i met a boy today and he thought he knew me he tries to know me and i cant let that happen i dont really know why i cant let another come too close ill burn a hole of dissapointment in his heart and i cant feel guilty more than i do now so leave little boy run while you can while your still whole but dont take my broken pieces with you
You told me I was too too unhealthy to ever learn to love, I was sick. I needed help. You said, "maybe, in the future our paths will cross". Do you not understand there is no future for me? I want to walk on your path.
and I remember the way you held me, like I might slip away with the wind your hands ghosting over my clothed skin but I could still feel your touch burning right through and I'm suffocating I can't breath because every memory of you always manages to take my breath away and I loved you with every single inch of my anatomy yet you still ******* broke me
just maybe if I hold someone else kiss someone else love someone else you won't be my someone else anymore I feel as though if I drown in some one else's feelings I won't posses mine anymore it's like I finally realize why people engulf themselves in alcohol or get lost in some strangers sheets it's the easiest way to forget to forget how to feel anything but numbness
and I try and drown myself in the sheets of other men but the scent of yours still linger in my nose and i imagine them belonging to you because maybe if I'm with him, then I'll forget about you and I won't have to feel those feelings anymore with the attempted ones being put in my heart I still think of you