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Angela Herzig Jul 2012
I'm so tired of being a disappointment.
I let all that you've told me go.
You only wanted the best.
Did you really think I could be the best?
Everthing I thought mattered
Lays in waste around the shattered mirror.
But the last time I looked I saw a monster.
Could you not love it?
I saw a monster in you, too.
We weren't so different.
I miss the moments of laughter.
Even if they were an illusion.
It is better not to know what you don't have.
The jealousy is enough to tear and rip.
The mask that hid me wore me out.
I could no longer breath with it.
So I took it off and now I'm afraid.
I can't hide anymore.
And I didn't think anyone but you
Would ever care.
But you made me hide.
And even though I'm afraid now
And no matter how alone I am
I can not return.
I know now what is on the other side.
I have been given a taste.
It is bitter and fruitless
But sometimes it is more.
A possibility of love and joy.
So I will risk the strangling of my heart
And the harshness
For just another taste of something better.
For a chance of a fairy tale love.
Rather than to hide myself with you
And waste away in your bitterness.
Angela Herzig Jul 2012
Water mixes with blood
As you try to wash it all away
All of the pain you feel is self inflicted
And you can't see that you cause your own hell
You choose to be unhappy
And you think that you are making your own way
But really, you are following what others have laid out for you
You refuse to see those who really care
And you are blinded by the lies
You trust the snakes and spiders
And you strip yourself of your wings
You have the power to rise above
Fly love to a better place
Angela Herzig Jul 2012
You walk around here like you're living
But you are dead inside
Just like a zombie
You can fool everyone
But your heart is rotting
Just like a zombie
You are a zombie

I am just as bad if not worse
You marked me with your hate
Pretended that you were alive
Just to feel something
But now I can't feel anything
But this bloodlust

I give you my body
Do with it what you will
Oh zombie, break me, beat me
Cause this chase is just as bad
Make me a zombie too
So that I won't feel
I want an empty unfeeling heart
Just like yours
Angela Herzig Jul 2012
Do you see this monster
Well I can't anymore
Have I just grown used to my hell
Am I just used to the burns
I just really don't care anymore
I'll take the best
I think I ******* deserve it
I don't see this monster
That you made me think was there
So how will you control me now
I understand now that you poisoned me
Love that strangles
Can you justify yourself
You are just a twisted abuser
I am sickened to think you were my puppeteer
The strings have been cut
No more am I controlled
By your sick twisted world
Angela Herzig Jul 2012
I am a leaf. I started out as a bud. But even then, I found how cold the world is. I opened myself up and saw the sky. I fell in love. But no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get the sky to notice me. So I changed my color. Maybe the sky just didn't want a green leaf. I became red with the hope of pleasing it. But the sky still showed no interest. I became jealous of the clouds. They were so close to the sky. They were always together. So I jumped from the only home that I had ever known and gave up everything to be close to my love. But instead of flying to a new beautiful life, I was rejected. I fell to a world I had not bothered to notice before. And I was alone. I did not know what to do with myself and my emotions. While I lay there dwelling in my sorrow, I was attacked. I was pushed and rolled around. Before I could really comprehend what was going on, I was surrounded by others like myself. They had all given up something important to them and got nothing in return. I was no longer alone. And although I would never be with the one I loved, I could still go on with life. I could find a new kind of happiness.
Angela Herzig Jul 2012
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Everything is breaking; cracking. And you are trying to fix it with duct tape. Just because it's covered doesn't mean it's not there. The walls that fell. . . Well I've been regretting that. I am naked and cold. You think that you're giving up a lot. You can't even see my sacrifices. You stab me with those eyes, love. You burn and freeze. And I'm just a stop on your path of destruction.
Angela Herzig Jul 2012
This is the time. And here is the place. Just another lost cause with another lost face. This is empty. These walls do not speak. They are waiting for you to tell the stories that will be passed from father to son. A long night and a burning taste. It will fill your mouth and consume. The passion you always wanted but could never muster. I swear she is ok. Still living somewhere deep inside there. It's not my fault you are blind to the world. Blood is meaningless. The most foul dirt. Why is it so treasured? It is going to spill and evaporate. The heart is weak and the mind frail. Easy to destroy. Let's play a game , you and I. Who will last longer? Just a jumble of words to you, but so much more is hidden between the lines. I told you you were blind. The heart of a circle is really a square.

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