The echoing shouts of laughter
Went through her head
She had nowhere to go after
She will never forget the words that where just said

The pain she felt I did not feel
And Her voices were never heard
In the world she was invisible
Or so it seemed to her

Lost in her thoughts she walked the halls
The ones she always felt were empty
She felt her heart hurting as it was in the hand that has sharp claws
She heard her thoughts and her heart sunk more

Now when something happened to her
She doesn't  care
She felt like jumping from a building
But she was never dared

Standing on the edge not thinking
She felt her heartbeat and listened as it pumped
Gritting her teeth she braced herself
She didn't think about anything before she jumped


In one thought her life was over
Not one movement
Not one shiver

Death in her blood
Poison in her veins
Despair in her heart
Depressed brain

Sitting on the floor in broken glass
Thinking about her shattered life and shattered past

Someone screamed
Before they checked for life
One again you hear screaming
It's pretty clear that she'd died

Hospitals and Doctors
They check her with the scope
They knew she was dead and there was no hope
But nobody wanted to give up on her or let her go

Crying every night made her weak
Staying up every night made it harder for her to try to sleep
She looked like crap though she never seemed to care
She gave up on her heart and had nothing left to spare

There is a guy out that loves her but she never knew
It is harder for him to get by because he needed you
You were his life
His soul and his joy
But the future he had with you Is now destroyed

What do I feel? I don't know
But when I know it's hard to show
I hide it inside so I don't look weak
There are times I do not sleep
My mind is filled with so many thoughts that my mind goes blank

I know that doesn't make since but it is true
My mind is filled with so many things but I forget once it comes to you

I don't like smiling but when you are around my smile appears
I have a hard time saying I love you because that is one of my fears
I don't talk much but there are reasons why
It's because I hold so much in side

I don't think I'm that pretty
And I know for a fact that I'm not perfect
And for some reason people think I'm worthless
People told me that so much I'm starting to believe it to


I try so hard to makes things right
I try so hard to help people fight their fights
But I guess I am no help at all
Sometimes I feel like hiding in a bathroom stall

I have been called ugly and fat I also
I have been called **** and ***** but there is only so much more

I have punched walls that left scars on my knuckles

I don't like to believe it when people say 'I love you'
I also don't believe it when people say 'I'm never leaving you'
Because I just see that as a lie
I see everyone leaving my life just as they came in
I see them leaving without leaving a note or even a pen
  

I can never think of a subject to talk about with you
But that's ok because you are the same way too


I wonder if you have second thoughts
And if it will always be this rough
I never thought loving someone could be this tough

I get butterflies when I see you
When your around me I get excited too
I never realized loving you so much
Could make me doubt it

I don't want to worry about finding someone I love
I worry that I will never be enough

The thought of losing you makes me break down
How can I be happy and yet doubt you will always be around

Don't think for a second I am doubting your love
I just feel
Everything is going to fall apart
How can something be so good without it ending in a broken heart

In the beginning I thought it was fake

I couldn't help but think loving you is a mistake

The question is
Do you care?
Do you even know, that I never want to let you go?
But will you always be there?
Will you ever let me go?

If I cried
Would you take all the pain away?
If for any reason you lied
Would I still want you to stay?

My love for you is strong
I can not forget
Some people might say I'm making a mistake
I hope loving you won't be something I regret


Your part

    I hear your problems and wipe away your tears
I love you with all my heart and that's my biggest fear

I can't get you out of my head
Everywhere I look
In the sky or on the ground
I notice your always around

You stole my heart mind and soul
With you I want to grow old


Your a girl I just met
Your just my friend I said to myself
Every time we meet I take a deep breath

When she looks at me like that I feel like I'm in the spot

I catch her eyes sometimes
Believing my own lies that she feels something to

I take my chance to get one quick glance

I look up at her and I notice she is already staring back at me
She looks away and feel my heart skip a beat
I let out the breathe I was holding
And I feel my walls slowly unfolding

One day I came up to you and tried to talk
You looked at me then looked back at your work

You started writing without saying a word
For a week I tried to get you to talk

On Monday you looked at me and smiled
For a while there I thought you were a mute child
I said hi and you answered back
When I heard you speak I almost had a heart attack