I would sing you a song
But my heart's out of tune
Sore from all the playing with
Its melody's blue

But I've a lovely escape
Where I forget about you
It takes me a while, but
It's worth coming to

'Cuz when I'm there I can laugh
And show how I feel
No holding back
All my smiles are real

To remember the past
Is a fruitless affair
I'm erasing the memories
Content not to care

If your words make me cry
Or wish I were nothing
I'll just breathe, close my eyes
And find what makes me sing

Waiting, wanting
knowing it's so far away
Crying, aching
smiling like it's all okay
Joking, laughing
just to cover up
Hiding, faking
almost out of luck

The truth is a lie
and no one is honest
It's too late to try
I'm just like the rest
I never was an option
though I liked to pretend
After all, in the long run
I'm only a friend

I was absent of a chance
though you've given her many
I'm not worthy of your glance
your choices are plenty
Our "moments" were a game
and you played it well
I'll never be the same
I'm still under your spell

Waiting, wanting
knowing it's so far away
Crying, aching
smiling like it's all okay
Joking, laughing
just to cover up
Hiding, faking
almost out of luck

crisscross
interlapping
wishes cost
neverlasting

stumble fall
vows are broken
blank white walls
silence spoken

can't deny
shapeless shadows
asking why
nobody knows

feeling cold
snap the framework
now i'm bold
dangers still lurk

empty stares
shout to smile
no one cares
turn the dial

switch the light
crash without me
stretch to height
slumberlessly

don't look back
filled with dread
aching heart but
rest's ahead

lost in time
thoughts explode
drifts in rhyme
what we sowed

reality's
the only option
present freeze
healing motion

wipe away
view the sunset
edges fray
rid the regret

fear exposed
not mistaken
my hopes rose
dreaming, taken

For so long, our whispers
Held secrets never told
But one day, we ran out
Something in us grew old

Confusing as it may be
We both knew it was true
Dropping anchor in the past
Was not wise to do

We agreed "nothing's wrong"
Certain struggles were ignored
But if one thing could be said
From the shadows, silence roared

Stretching between us was
A gulf of emptiness
And the answer to the problem
Still, I cannot guess

Emerald eyes glisten; I strain to see your soul.
'Tis forever been a mask, hiding is your role.
Listen...look! Pay attention, or you'll miss me
A ghost of before-life; floating aimlessly

Remember the shivers, up and down your spine?
When I told you, "I know this, I never miss a sign"
Smiles, tears; forced forever will be
If you don't know where to go, I can set you free

I know the void inside you, I'll fill it if I may
You've forever been see-through, fragile like clay
I'll break you! or I'll mend you; it's all in your choice
Let me out of this prison. I am your voice

Rip it and out spills
the terror and cold chills
my heart isn't anchored
so leave me alone.

Shock flits and shakes up
my entire make up
i reached for some solace
but only found air.

Nights of pure heartache
are endless so i'll take
a breath of this sorrow
and exhale my song.

The morning is coming
but sleep is still running
from me and I can't seem
to catch it for long.

My hope is off floating
its layers recoating
so when it comes back
i can tear it again.

But i'll wish for dreams
and when all of it seems
like it's pressing too hard
i'll say softly "goodnight."