Emptiness is an embrace
at it's best in absolute zero
no emotion
no existence
no warmth
and no life

it is alone
a giant being filling every space
in and out of known existence
with cold calculating precision
no passion

Yet it can lose so easily to everything
because it can only be compared to nothing

immeasurable
even in the way of our universe
emptiness carries itself beyond

Neither organic or synthetic
it is ethereal
larger than anything

stars and the nebulae they live in
if stars are alive
then maybe they feel it too

a screaming silence with a whispered touch
embracing the warmth and light
because it knows endless darkness
it has no day and cannot call it a night

Knights of the Nebulae
sustain and destroy life
for when they die  
they push everything away
only to be born again

such beauty  
to be a monster and a guardian

so small and precious  to emptiness  
if it could feel
it would be eternity

So here I am
ready to face a new day and I have faced many
ready for heart break when my heart has been broken so many times already
it never ends with people or the things they do or what I do
or don't do
and then there's my face
changed only by physical scars in all the right places
I try to express emotion as much as I can
but if you catch me in my natural state
you would think I was upset or wanted to **** someone
no
I'm just fine
I just look unimpressed with life and the task at hand
and it isn't so far from the truth generally
off and on my heart breaks daily
I feel the weight of sadness in me
it comes for many reasons or for no reason at all
and there's anger breaking my mind and causing me to become so single minded in my rage
holding everything in until I have destroyed all my inner peace
even in peace my face never changes
if you can't make me laugh then watch me do it for you
I have a great sense of humor and yet not everyone agrees
it's just so difficult to wait for someone with a decent sense of humor to laugh with me
peace love and laughter all come and go
so does sadness and anger
between all that I am left with nothing, but a face
a face you want to punish for being so unmoved by your words and actions or lacking thereof
I could reach into my abysmal past and bring it all to the surface for you and your trivial opinion to see that I've had enough of life for one existence and I'm still here
I do what I want when I can and I do not allow those to stand in my way to continue being in my life as long as I am able to choose
you can imagine the terrible suffering I must endure when my choice and freedoms are taken from me and I assure you it ages me quicker and I will think of a way around it all
I know I won't live forever, but see how long my name floats through the ages
see what I do with the life I have
I know I will be torn down time and time again
just as I know I will rise all the same
just so I can tell you to go **** yourself
with just a look on my face that everyone just seems to love so much

Look at everything you see
some of them are make believe
put inside your head and never to speak
insanity to make you think
nobody knows anything
freaks of nature living inside
to take control of the mind
no child left behind
manipulate to control mankind
in the see of the blind
threatened with punishment to keep you tame
controlled by fear to make you very afraid
of running from a capitalist prison you can't escape
designed by the malevolent and insane
corruption hides behind an innocent face
mislead with the poison in our hearts
the beauty in lies tears the truth apart
distracted by the memories that take us too far
back to the entertainment that defines who we are
just wait for another genocide to start
rights will be taken away and our chances will be gone
taken from under us it will be too late when we see what is wrong
trusting power more than we should ends with the suffering we'll endure for too long
the suffering only grows stronger and the pain never stops so the torture carries on
who makes the money from the news
who obtains the power  
if we can't find the answer from what we read then we are being lied to
we are tools of war and command against our will to be used

The rich man has his money
the poor man has his love
the rich man without his money has absolutely nothing
the poor man can find love out of nothing and that is enough

Money can't buy happiness
but it can buy friends
it can't buy love
but it can buy a marriage

A person could buy loyalty with the side effect of betrayal
in the end they're on their own cradled by money making them personally frail

When the world around you takes a turn for the worst
all that paper isn't going to cure hunger or keep you from dying of thirst
your going to be stuck and caught in a storm
you can at least burn paper to make a fire and keep you warm

It's life over possession to get over fear and aggression
from lies to confessions money rules the world
at the peak of obsession  at the end of the world there will be a lesson
learning to survive and using your instinct would be a better investment

Money won't keep us alive
it fuels those in power while we believe the lies
this is the after life
we are the saviors who live so they don't have to die

Images growing more sharp
with everything that surrounds me
noticing what I hear
sounds of pain being replaced
with a sense of euphoria
or a jolt of energy

For what has been done to you
you do this to yourself
not seeing what you have done to me
what you've done to your children

I'm grateful for your love
but you still gave me a life
a child would not want to take
if only there were a choice
for the better you would have made

Leaving my brother with me
in places we've never been
with people we never met
we could have been taken away

While you celebrate addiction
with the corrosion of your life
we were left behind
worried you'd never come back

No matter what
we loved you to no end
wanting to be there for you
because among all those people
there was not one true friend

If I knew then what I know now
I would have begged you to stop
no more pain
no more going away
just your love

Maybe if I did
you'd still be here...
if there was a hell after your death
maybe you would know
because you left us there

Ever since we've been crawling out
and dragged back in
it wears us down
so we are never the same again

I stopped getting older and I stopped caring about a special day about my life
surviving didn't seem like a miracle compared to the punishment I compared it to
and now I find myself avoiding attention for it just so I can be alone
my hatred for loneliness has since changed for the love of getting away
seems there's a little more hair on my face, but when I shave
I still look like a kid, but with less passion  
slaving away at my job for a little bit of money so can have some paper before I die
the last thing I need is to die so I guess everything else comes before that
most of it is ******* and I wish I could destroy the system and create my own
being one of those people with silly ideas  
still wishing, still hoping and still doing what I can
to give myself more hope as my wishes are made to myself
I no longer wish for love, I love myself now
I no longer hope she comes back, I love myself now
I no longer wait for things to get better, I do it myself now  
I'm getting older and my birthday is just another day I age  
another day when I feel happiness and pain
another day when the sun will shine before it rains
it's all okay because it's just another day
the last time I celebrated my birthday was the last time my childhood was most alive
now it's not so great, I'm having a rough childhood and growing up isn't all that it was cracked up to be
it's mostly full of **** and full of people who make up all that ****.

Motives of the mind
desperation of the soul
no wonders are left behind
behold

A touch of brilliance
reinforced by strength
enlightened in curiosity
of what is in the dark

Unlimited undiscovered
birthing inspiration
growing imagination
breathing anticipation

Solid beginnings
full of possibilities
surviving the outcomes
to reach an end

Stars shine bright
in cold darkness
to make space
beautifully between
each other

The death of one
becomes the birth of one
infinite and eternally
living and dying
to build and destroy

Chaotically forming order
so it seems
the magnificent charm
of endless darkness
surrounding light.

When I think of you
I think of feeling your skin pressed firmly against me
I tease your lips with the promise of a kiss as I close my eyes in the silence surrounding us
We are intimately close and I need this feeling so bad
But I know it'll never happen because it already did and you're dead to me
Rest in pieces

Not everything appears to be interesting
when you think you know something
about about the present
you have no idea about

It's another surprise
you overlook
because you don't care
you think you don't want  it

Do you want materialistic things
because you can see them
and feel them
don't they make all the bad things go away?

So you would think
to feel love for something
you traded paper for
just for possession

Do you like it?
It's a new model
they made hundreds of thousands of
just for you because you're all so special

How about a complementary waste of space
to make you less of a person
and more of living item
this is the dream we live for

Nothing sacred here
just broken dreams
oh and guess what
there's a pill for that

What do we know?
That we know
what we remembered
from learning in our language

We understand scribbles
better than we understand ourselves
we think we know
but we know nothing
just think and observe

Try to remember
and call it knowledge
instead of an event
if it doesn't matter
to you.

I don't truly understand
it's just an idea in my head

Enjoy your things

thanks for getting in the way
but I'll find my way around
you pose such an obstacle for me
so if you want to be a part of my path
I will make you the main course just this once
this is all about you
how you take away from me
you are a blank in my thoughts
a garden without flowers
a child without an imagination

Thank you for challenging me
thank you for getting in my way
I never understood our friendship until now
you're only helping me overcome doubt
opening my imagination a little more
so I can do better
you're as much of my best friend  
as you are my worst enemy

Gone is the wind when day turns to night
Like the air I breathe before light of my life
Steals my very breath
Just a kiss to forget
In my embrace you hold time in place and we are together forever stealing each other's breath away
Just one look at you and my heart begins to pound in my chest because I can't believe I got this far in love with you

Today feels like second place in a race I was the only one participating
Participating in showing love just because I wanted to be enough for you
But in the end I never will because I never stop even when I have time to ****
But I don't want blood on my hands when I could have you

I can't think of anything without being guilty
my mind is ***** and my hands are filthy
like a **** as pretty as a flower that is wilting
keep digging me more holes I'm always filling

my innocence is like a child you left at the store
and didn't realize until you got home
sorry is all you'll ever be when I don't want you anymore
without you I'm just me and I don't mind being alone

I have a present to give to the past
as it is what I have to use to live.
An instant moment in time
as motion leaves it behind.  

See how long it can wait
where time can take its' place
even though the future was never promised.

Reach to a silent nothing
an empty space for a universe

Life is the dream that lives for nothing
death brings the dream closer to awakening

I don't really know what I'm doing
I'm just going along with what I feel
hopefully it takes where I wanna be
don't want be another walker

saving my own life
is easier than changing the world
just so I don't become one of them
living to death

savor these moments
enjoy the illusion
that everything happens
for the best

so go ahead
assume the worst
if I can change you mind
**** happens

so sing
instead of speak
if it hurts so bad
go ahead and be upset

it's okay to cry
let the tears roll
if you love yourself
you can still be strong

all for the right moments
for the right someone
who don't know
until they see

it isn't just you or me
it isn't just them
it's about change
can you spare some?

you ain't going nowhere
until you've tried this dirt
it feels so good on your feet
it tastes like earth

growing life
on land and sea
think hydration
before you touch me

don't judge me monkey
I don't know what I'm doing