why did it not work?
why the **** did it not ******* work?
i am so tired of this world.
why the **** did it not work?
why the **** am i not better after years of pleading a higher power to just fix everything?
why the **** did the god everyone prays to not ******* take me?
this is all too much.
i don’t know what to do anymore.

i feel my thoughts and feelings clawing at the back of throat announcing their arrival. my screams and whimpers are here to cause a show for everyone. i can’t let them out. everything is okay. i am doing great. please don’t ask. don’t search for me, the truth.

do magical things.