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Mar 2015 · 427
Insufferable Insecurity
Angela Catalon Mar 2015
I cry for almost everything
I cry for reasons I can't explain
I cry for words that cut me deep
I cry because I'm told that I'm insane

I hurt because I think too much
I hurt because I can't let things go
I hurt sometimes for nothing
I hurt for reasons you already know

I'm angry because I can't like myself
I'm angry because I won't try
I'm angry because I think I'm not beautiful
I'm angry because when you say it, I'm worried it's a lie

I'm scared because I love you
I'm scared that someday you'll find someone new
I'm scared because I'm useless
I'm scared because there's so many people who do things better than I do

I know it's just insecurity
And that maybe it's just in my head
But sometimes I wonder if I'm right
And if I'm just better off dead

You'd think with the life that I have
I'd be happy all the time
But there's just something in me that is wrong
And it keeps me from being just fine

I'm hopeful that one day I'll be normal
I'm hopeful that I'll be secure
I'm hopeful that one day I won't go crazy
I'm hopeful that one day I'll be sure

I'm told by many that I am important
Even if it is just for now
I know that I should start believing in myself
Now I just need to find out how
Written for my teenage cousin

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