You were my first.  
You taught me how to play.
You showed me the ins and outs of love.
Equipped  me with the knowledge I have today.
Your breath on my neck gave me chills
as you opened up a new world of thrills.
Touch here
Kiss there
That look in your eyes
That feeling you gave me made me feel I could fly.
Your nails scratching at my skin
oh how I do enjoy this sin.

Our love is forbidden yet it was meant to be.
You married another yet you still sought me.
We laughed and we joked in secret, no one to see our face.
For if we were discovered, we'd forever be disgraced.
What we have isn't "normal,"  it's almost supernatural at its core
and every time you leave me, I'm always wanting more.

What is the meaning of life if you feel life has no meaning?
Day by day and moment by moment each breath becomes more monotonous  than the last.
Nothing inspires.
Nothing saddens.
Nothing excites.

My soul has gone cold and my heart has dried up.

Wasn't it yesterday that I call this place home and you my family?
Wasn't it not long ago you were there for me and I you?
What happened?
What changed?
I've been replaced?
No, I was never missed.