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amber girl Jun 2015
The day I found out
I'll never be the same
the littlest things bother me now
I can't help who I became
the world hasn't been kind
and my guard may never come down
it's strong but weaker than my mind
My heart, still beats like a drummer show
I stay in bed most of the day
but only when I'm way way down low
I am strong!
I have survived!
I am high so high
that I'm alive
amber girl May 2015
In a cup
I love to sip you up
I no longer give a ****
didn't spend one buck
You're darkness in between my lips
makes me want to move my hips
I like to drink you in sips
I like to drink you when I'm having fits
you make my mind forget the pain
make me sing LA LA in my brain
turn me from crazy to mild tame
you lift me up like David Blaine
You're slowly slipping away
I drank too much today
I don't have much more to say
I'll write more later when I'm sober..k
amber girl May 2015
From the moment I met you I should have known that you would not be my one and only and in my heart I'm lonely waiting......for THE ONE to sweep me off my feet and take me to a place I've never been. I'm here in this unforgiving world ready to give my last breath for you.
amber girl May 2015
Just wanted to catch your attention
now that you're here I guess I'll mention
I live with a lot of tension
which causes a bunch of bitchen
that's why I write under the light
day or night
dark or bright
whenever it feels right
A lot of times I'm lost in my mind
like a rat in a maze that is blind
No I definitely do not want to rewind
be kind, be mine, till the end of time
why do I spend wasted time looking down
all I see is my **** shoe that is brown
and the scuff marks that make me frown
shy?ashamed?nervous?afraid? Maybe that no one will be around?
As I'm thinking
I am slowly blinking
remembering nights I spent drinking
Trying to relieve the feelings of sinking
into another dark endless hole
ending up on another dead end road
feeling like a squished fat toad
feeling out of control
do the words really need to rhyme?
I just let out what comes to mind
then I work it into a line
to express my thoughts
I'm human, they will not always be kind
So on that note
I hope you choke in your throat
we all took a vote
you won you dope
You know who you are
the one that left a scar
the one who crashed my car
The one who pushed things too far
I'm glad you're in jail
and that there was no bail
you'll be out again just to fail
It's sad knowing your working on the frail
although I carry theses scars deep
I don't show that I'm weak
I will not admit defeat
And I'm beat and cannot sleep
amber girl May 2015
Save me
I need to be rescued
my internal flame burns for you
I dream of us together
forever
I'm too chicken to tell you to your face
I'm not sure you're feeling the same
you stopped the tears many times
from my tired bloodshot eyes
I wish to know for sure
I'm love struck and you're the cure
you tower me and hug me tight
and your kisses are so polite
I could have you every night
all these lefts but you're so right
Just say you want me all the time
and happiness everyday is what you'll find
both of us on the grind
leaving all our troubles behind
amber girl May 2015
Wishy washy
wondering
why
whine
this is me all the time
welcome to my world
my chaos
my prison
wanting
waiting
for pure joy
hold me tight don't let me go
let me feel your warmth
watching
working
whispers
all night you by my side
I want you as my guy
walls
weak
wishing
years of fear have made things so unclear
writing
wrongs
wiping tears
willing
wild
without
these emotions are out of control
wacked
wisdom
waving goodbye
WOMAN WITHOUT WORDS
this is absurd
amber girl May 2015
Thoughts are disturbing they keep burning
the wheels keep turning my feeling keep urning
why do I battle myself?
why don't I just let it go?
I get so ****** and I want to scream
I want to be mean but I'm a fein
does anyone know what I mean?
I'm a sucker a *******
I'm under cover to hide the freak that I am with one another
a blunder
terrible like the worst thunder
I have discovered
I'm nothing like my mother and
it makes me wonder
am I a hunter?
I could go on forever..tbc...
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