i dont care about you anymore
this was the end of our pulse
im empty with pleasure

i have friends who hold me up
while you try to drown me
im stronger than ever

you're not beside me
but thats

okay

until i see blood
i wont stop

i remember what you were
i remember what i was
i remember what we were

i know what you are
i know what i am
i know what we are

nothing

i know you're not a drug
but you get me so high

because im not discouraged that im not always noticed
because the best artists and poets died before they were famous

because love is not all to life
and your arms might be home
and your kisses a delight

it is not all to this forsaken abode
where we may inhabit
there is something deeper

you're a graceful addition
and now that i can see that
i can enjoy you much more

tranquility completely immersed me
into a euphoria
that had no end or beginning

it was a state of limbo
everything halted to a slow
disappearing winds left me breathless

craving the touch of human skin
descending into paralysis
yet being restless and energized

staring into gaunt vacant eyes
everything was valueless
all collectively disconnect

if I had the chance

I'd slit your throat

revving your car and smirking

two a.m. on my porch swing

flickering of a torch

your hands in mine

you smelt like shampoo and clean linens

you told me I had a Gatsby smile

and sang me pink floyd

when we were young
desperate for a high
we'd lay back entrapped in a
beating hot summer sun

interlocked were our hands
intertwined were our smiles
wet with a love so divine

we'd flick cigarette butts over my fence
looking in the hole to see how far it'd go
innocent competitions with
evil devices

surrounded by the mountains of people
red lips curl into a smile
i can see the soul of my being lifted
by your long slender hands

I remember when by just the solemn touch
of your hand on mine own
forced my heart to rocket towards the moon

I remember when you claimed my beauty
to be greater
than any moon

You've been blindfolded
by the devil himself
he's pricked you into a fantasy

You didn't deserve my tears
or my empty apologies
or the love I blatantly gave you

**I will take it all back

They are my least favorite color
There arent any shoe laces
The are extremely uncomforable
The sole is coming out
They are covered in mud
They were found in the trash

Your ****** soul never made up
For your cold heart

You're a harlot
Without a cause

I'm standing on the edge of your hypothetical cliff
I'm wishing on shooting stars that are jets
I'm kissing you in my pillow
I'm grinding on you in my mattress
I'm talking to you in my cigerattes
I'm buying you dinner with monopoly money
I'm caressing you body in my backyard grass
I'm staring into plastic eyes
I'm kissing false lips

Sweat was dripping from your nose
Dark red blood was running down your dark arms

Your pale soul screamed
Your pupils nonexistant

Desperation clogged your ears
Canine behavior fueled the hatred

Those rough hands wrapped around my
Tiny bruised throat

I couldn't ******* breathe
And you laughed

Struggling only hendered
My "well-being"

You told me you hated the smoke
But when it was washed off my body
The steam surrounded us
The world slowed
And I heard every drip of water
On my pale skin

Your hands were imprinted on my body
And they would never fade
Red lips covered your neck
Bruises on my soul are fading
When I'm against a cold damp wall
with wet hair entagled in your hands

You told me you hated the smoke
But when I kissed you
you said I tasted amazing
I was addicted to cancer
and you addicted to
How I became

I told you to stop
But I was a hypocrite
You can't fix yourself
By fixing others

breathe escapes me
at the thought of
your body
every curve
every line
your eyes call me
and I want to say no
but I've never been able to

I **** till i forget

smoke till i can’t breathe

write till my fingers bleed

drink till I choke

draw until it becomes my reality

and hope that tomorrow I'll see the light.

I'm inhaling cancer
I'm breathing your scent
I'm watching the time

you gave me a cocky smile
you told me you'd hook me up
you complain about your ex
and I don't know why
I'm ******* you
in my head

my name wrapped around your lips
I realized then what I was
addicted

my head soared higher
than any of those drugs
that I'd inhale

to forget you
and my addiction

You put bruises on my neck
I put bruises on your heart

When I thought love wasn't there
You showed me it was there
When you said those hands didn't belong there
They did, they were the perfect pair
I toy with your emotions to gain strength
I make your heart explode
So I can have the pieces
I'd give anything to run my fingers through the hair
I'd give anything for those lips on my neck
I've given you my heart
What else do I have?
and all you say is
How about your soul next?

The solid pavement you walk on
Melts underneath me
Like a silent p
Is a loud whisper

A prayer that got caught in a storm
Will eventually make its way up
Catch the water in a bucket
Maybe you’ll catch an answer

A ringing phone
That never stops
Like the sirens of the cops
A desperate plee in shackles

A hand wrapped around my heart
Felt my pulse
And when they let go
they took it with them

I was your snake skin
I became so attached
When you got tired of me
You slowly shedded me off
To get something new
I became fragile and dusty
And if by the slightest touch
By brittlness I'dshatter