feel something
But now I can't feel anything
But this bloodlust

I give you my body
Do with it what you will
Oh zombie, break me, beat me
Cause this chase is just as bad
Make me a zombie too
So that I won't feel
I want an empty unfeeling heart
Just like yours

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