i dont know what to do, i feel so lost and nothing i do seems to help me in this struggle, you dont seem to give me the respect and love i deserve,i dont think you understand how much that hurts me, because all i want is all your love and attention and kindness, but you kind of make it seem like im not worth your time, all i do is love you and talk about you,and am super nice to you,i have done so much for you its rediculous, and all i ask in return is that you respect and love me the way i deserve, and i know thats not too much to ask for, especially after all the things i have done for you and bought you, like that really nice and really expensive guitar! i have never once asked you to buy me something, because i dont want your money, all i want is you, and all of your sexyness and perfectness and your love especially, so please take that into consideration next time you want to be rude to me, and think does she really deserve this, because i dont!!! i love you sooo much ok, but i want you to love me too!! <3

Without you all i feel is pain
the feelings i have for you dont fade or ever go away
they continue to grow stronger each day with every kiss
life without you is something i cant and dont want to imagine
we both have scars, with memories that can not be erased
but together we are stronger
in your hands my heart has been placed
if you do stumble or fall, please remember i will always be here for you to help you through the struggle,
I will love you no matter what, and that is a promise i know i can always keep! <3 :)

Love me tommorrow for it is a new day, love me again like when we first met
love me always, for my heart beats only for you
kiss me sweetly and gently, hold me tight, for im afraid to fall
dont forget your promises, for i had too many broken
hold my hand to guide my way
hold my heart to keep it safe
tell me that ill always be yours,
because i know youll always be my only love
tell me you love me with all of your heart, and comfort me, and always be there for me,
I love you my perfect love! <3

your my ******* brother, but you treat me like im your slave, im so sick and tired of the nasty way you look at me, and i promise i will never let you take advantage of me again, i cant believe you would even dare try and put your arm around me at grandpas funeral, you are a sick ****, and thats all you will EVER be, you make me sick to my stomach wen i think about all the horrible things you did to me when i was little, you took advantage of me in the worst way possible, and i will never forgive you!! you Jordan are the very reason why i was a lesbian for so long, after what you did to me, i pretty much lost all trust in ever guy, until i met my perfect man Nick, he has treated me better than anyone else, and he has givin me the love and comfort that ive always wanted, he is my everything, and when i look into his gorgeous green eyes, i know that everything is going to be ok as long as i have him in my life, holding me close and comforting me, so i just want to say thank you so much Nick for being the perfect bofriend to me, i love you SOOOOO MUCH!!!! and i also want to say a big ******* to my brother!!!

You are my perfect baby, and I promise you I will love you forever and always, Nick you are my perfect boyfriend, and I will ALWAYS be here for you NO MATTER WHAT!!!! <9999999999 XOXOXOXOXOXO :)

I am so glad we can start over knew, and forget both of our pasts, I love you so much and I can tell this is going to be a beautiful relationship, I promise to be the best girlfriend to you ever, you mean the world to me baby, and you make me so proud!!! I am always so happy with you, and no one else, I love you now and forever!!! <99999999999999 XOXOXOXOXOXO :)

I can't believe that you would actually think I'm cheating on you, when I litterally dedicate my life towards you, and do everything for you!!!! You think that when I went to the movies with my FRIEND Ben was bad, how the hell do you think I felt, when I found out you were going over Alicia's house, that hurt me so bad!!! I love you and that's all that matters, and you need to see that if I didn't love you and only want you, I wouldn't have done all of the things I have done for you!!! So please baby take me back because it was just yesterday that you were promising me that you would never leave me, I need you now more than ever, and I know you need me too, so lets just get back together please, because we are meant for each other!!!! <9999999999 XOXOXOXOXOXO :)

If you can't be successful where you are now in life, you can never be successful where you go in life :)

I'm so glad I have you baby, you really are my everything and I love you sooooo much!!!! <3 <3 <3 :)

Please don't loose me because that will be the biggest mistake you ever make, I give you literally everything you ask for and I always try to keep you happy, I love you with all of my heart. Everyone makes mistakes, especially me, and I am truly sorry for all of the wrong I have done to you, I really hope you forgive me because you mean the world to me, you really do my perfect love love :) <9999999 I will hold you in my arms forever I promise XOXOXOXOXOXO <3

I'm so sorry for all of the mistakes I've made baby, I am so sorry I'm not perfect and I really hope you can forgive me, I'm so sorry for my jealousy issues and I promise I will work on them for us baby, because I want this relationship to last forever, and I just love you soooo much and can't wait to hold you in my arms forever and always have you!! <999999999 XOXOXOXOXOXO :)

I need you to show me that I'm the only girl in the world that truly matters to you, I want you to love me with all of your heart, I will always love you and no other, please just prove to me you need me too, and I am your only one, please!! I just want to be treated like I'm your queen, because you are my king, again I just want you to see me as the only girl in the world that you truly love, because I truly love you and you are my one and only baby, I promise!!!! <999999999999 we've always had something special and I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you and make you my husband because you look soooo **** in a tux, and I'm going to look great in a beautiful wedding dress ;) XOXOXOXOXOXO <3

Why do I try to be perfect, when it's not possible? Why does my dad hate me, and is never proud of what I do? Why did my brother do what he did to me and ruined my life? Why was my mom always drunk and stupid? Why did I let her physically abuse me every day? Why would she think its ok to fill my baby bottle up with alcohol when I was a child? Why was my father never there for me? Why did he nearly **** me and my mom? What did I do to deserve such a ****** up childhood? It's just not fair!!! But you know it's ok now because I just keep looking forward and try not to look back at the past, I have an amazing life now, a perfect boyfriend who I love so much and a best friend named Jenny who has always been there for me, I love both of them very much and they mean the world to me they really do, my boyfriend Nick always makes sure I am ok and always keeps me smiling and laughing and lets me know that I always will have him and how special I am, I am so luck to have my man Nick in my life, I really am, everything I've gone through in life, I know I need him, because he is so perfect for me and he's always here for me when I need comfort, I love him SOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!! AND ALWAYS WILL!!!!! <9999999999 XOXOXOXOXOXO :)

I've had such a ****** up life, and if you we're to ask me what it was like I would say imagine the worste possible childhood ever and that would be my childhood, I've gone through so much, but it's ok because I've turned out so well, I have an amazing and perfect boyfriend who I love more than anything, and I know he'll be by my side no matter what happens, and I know for a fact that I want to spend the rest of my life with him, I am the luckiest girl alive to have found such a perfect boyfriend like him, I've lost so many people in my life, but I am so happy to say that I know I'm never going to loose him, and he will be mine forever, he has changed me in so many great ways, I never thought I could love someone as much as I love him, I didn't even realize it was possible to love someone so much, but anyway the moral of the story Is that no matter how horrible and rough your life has been, it will always get better I promise, and you will always find someone who loves you for who you are, and they will always be with you, like me and my boyfriend Nick, it will get better though don't worry :) <999999999999999 XOXOXOXOXOXO

Unfortunately I'm not perfect, and I make mistakes, and I'm definitely not the most beautiful girl in the world, but you know what, I've had such a hard life, but i have such a huge heart that only wants you, I know we are perfect for each other, and I love you soooo much, so I really hope you can just except me who I am, and realize no body is perfect especially not me, and I hope I can still be the only love in your life, I want to know how much I mean to you, and I want to know I'm the only one for you baby, because you are definitely the only one for me and if I can't have you I don't want anyone else!!!! <99999999999999 XOXOXOXOXOXO :)

Nick your love is my drug, every morning I wake up to the thought of your perfectness, every day you amaze me, you make me so proud and I love you more than anything, I would literally do anything for you baby, you are my world and I need you like I need air, I just couldn't live without you, I will always be here for you baby, forever and always, you are the best thing that has ever happened to me, and you keep me happy on a daily basis, without you I would be a miserable nothing, you complete me, and I can't wait to make you my husband and the father of our kids, words can't even explain how perfect you are my love, I love you soooooo much, FOREVER AND ALWAYS YOURS!!!!! <9999999999999999999999999999 XOXOXOXOXOXO XOXOXOXOXOXO :D

each second that goes by i love you more and more baby, and my heart has only beat for you, our love is so strong and perfect it could NEVER fade, i will ALWAYS be by your side just like i have been all along forever baby, we were meant to be together like peanut butter and jelly, but so much better, your the only thing that can keep a smiling all day long and when your not around i cant be happy, your voice is so deep and **** and perfect, it makes me the happiest person alive when i hear it, when you hug and kiss me i fall so deep in love its crazy, its a love that never ends, your lips are so soft and so sweet, i love you soooo much baby now and forever i promise!!!!! <3 <3 <9 <9 <9 XOXOXOXOXOXO :)

all i ever do is love you so i dont understand why you disrespect me sometimes, i dont think you realize how much it hurts me, your practically breaking my  heart a little bit at a time, i have given you all of my love, and ive given you everything youve asked for, ive actually gone out of my way so many times just to get you what you wanted, but i do that because i love you, and your the only guy ive ever loved and actually had a serious relationship with, i understand your going through a lot right now baby, and i promise ill be the best girlfriend to you ever and ill be by your side through it all i promise, ill never let go of the love that we have because its so strong and perfect, just like you baby, i love you now and forever!!!!! and please Nick just talk to me if theres anything wrong, because i will try my hardest to fix it, you just need to open up to me, and i cant wait till our date its going to be so much fun my love!!! :D XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX <3 <3 <3

I'm so sorry my love that I haven't been able to see you in a while because of this stupid snow storm, but I just want you to know how much I love you, and I guess the next time ill see you is on our date during the vacation, because I have no school the rest of this week, and I am so sorry about that!!! I can't wait to see you again soon though, just remember how much I love you and we can get through this together baby!!!! <3 <3 <3 XOXOXOXOXOXO :D

I always knew that we were meant to be baby, our love will last FOREVER Nick, i can promise you that, i didnt believe in love at first site, until i met you my love, and i know that no matter how many mistakes we make, we will still be together, because everyone makes mistakes, and if we didnt then there would be something wrong with our relationship. i love you more than anything in the whole world, and that will NEVER CHANGE!!!!!! Our love is stronger than the hardest diamond, and when we kiss its magic, and nothing else in the world matters except our love!!!! XOXOXOXO <3 <3 <3 :)

I love my Nick, he is so dear to me, he is my only love EVER and no one or nothing will EVER change that!!! When I picture my future, I can't picture it without him, he will be my future, my husband, and the best father to our child, I know for a fact I want to spend the rest of my life with him, my only love love <3 <3 <3 :)