Dreams are different
and they are a part of life
behind closed eyes
to open minds

Worlds like the one we share
places we never thought could exist
beings we would otherwise never see
all for fear and enlightenment

None can be more vivid
than the nightmares
fear to make us feel weak
to conquer us in our sleep

Try not to fall prey to darkness
stay in the light
if you wish to see
what is coming after you

My world is blackening
all around me
saving me for last
leaving me no hope

I have reached the end of my dreams
where I am running away
all the fear chasing me
has shut all the gates

It wraps me in the cold
and runs over me
trapped inside a cocoon
I feel everything changing

Carry me to another dream
where I can be free
to change my world
in a new image

Fear corrupted my mind
as I corrupted my dreams
and all those who I thought of
were changed

Sometimes I wonder if we can ever
be in the same dream with each other
It seems to be the only place I see you
anymore

Life is short
nights are long
forever in darkness
where we find a glimpse of light

Don't lose the dream
let the nightmares chase us
fear shows us courage
courage gives us strength

Change is inevitable
nothing is forever the same

Dreams to nightmares
normal to insanity
prey to killer

All the words I make with sounds
with a canvas of silence
a rage of emotions come out
like peace provokes violence

Free the mind
leave all the quiet order behind
our feelings shouldn't be disguised
and our thoughts should be realized

Be free as possible like a patient escaping a mental hospital
crazy to think you can't prove sanity when there so many normal's in humanity
unrestrained growth could help us realize we have anywhere we can go
doesn't matter what we think we know because it's the experience we have to be shown

Life the way it is now is growing tired and the art is uninspired
then we give our money to the liars
who will keep their jobs because they will never get fired
but the money for its' power will always be falsely admired

I know I'm crazy for what I believe
but we're all in the same pool of people who've been deceived
it's getting pretty crowded and I wish I could say "**** it" and leave
though I know for a while this is where I'm going to be
waking up every morning chasing the money while convincing myself somehow that I am free

Forget he's human
just like you
because he loves a man
just like you don't want him to

Forget that she's human
just like you
she likes women
instead of you

Does it break you heart?
when someone falls
out of your expectations
there must be something wrong

He may not have grown up
wanting to be the man
your faith wanted him to become
so where goes the love

Men don't cry
just **** it up
and move on with life

She may not have grown up
being very lady like
so you've had enough
of her relating to the guys

Women aren't strong
you need a man
to hold you up in life

Where are all the people

Oh never mind him
he's just mentally impaired
you can make fun of him
he's too stupid to care

But really
he hurts like the rest of us
needing the acceptance

Where are all the people
with the unconditional love

Why can't these robots see
life is more beautiful
with color

Love should be free
so should our choices
how hard is it to imagine
will it ever be?

Hide your feelings
you might be a woman inside
even though you are a man
you should hate yourself
because everyone else will

What will the children become
when the future is already laid out for them

Who wants to grow up
and have no imagination?

So why be silent
when we can spread love
like a virus
spreads an epidemic

Wake up and stop hating
hate is for those with fear

Forget what you don't know
and accept it for what it is
it's going to be there anyway

Not everything appears to be interesting
when you think you know something
about about the present
you have no idea about

It's another surprise
you overlook
because you don't care
you think you don't want  it

Do you want materialistic things
because you can see them
and feel them
don't they make all the bad things go away?

So you would think
to feel love for something
you traded paper for
just for possession

Do you like it?
It's a new model
they made hundreds of thousands of
just for you because you're all so special

How about a complementary waste of space
to make you less of a person
and more of living item
this is the dream we live for

Nothing sacred here
just broken dreams
oh and guess what
there's a pill for that

What do we know?
That we know
what we remembered
from learning in our language

We understand scribbles
better than we understand ourselves
we think we know
but we know nothing
just think and observe

Try to remember
and call it knowledge
instead of an event
if it doesn't matter
to you.

I don't truly understand
it's just an idea in my head

Enjoy your things

I don't really know what I'm doing
I'm just going along with what I feel
hopefully it takes where I wanna be
don't want be another walker

saving my own life
is easier than changing the world
just so I don't become one of them
living to death

savor these moments
enjoy the illusion
that everything happens
for the best

so go ahead
assume the worst
if I can change you mind
**** happens

so sing
instead of speak
if it hurts so bad
go ahead and be upset

it's okay to cry
let the tears roll
if you love yourself
you can still be strong

all for the right moments
for the right someone
who don't know
until they see

it isn't just you or me
it isn't just them
it's about change
can you spare some?

you ain't going nowhere
until you've tried this dirt
it feels so good on your feet
it tastes like earth

growing life
on land and sea
think hydration
before you touch me

don't judge me monkey
I don't know what I'm doing

Motives of the mind
desperation of the soul
no wonders are left behind
behold

A touch of brilliance
reinforced by strength
enlightened in curiosity
of what is in the dark

Unlimited undiscovered
birthing inspiration
growing imagination
breathing anticipation

Solid beginnings
full of possibilities
surviving the outcomes
to reach an end

Stars shine bright
in cold darkness
to make space
beautifully between
each other

The death of one
becomes the birth of one
infinite and eternally
living and dying
to build and destroy

Chaotically forming order
so it seems
the magnificent charm
of endless darkness
surrounding light.

As I go back to my memories
I feel what I see
when I remember
who and what I used to be

A young boy has his dreams
his nightmares
his judgement
and instinct

Feeling his own
right and wrong
suffering and bliss
danger and comfort
sadness and happiness
hate and love

How the days seemed to drag on
as if I were waiting for an end
wanting to get the worst over with
so I may enjoy the best in the end

I felt a little less love
and little more tough
each day seemed to lead to the worst
with all the things I would learn

The kind of people I did not like
the people who beat people
the people who ***** people
the people who neglected people
and the people who let it happen

I can't blame gender
I can't blame age
just people
because we all are

So why does it happen
not just to our skin
but also underneath
where the pain is longer felt

So much happened around me
I could not control
all the pain and misery
I did not want in my world

I just wanted happiness
I wanted love
with all it's warmth and affection
but it seems to cause a lot of pain

I didn't want the drugs
I didn't want the selfishness
I didn't want the neglect
I didn't want the violence

So many promises were made
so many were broken
so little kept
what was the point in the disappointment

I didn't want to ask what's wrong with the world
I think I have seen enough
I wanted to know what's right
and how to change the wrong to right

Because I didn't want to grow up
in a world filled with lust and greed
yet now I feel them both
inside of me

Doing things now the child in me did not like
I feel as if I have disappointed a child
because I have disappointed myself
giving in to wicked temptation

My corruption
is my understanding
feeling pain is more alive
than no pain at all
as if to feel bliss was dead

It always gets worse
and it always gets better
that's how it always is
and always will be

As time goes on
we get creative with suffering

What is given to a child
a child will use to create
who he/she will be
and will never stop

You can find yourself
when you forget

May childhood never end

A whisper falls into the night
close your eyes
waiting for me to sleep
find me in your dreams

So cold and silent
I'll be there
waiting for the warmth of slumber
* just a little closer*

Hallucinating reality
this is always the beginning
It's like another life
right now it's real

I can't feel my skin
here I am
but I can still feel
control me or I'll control you

I feel fear
* you are slipping*
I feel sadness
* you want to let go
I feel resentment
know what you hold on to*

* I am the voice inside your head*
* the voice you think with*
* I am the loudest cry no one will hear*
* you control me*
* but the fear I speak of controls you*

I want to take courage
and have it become me
so I take bravery
to resolve this insanity
in my dreams

The one place I should have control
* I can help you*
where the days and nights are endless
if you let me
if I wish for them to be

Speak for me
as I speak to you
your true words
as I am a part of you*
who is me

I'm going to explore my mind
to feel who I am
and there I will find
*the place I stand

Where do I go
to find the right place
where I can be me
and live happily

I am often the lonely person in a crowded room
watching over everyone as they relate to each other
how will I ever be a person of people
with all the distance of our indifference

I don't belong here where none of it feels real
there is no genuine favor anymore
just conditional emotions based on desire
fickle and hypocritical with two faces
impulsive for immediate gratification
leaving nothing for those who wait

All we have
are the breaths we take
and the experiences we survive
teach us how to fail brilliantly

In a strange environment
drifting slowly through the world
passing by unknowingly
others who are strange like me
but more unique

It is strangely common to feel different
and that is how I am just the same
I don't want to belong here
I want to be out there
failing because I tried
not because of my indifference  
that kept me grounded

It's a good night to be lost
to be left alone to create
something so horrifying
people will wish  
they could have stopped it

Just sitting there silent and motionless
as it develops into the nasty thing it should become
humanity rotting away
with the mind being abducted by subliminal torture
using life to simulate alternate realities

Moving as ghosts do, as cold shadows move at night
through every tear drop
every ache and pain
until the heart breaks
until there's a willing and somber life to take

The lost become mutated
the unknown need a place to go
to die and be reborn

Let go of the memories
grip the still beating pulse
bring torture and agony

I will teach you what I know

Dear brother of mine
the words I have for you
when you take a familiar path
down a destructive road

It ruined so much of our lives
now it has it's grip on you
how could you accept it
why would you let it in

After everything it has taken away
what it has taught us
you turn your faith to addiction
to replace your own anguish

Life will never be easy for us
but you're making it harder
burying yourself in lost memories
hoping to forget the rest

Take another hit of a seductive high
forget about your future life
it's only right now you live
forget what you have
as you create something so black in you

come a long way to the end
reach for more torture
forget if it hurts your family
we all die anyway

From the greatest and worst times of our lives
we always had each other
to hold on to and to survive
no matter how much it hurt

From one bro to the other
it's not for you
don't make the same kind of mistakes as our mother
you only have this life and you won't get another
just find a better place and live another day

It hurts to see our memories go away
If she saw what you are doing
she would roll in her grave
you will never get these parts of your life back

Not only do you do it to yourself
but you deal it out to others
for the collapse of love and family
a cold union so hollow
no warmth to feel inside

Aching sickness for more to come
only the will to make it go away
like I want it to get out of you
and never return

Images growing more sharp
with everything that surrounds me
noticing what I hear
sounds of pain being replaced
with a sense of euphoria
or a jolt of energy

For what has been done to you
you do this to yourself
not seeing what you have done to me
what you've done to your children

I'm grateful for your love
but you still gave me a life
a child would not want to take
if only there were a choice
for the better you would have made

Leaving my brother with me
in places we've never been
with people we never met
we could have been taken away

While you celebrate addiction
with the corrosion of your life
we were left behind
worried you'd never come back

No matter what
we loved you to no end
wanting to be there for you
because among all those people
there was not one true friend

If I knew then what I know now
I would have begged you to stop
no more pain
no more going away
just your love

Maybe if I did
you'd still be here...
if there was a hell after your death
maybe you would know
because you left us there

Ever since we've been crawling out
and dragged back in
it wears us down
so we are never the same again

thanks for getting in the way
but I'll find my way around
you pose such an obstacle for me
so if you want to be a part of my path
I will make you the main course just this once
this is all about you
how you take away from me
you are a blank in my thoughts
a garden without flowers
a child without an imagination

Thank you for challenging me
thank you for getting in my way
I never understood our friendship until now
you're only helping me overcome doubt
opening my imagination a little more
so I can do better
you're as much of my best friend  
as you are my worst enemy

Just to look
Never to reach
never as good as it could be
a failure to try
judge so harshly
discouraged to take a chance

Secrets are kept
wishes go unfulfilled
one suffers alone
fear is prison
nothingness is home

A feeling of insignificance
desire for love
hope for acceptance
calling for a voice
without condescension

I hope you understand
what I am missing

It is sad to think
of the friendships I gave up
because I didn't speak out
and I wonder

Would our lives be better
if I had tried
or would they be worse

The cultural paradigm has encouraged me to be shy
as some answers are found through ridicule
and there is much sensitivity that has guided me
yet I drive myself crazy wondering what if

I'm starting to see that truly I don't need to justify myself
I should embrace myself and others who do as well
if we can coexist together