This storm is raging.
The small ocean forming outside my bedroom window seems to be growing.
Maybe it will pick this entire room off the ground & sweep me away.
Maybe it will head that way?
I've scattered pots & buckets across the floor,
collecting the uninvited rivers flooding this room.
Some shelter, huh? Lightening cracks again. Awesome.
Powers out. Everything's out, as far as i can see.
Dead center of the lightening capital of the world
& I just lit my last two tealights.  
The lightening, strobeing bright enough to illuminate the words that are drenching my paper.
"...by stormy windows light, I'll read to you & you to me, our most sacred notebook pages.
& oh how ******* beautiful that storm would be."

I need your body & beautiful mind;
Alive & Breathing.  
I struggle to make it moments,
without it consuming me.  
I would do everything I could to make you well.
To make you better... happy... whole.
But I cant. I cant save you.
I would, believe me, I would.
But I don't know how.
& you don't let me. You never let me.
I try. I try so hard & wont stop trying.
Why the f* cant that be enough?
It is enough. You are enough.
You are everything.
Your so ******* stupid.
& I love you.
You asked for suggestions.
Suggestions?!  Are scarce...
Because I'm so helplessly selfish
& I'm so hopelessly human.
I can only give you what I already hold.
The only hopeful **** i've come to know.
...I suggest
You let go of the chains that bind you.
The lies you tell yourself.
The doubt. The worry. The shame. The hate. The fear.
Just let if Fing go. ALL OF IT.
What is it that sets your heart on fire?
The tiniest spark in your soul,
Can light up the entire world,
Once you stop listening to the racket.
You know, I saw a sparkle in your eyes,
Really may have just been the reflection
From the little lamp on your side table.
But that spark has lit my world, my dreams.
Nothing has been able to smother it.
No matter how the odds have stacked against us.
Follow your heart for once.
F everyone else heart.  
F mine too, if that's what it takes.  
Follow your heart.
F the noise. F the looks from people.
F the lectures from your family.
F everything you've ever thought,
if it contradicts your heart.
Sometimes its okay to doubt your doubts,
they only slow you down.
You have a light, follow it.
Dont stop, if it takes time, tons of time, its okay.
If you stand in the light, the time isnt wasted.
Youll get there. Your f**ing incredible.

So here we are, Dressed in the same skin that touched,
Days that turned to nights, Nights that turned to magic.
The same minds, more like chaos. Labyrinths.
Filled with treasures & nightmares,
Angels & Demons. Tricks & mysteries.
The same beaten down hearts
That we have so gracefully sewn back together
With thread made of the same stuff forevers are made of.
I've watched out my window a while now,
seasons of change, skies sunny to gray.
I've ran out of fingers and toes counting the # of days
The daydreams I've had are always the same. & they stay.
Each time the seasons change, there we lay.
Each time the summer ends,
colored leaves being to dance in the breeze, there we play.
Like children, amused & amazed.
Never quite getting to the frosty cold.  
There, in that place, I have learned
Our hearts beat a little slower, hands touch a little softer
minds wonder instead of race, eyes glisten instead of glance.
But instead, here we are... 1000 miles away.
Should a million moons rise & fall, I will stay.
Should rain fall like today, drown me in my darkest days, i will stay.
Should the silence scream at me for days on end, tho deafening, i will stay.
Should mistakes be made with haunting regrets, i will stay.
Should days seem like months, & the months turn to years, I will stay.
I will stay in this skin, where your touch has poured over every hated scar.
Covering them all. Leaving behind a shimmer of whats become
My fondest memories. So here I stay, Cherishing the skin I'm in.
I will stay lost in this maze of a mind.
Passing the evil i have seen & done. Revisiting the beauty.
The things i believe in, the things you've said, in my mind.  
The better, replaying.  The worse, unforgotten.
I will stay, beating to the rhythm of this heart of mine.
The way i love & the things i love, coursing through my veins.
Should time go on & my body old,
Should my lungs grow weak from all the smoke they hold,
Should you get locked away from a world so rare
I too will have shackles to wear.  
Whether a thousand extra miles & a million extra moons,
I will never stop loving you. A love I've known not before.
Because i believe, My Dear,
We are made of the same stuff forevers are made of.
& forevers never go away. So forever I will stay.

From high & low the masses gazed
Traveled far, to see the view
An entire town stood watching
Waiting, the silence grew.
We could almost hear our planet turning
As a crimson shadow crept over the moon.
And I couldnt stop looking at you.