Like a cloud of smoke,
My past lingers over me as I choke for air
Until you are gone,
It’s not going anywhere

So for this I am sorry dear,
But I must let you go
You can’t water a flower that has been pulled from its roots and expect it to grow

All of the years I spent yearning to be more

I pity that girl
So naive in her belief
That more would make her worthy of love

I’d rather watch you leave as you starve for what I lack
Than have you consume all the parts of me
Only to have you sickened to the stomach

Regurgitating the love I gave
Nauseated by my muchness
Repulsed by my more

Have you ever longed for someone so badly?
So badly, that every moment you glimpse into their eyes feels like five moments more?
Like an eternity of waiting
To be blessed by the simple touch of their lips

And when your lips finally collide, in that moment, it’s almost as though gravity ceases to exist
It feels like your head is in the midst of the clouds, rushing straight for the heavens and your mind tries to focus but the butterflies in your stomach are fluttering so intensely, it’s as though flowers have blossomed in there

And maybe flowers did blossom in there
But the sad, unfortunate truth is that the end is always inevitable
You drowned my flowers, you broke the wings off my butterflies and you tore apart my heart

I fell in love with you, and I’ve only been in love once before
Now I don’t know if I could fall in love again

Not anymore

It's lonely here
But who am I to complain,
When it was I who built these walls?

With each brick they threw in my direction, I built the walls higher
                                 ... higher
                                           …and higher

I thought these walls would save me
Instead I wait to be saved
But unlike the fairytales,
I am no damsel in distress

It was I who built these walls
It is only I who can break them
But how do I break them,
Without breaking me?