I hate you so much,
It makes me sick to my stomach,
So sick that,
I wish I never had done it,
Just wanting to cry,
And sleep all day,
To switch off,
Or just to hibernate.

It's all my fault,
How could I have been so stupid,
Such a silly little girl,
Now makes me want to hurl.

Please just make this go away,
Please remove this from my stupid head,
I just want to be better,
To feel alright,
Because I know justice is too far out of reach,
So I just want to forget,
Just want to curl up in in the safety of my OWN bed.

I feel her fury pulsating through the whole house,
I hear her enraged screams bouncing off the walls,
I smell an overpowering burning scent,
I ******* salty tears running like a shower,
I see a reflection of a girl with black running down her face trying to still look like she's okay,
I feel my whole body tremble with fear,
I smell a sick powerful pride radiating from the monster,
I ******* dinner crawling back up my throat,
I hear voices in my head telling me to go, to run, to never look back,
I see myself trapped, locked in iron chains forever.

I felt my heart start to race and a tingling sensation run through me
I the over powering music blasting in my ears putting me in a trance
I smelt an aroma of caramel and vanilla candles burning, fighting each other to be dominant
I taste electric tingles dancing in my mouth, running down my throat and settling in my stomach
I saw darkness taking over me, ******* clouds hovering over my eyes
Then I heard my door being ripped open and the candles blew out
I felt my eyes snap open and my favourite place slowly faded away
I saw my mum furious as ever
I knew my favourite place, my state of mind, my trance was gone.

I can't think of what to write
To describe the way
I am all right
Even though the things you say
Make me want to start a fight
Don't worry, no fights today
Even if it would be a great delight
Instead i'll just go have a sleep in the hay.

And soon these embers of fury will turn to flames,
then you and i will never be the same,
suffering in silence,
no tears fall for the death of kindness,
ahead of us is a battle,
a war just for two,
so choose your army and make the first move,
once blood is shed,
and your castles come crashing down,
will you finally get off your high horse and take off that stupid crown.

Now don't expect a shoulder to cry on,
no mercy here,
in your tears you'll be drowned,
so listen closely and don't make a sound,
you're a hypocrite, a *****, a tiny little flea,
expecting me to kneel down like your the queen bee.

You push me around,
drag me down,
try to make me fall,
but you're the fool for not realizing how strong i am after all,
I stood there and just stared,
while you tried to make me fail,
Now ******* little girl,
your as pathetic as you were trying to make me!

Blame me for your mistakes,
Rub my problems in my face,
Make me feel like such a disgrace,
Then try to leave without a trace.

Hold your head up high,
Shoulders straight,
But its all a disguise,
For the thing you are most would hate,
But none of this is a surprise.

Its so sad to see you this sad
It kills me to see you like you are these days
I wish i could take away your pain,
I wish you didn’t feel this way
I wish you never went through those days.
You didn’t deserve that awful deed
That shouldn’t have happened to you and your family.
But now it has
And all i can do
Is be there and help comfort you
One day this weight will lift from your shoulders
You’ll smile easy you’ll see it’s true
But till then don’t hold back your tears
I’m here and so are many more
Friend and family, that’s what we’re for,
Show us how you feel,
And we’ll show you we care
Because everyone needs someone
To just be there.