I swear I felt your hand in mine,
Your breath against my neck for a brief moment in time.
I guess my brain is telling me lies,
As it does every night since our August goodbyes.
The silence creeps in through that crack in the wall,
Much like my heart no one’s come to fix it and I continue to fall.
I beg and plead for you to remember our favorite night,
The very same one that we had our first fight.
Do you remember the stars shinning so bright?
A cliché that would be misused on any other night.
We jumped in the water as if it were planned,
No wonder I ever fell in love with such a man.

“Don’t go out there,” she said.
“Why,” I gulped, trying to listen.

As soon as I asked,
I knew.
The spirits had taken over you.

This wasn't the man I wanted;
The one who I found loving and strong.

Maybe I had been mistaken about you,
All along.

I like when you’re all cuddled up with me,
I watch your chest rise and fall so gracefully.

I trace the lines on your stomach,
The crevices that make up your tense back,
As we nuzzle up,
For a well-deserved nap.

Your heartbeat slows,
As your breath quickens.
I still myself,
So I can simply listen.

No happier will I ever be,
Than you lying here next to me.

Slow and painful wins the race,
to a life full of sorrow and disgrace.

I can't go this venture alone.

Please- I beg of you,
pick up the phone.

I need your voice,
the one that smooths and calms.

I need to hear your shallow breathing,
on the end of this call.

I can't bare the thought of being alone.

Like every other girl whose been left alone,
Here I am waiting by this old phone.

I pretend to keep myself occupied,
Because I don’t want anyone to see me cry.
How could you have left me with a simple sigh?
It’s as if you were only awaiting a time to say goodbye.
Today all I have done is tell a million lies,
If only I could hear “I miss you” one more time.

Like every other girl whose been made a fool,
What’s this life if I can’t have you?

Why do I always want someone,
when they're gone?
Why do I find them so alluring,
when we are over and done?

I call you the coward,
you the liar,
you the thief,
you the heart breaker,
but I'm the home wrecker.

I do it on purpose you know,
I lead them on;
tell them I love them,
when I don't.

I said that I would never say I loved someone when I didn't mean it,
but I don't love you.

It's getting dark.
It's getting cold.
I might not love you,
but that doesn't mean feelings can't unfold.

You hold me,
close to your heart.
I wait for your call,
I feel as if I will never part from your arms.

Strange how he's,
no longer apart of me.
You took his place,
faster than the speed my heart does race.

He is so kind,
I wanted him to be mine.
But now that you're gone,
I find it hard to move on.

Is it bad that I long for you?
What else should I do?
I'm your Sally Hayes,
the one you pushed away.

Maybe I'd be better on my own,
instead of running from home to home.
The world is far to cold,
to trust anyone who's far too bold.

The right one will come along,
but I have waited far too long.
I don't care if you can't offer more,
I need you behind closed doors.

Things, at times, are so much simpler than we make them.

Sometimes, he doesn't love you.
Sometimes, we cry.
Sometimes, he won't stay.

Sometimes, he does love you.
Sometimes, it was just a good day.
Sometimes, he is going to stay.

We can't explain everything.  We lose what we want and stumble upon better.
We question and wonder, but this doesn't mean that you have some complex disorder that will change your life.   You don't need anything more than to know that things just happen.

I've been crazy,
since the day I was born.
A little lazy,
and always torn.
But it's okay,
I'll succeed anyway.

You say I can be happy on my own,
that I am just phony who never picks up the phone,
but I refuse to believe that tonight.

I only know who I want to be,
I don't know who I am
it's getting hard to see.
It's two a.m.,
still won't answer the phone,
he calls but I'm not alone.

I crave your bitter honesty,
how you drown in every insecurity,  
you are the only one I know who scares me.

I'm a friend you say,
but one you can't tell anything to.
You push me away,
then blame me through and through.
You trusted her more,
then she threw your secrets out the door.

Hold me oh so tight,
please I don't want to fight.
I know you hate me and I can't see you anymore.

I've never cared for someone like you,
I hate the way you criticize me for what you do.
Go back to the one you love,
you don't care enough to leave.
Go live your life,
forget about this temporary bliss.  

Unrequited love is such a bore.

I've felt so much, for so many
Where do you go?
To face your mistakes
Where do you go,
when you feel empty
How do you know,
who you wanna be?
Who is this "me"?

Are you done crying,
looking for pity?
Are you done lying,
cause you'll get none from me?
I'm done wasting my time,
on a girl who says she's in her prime.

It was over,
before it even started.

You wanted more,
I was an abonmination to the plan.

I was no beauty queen,
just an eye sore.

Thought it would be better;
it was worse then before.

Now I am sure we'll be friends again,
but for now I don't give a ****.

******* one over;
the other wants an arrow through my head.

Thought I'd always have two friends;
ended up with none instead.

He still loves me;
he hates me more.

He acts like I'm posion;
they say hes begging for more.

Now I'm just bored with this nonsense;
gotta start over again.

I want someone to impress me,
make me feel more than ever before.

Be a challenge,
make me want more.

For now I gotta cool down,
take a break from it all.

Maybe to rise,
we all have to fall.

Sometimes lies seem to linger,
I cannot help but wonder what was true.
I traced your outline with my fingers,
where has my sanity gone?

I hope you forgive,
my reckless heart.
I hope you live,
without the regrets I face.

What was your name?
All I can picture is your hands.
I wallow in shame,
these problems I create.

It is better that I left sooner,
sooner rather than later.

I wanted more,
more than you could give me.

You had one to may secrets, were too afraid of being vulnerable.  I am now that way too.
I always thought you were just stubborn, didn't love me in anyway, but now I know the truth.
You told me I was the child wife, never wanting to speak of anything strong, but you were wrong.
You were the child restricting my speech, it is something I'd never believe, but you wanted to make me leave.
I could speak on no serious matter, because of the words I knew you'd soon speak, it was hard to think.
I wanted to speak politics, future plans,  literature strong and true.
But you my friend, made me afraid, of the things I always wanted to do.

We have all been together,
for so very long.
We have made each other weak,
inspired each other to be strong.

Now everybody's running,
heading different ways.
But when the clouds break,
we pause and admire the sun's rays.

We are all one,
For a brief moment.
Just trying our best,
searching for life's  fufilment.

A new chapter has been started,
a book has been read.
This happens all the time,
a new idea has been bred.

That doesn't mean we won't remember,
the times we have spent.
All the hearts broken,
and advice lent.

An adventure has started,
we can conquer brand new things.
It is now the time to fly,
we all can spread our wings.

Not telling you,
you were wrong.

Not saying I,
I was right.

I am just to tired now,
no longer want to fight.

Rising from the ground,
feet planted steady.

Head up to the sky,
I was born ready.

I am no longer afraid,
of not being the best.

It is time to take a stand,
and give my mind a rest.

Fight for what I need,
earn what I want.

Deal with what comes,
be brighter than the sun.

Blankets so warm.
Sheets so soft.
Pages of a new book will soon be worn,
laying here in my loft.

It's time for a nap,
what can I say?
After reading a comic,
why can't all days come this way.

To preserve whats left of my strength,
I need a little rest.
A few hours of closing my eyes,
so this evening I can give it my best.

We used to have an old tea ***,
we drank from it,
a hell of a lot.

We once had a tree of dreams,
growing steadily,
bursting with leaves.

Where did that go?

What happened,
happened to us?
I'm not trying to make a big fuss.

Finding someone to fall for,
wasn't hard to do.
One look a him,
and it was true.

He made feel safe, welcomed,
and warm.
He made my wounds,
seem as if they were never torn.

One day I found,
I couldn't recognize me.
The person I looked at,
once was free.

She had so many hope and dreams,
so many aspirations.
She was going to be strong,
save this great Nation.

But she was gone,
never to be safe and sound.
I had to get her back you see,
by fading away to relieve the pressure by the pound.


I didn't leave you for anyone else,
I left you for myself.

I read,
to get rid of the pain.
For if I live someone else's life,
I have no time to be vain.

It helps me remember,
it helps me to forget.
It rests the burning ember,
of fear ever on my chest.

The person I wanted to be,
I cannot recall.
I once yearned to run free,
but now I just fall.

I read of others,
how they are proud and strong.
Thoughts of them smother,
so I feel I am no longer in the wrong.

It just comes to a point,
where you don't want it anymore.
When words that are said,
turn you and make your heart sore.

When all the tears are shed,
no one's to blame.
It's neither's fault this time,
you'll just have to adjust to the pain.

Once it has happened one to many times,
you just snap.
You put on a happy face,
never look back.

No one knows there is a battle raging on,
deep down in side.
To convince yourself to move on,
you've tried to lie.

You've got to start over,
pray a bit each night.
Don't look over that shoulder,
find other fights to fight.

You sang for her.
You sang for what you once felt.
You sang to relieve the pressure.
You sang to let it out.
You sang with such passion.
You sang with such truth.
You sang without a thought of me.

I cry because I know it.
I cry because everyone knows it.
I cry because I say I am over it.
I cry because I felt that way about you.
I cry because you never returned the love.

I smile because its over and done.
I smile because you're going to be fine.
I smile because I met a new boy to heal this heart of mine.

There you stand,
speaking words that burn.
There they go,
slipping off your tongue.

Think of others,
and how they wish to be portrayed.
Look deeper inside,
to see underneath their pain.

There is hope,
love,
dreams,
a cure.

A cured derived,
from a brand new vision.
Good can indeed survive,
depending on your final decision.

Will you choose what is right?
Noble, fair and true?
Will you let free,
the dreams inside of you?

It is up to no one,
no one but yourself.
Only you can show the world,
and not leave your potential on a shelf.

I miss the way you write on your desk.

I miss the way you always gave it your best.


I miss your real laugh when no one is around.

I miss how you made me feel safe and sound.


I miss the smell of the ocean in the morn.

I miss the commotion of a brand new storm.


I miss so very much,

each and everyday.


Such a pity we all,

have to live this way.

I hope she loves you,
more than I did.
I hope she holds you,
when you cry.
I hope she never,
makes you say goodbye.

I hope she notices,
the pictures you draw in the sky.
So bright,
so new,
so true.

I hope she loves you,
and you love her too.

I hope you see her,
and remember how lucky you are.
Remember how she puts the light,
in every single star.

I hope you kiss her,
kiss her nice and slow.
Slow enough to let her know,
you adore her.

I hope you notice every single word,
the way his lips move.
The way she never stirs.

They're so perfect,
in their perfect little way.
Like pieces of a puzzle,
finally finding their place.

They've had trouble,
but they're on their way.
The way to happiness,
a little bit each day.

I see them walking,
side by side,
hand in hand.

I wish it would've worked,
the way that I had always planned.

You're always in my head.
Why can't you just leave?
I want to free these feelings inside of me.

Is it you that I love?
Or our memories that I cannot get enough of?

I know there is someone new,
consuming up all the thoughts inside of you.

Yet you don't know,
and if you did,
our relationship would never even grow.

So I will waste my time,
filling up these empty lines.

Until the day that I meet someone new,
but you will never know, will you?

I'll never find,
a waste of time,
that distracts me enough,
to get you off my mind.

I'll never cry,
nor will I die,
for if I ever did,
to many chances would slip by.

I'll never run,
or become undone,
because I will show you,
my plans are not overdone.

I'm guilty,
that I'm addicted to your secrets.
I'm guilty,
that I'm addicted to your lies.

I'm guilty,
that I'm so addicted to his eyes.
I'm guilty,
but I won't admit it deep down inside.

For Elijah:
So I posted my HelloPoetry on Twitter,
So I could get it all out and not be bitter.

I thought that lack of interest would pave the way,
but to my dismay I found out it was viewed one-day.

Once I found out it had all been read,
it made me want to cry and hide under my bed.

But then why did I post it all along?
For people to read, therefore I must not act like it was wrong.

I’ll never let you go,

seems like words that always turn into a lie.



Consuming hopes and dreams,

what a massive waste of time.



Living on questions,

wonder what’s wrong.



Fate is elegant,

cruel and plans appear to not belong.

Somehow this world is always trying,

to destroy something so strong.

When falling leaves turn to dust,

when hope is strung out far too long.

When you forget the simplest things,

when you no longer think of yourself as strong.



Think of when I held your hand,

ever so tight.

Through all the hints of jealousy,

anger and most of all spite.





You must turn your head to the future,

when hearts are broken from words unspoken.



I loved you then like I love you now,

But love has such a loose meaning to you.

Who are you?

I can’t breathe.

This new you has taken a hold of me.


I am the only one to see,

the truth behind your lies.

I am the only one to see,

The heart you have hidden in side



They talk about you,

about what you do,

about what you say

don’t walk away.

Been so long since I’ve glanced your way,

maybe that was my mistake.



You’ve always been by my-side,

making those tears  break.



Laughing and smiling,

always fun and games.



Thought friends was all we’d ever be,

but I guess I was wrong.



Ever so wrong.,

mistaken all along.

Everything you’re not,

I’m going to strive to be.

What you did before,

I now can finally see.

Helped no one then,

helps no one now.

You appear heartless,

I always ask how.

You have a good heart,

what a painful waste.

Your mind constantly filling,

with thoughts of distaste.

So much potential,

Just thrown away.

I will always be here,

To help you on that fateful day.

The day when you see,

The person you can be.

Not the boy you are now,

selfish and mind running free.

Until then:

Everything you’re not,

I’m going to strive to be.

What you did before,

I now can finally see.