Oh mother dearest,
how dare you, blaming me
for the blood on your tongue
and look, I see
you've got a mouth full of glass
chomping grotesquely, on the shards Of lies fed to everyone
I watched the blood trickle out the corners of your lips
as it drops on the ground it reveals the raw gory truth
yet you remained senseless to the pain you caused
ignoring my cries for love,compassion, understanding
It's all I ever wanted as a babe
I wanted a reaction from the numb corps you were encased in
yet there was no mercy behind your cold sunken eyes
your merciless voice like a monster
booming violence
my shuddering body in the corner
my fragile heart beating through sharp lashing thoughts
forming the words and emotions of
I fear you
I love you
I hate you
I need you
I needed you
These where the wounds left for me to lick clean
scaring forever in linings of my fleshy chest
I wanted to hold you close, but you were the wind
I chased your chilly breezes forever desiring the cold affection
I was angry, hatred radiated my entire body
an ever lasting fever of detachment
I craved relief from the scolding heat wave baring upon me
Yet I was always left dehydrated
my lips became dry of separation and desolate of attention
slowly becoming numb to this hot unloving desert
I became cold like you and I now am the wind
a bone aching cold, uncaring and detached
of the love and respect I lost for you as small girl.
this is extremely personal, but here you are.