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Steffanie Mar 2014
This kind of dream, and all it's filled with is screaming of love and hate.
Tell me you love me, like there's no other.
Tell me you need me, like you've needed no other.
So tired of being second best to a fictional idea of perfection.
If you know where to find perfect by all means go and grab it.
"Whatever makes you happy" a terrible sound.
Like nails on a chalk board.
Like April rain on a lovely July night.
Love me and don't wish for fall.
If you're going to dream, dream for nothing at all.
At least then, your heart can remain full.
Steffanie Mar 2014
So here I sit at the bar,
Draped in smoke
Killing the liver, I drink more.
**** hearts and rings
**** fake smiles and laughter.
All I want is to be cloaked in you.
Bury
Myself
In
Your
Smile
So I sit.
Steffanie Jul 2013
The words escape me
My mind circles in on itself.
Faster faster.
Here we are, looking deeper.
Still searching for some significant meaning.
Making mountains out of mole hills,
Sculpting happiness in the bile and muck.
It is man made from feces and mud but it is ours.
Possession is important.
Happiness is overrated.
Looking to connect the dots on pieces of paper and complaining when it goes wrong.
Wondering which turn would have taken you to the bigger pile of ****.
Never satisfied.
You as usual.
Steffanie Jul 2013
11:11
Make a wish, my love
Time binds us but it does not make us.
Consumes us.
All things
Are
Relative
To that
Tick tock
Ding
Of the clock.
Such is life
Such is us.
Allow it to shape us
Lift us
Bring us
Back
Push us
Forward
Bittersweet
Tick tock.
Traveling backwards only in memories
And dreams
Moving forward always
Never ending
You cannot choose it's course
Though
Your destination to the past is yours for tge choosing.
Allow this time
To clear
Your mind
Fill it
Only
With the
Present.
Nothing more.
What choice have we?ticktock
That time is lost.
The time
Is NOW.
WISHES
DREAMS
LUST
So much to say in such restrained time.
Man made
Ever present
Tick tock.
Loud and
Noisy
Fluid and
Graceful
Steady
Tick Tock.
Leave it
There
Be here
You
Me
Sheets and flesh.
We have
Such
Little
Time
Tick Tock
Rue the day and leave it behind.
A forgotten hole.
Gone
Forever.
We are now
Sweet Night
Tick Tock.
11:11
Wish
11:12
Sleep.
Breathe me in.
The present.
The love.
Tick Tock
Ding.
Steffanie Jul 2013
Naked,
Lonely,
Ugly,
Forgotten.
Beautiful mess.
Don't you see me?
Here. Touch me there, can't you feel me?
Here are my lips, kiss me.
Here is my ***, grab me!
Here is my scent, breathe ME.
Don't you want me as I am?
Hit me, grab me, pinch me, stab me,
**** me, hug me, as long as you see me.
I'll take it all away if you'll let me.
I'M SCREAMING NOW. CAN YOU HEAR ME?
Here is me waiting,
Wanting
Hoping
Loving...
Just breathe.
Listen. He's silent. His hands don't feel.
His eyes don't see me, and my words have deafened him.
I'd be better if you'd allow. Let me show you.
**** me on the floor and leave me here folding in on myself.
Too rough.
There's nothing left of me now.
Steffanie May 2013
up all night, we sleep all day.
this is all but child's play.
it's not easy,  two be one,
singing singing, song is sung.
laughing laughing until we cry,
kissing kissing as we sigh.
"The lights are blinding," so I say.
You turn them off they go away.
It won't stop the sun from shining
With it comes another day.
Kissing hugging, two are one.
Sleeping sleeping, rising sun.
Steffanie May 2013
The sun leaks in past the curtains it's warmth spilling all over our blanket covered skin. Our limbs are intertwined and the gentle silence of our contentment sighs    
a solitary sound of our breath brushing past eachother's skin.    
'lids flutter and through dark eyelashes deep blue oceans peer into my soul, seeing only me as I see you.      
A smile peaks out from behind your soft rose colored lips, bringing me a new kind of internal warmth.    
Your mouth floats across the pillow landing ever so softly on the tip of my nose as I breathe into you.  
Inhaling deeply, my lungs fill with the sweet air of a soul so divine.
Fingers dance effortlessly across smooth, creamy, flesh as an absence ever present drifts slowly into the abyss and out of memory.    
At that moment we are two bodies melting into one inseparable mass of love and devotion and we are whole.  
A perfectly sculpted chest rises and falls in sync with my own .  
Your soothing lips press against mine as we drift into a peaceful slumber.
This is bliss.
This is happiness.
You are sunshine
And I am yours for eternity.
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