i wish you were ugly
if every single time i thought of u and saw a beast
would you really mean the same to me?
if i saw you for what you truly are on the inside
would i still have let u pry
through my skin and shred my heart
and let the thoughts of u
ridethrough my vains
almost as if you were truly in me
how could u posses me with something so invisible only air could see it
why couldn't i see it
its strange how we know the things that can hurt us
but when there right in front of our eyes we become blind
and even though at that moment our ears become the strongest
we still cant believe it
see now its one thing to love
and its something completely different when u try to be it
maybe it wasn't you
maybe i loved you so hard i hurt myself
well guess thats only cuz i was working on that project
and u chose not to help
i wish u were ugly
then maybe the moments i held the closest to me
wouldn't have been
those tears i shed
and u put me in your arms and promised me things ive never heard before
is that why the sounded so lovely?
or how bout when u started calling me jelly bean?
you know the nick name that my mom used to call me?
AND YOU KNEW HOW MUCH SHE MENT TO ME!!!!!
or how bout when u were going through it
and i stayed there by your side just because it made me feel better
but u pushed me away
didn't appreciate me
i should of known better
or the times when we laughed and joked
about who got who in trouble this time
and i should of known u were trouble the last time
or the wlks in the park that we shared
just talking abut the things most precious in life
the whole days ...weekends....OR HOW BOUT YEARS
we spent together?
or maybe your lips
i never liked to kiss
but kissing you each time made me feel like a princess
and no matter how hard i tried
i couldn't get a crown from you
u told my u loved me
i didn't see it as a hard thing to do
but i do give you this you were always there when the lights shut off
maybe if i was a cat i could of seen u were ugly
but instead i choose 2 feel
who knew all the passion and pleasure turn into
pain and tears
and fears
that ill ever see u again
maybe if you were ugly i wouldn't have had those presious moments that felt like forever
and ended so quickly
but then again how could you see that ur ugly
when i was the one who tried 2 show you that you were beautiful?
wish u were always ugly