I want a love that is constant.
A love that is forgiving,
A love that is never forgotten.
A love that is simple.
A love, where I am not ashamed, or blamed.
A love that is unwavering,
A love that is never second best.
A love that is faithful.
All deserving of my love,
All deserving of my heart.
A love that alleviates pain and not to blame,
I want a love that is not ours.

In your bed, & under your covers.
is you,
In your bed & under your covers.
is someone new.
Yet you call me on phone and beg me to please, come home.
To you it's just a game, Don't you feel ashamed?
I am not taking the blame.

In your bed I'd lay with you.
You say you miss it very much, and you're longing for my touch
&You;'re never going to stray.
Yet as soon as I hang up from you, You're grinding up on ******.
Knocking boots behind closed doors.
Yet I'm the one that you adore

breathing is hard when you have the weight of the world on your back.
feeling the strain, you refrain from sinking into the earth.
determined to succeed,
determined to catch your dreams.
with each step, breaking your spirit.
with each step, driving your heart.
Only makes you stronger, quicker and more agile.
So beg their pardon, forget your woes.
Be grateful , that today.
You aren't doing this alone.

I found him in a field, his feet bare and flowers in his hair.
He moved like a leaf dancing with the wind.
Mesmorized, I needed him for my own.
I fought a great battle to prove my love,
I conquered Dragons and Witches,
Slain Monkeys and Midgets.
When that battle was over, and I had won
He mended my wounds, he sang me songs of promise
A never dying love. I was in heaven, and he was my God.
We often wandered the field were I first laid eyes on him,
The wind sang songs of joy and the flowers danced when we would kiss.
The whole world seemed to embrace our love, and claim it for their own.
We would often lay just holding each other.
For a love like ours is best when minds are silent.
When messages that words bring aren't misconstrued.
Than a great cloud of white smoke engulfed the two of us,
our hands clutched together tightly, sweat and blood dripping down our arms.
The whirlwind of trouble, blew to hard for us to hold on.
We had been torn apart.
I wondered day and night, looking for the lover lost.
I climbed mountains and swam across oceans.
My heart sang only one song "Let me come home, Home is whenever I'm with you"
On day 456; I found him.
I found him in a faraway city of broken buildings, and ruined trees.
The flowers we loved so dearly are dead here. They did not dance the way they had for us once before.
I crept slowly into a rundown house, To find him in bed with another.
Singing the same songs of promise and a never dying love.
My chest opened up and out fell my heart.
It shattered into a million pieces there on the floor.
The sound startled the two new lovers,
He looked at me. He had lost the look I had once discovered.
His eyes shined like emeralds. There was no love for me in there any longer.
Our time had come to an end.. Bittersweet forever in my heart.
I shall never love another. He was the one for me.
I just wasn't the one for him.

to feel your lips on my lips,
would be such bliss.
you place your hands on my hips,
and give me the kiss of bitter truth.
to know you,
a gift.
if you’d let me
I’d love you never,
possibly forever.
sharing my deepest darkest secrets,
my mangled thoughts,
my incoherent dreams,
looking for a bit of salvation.
the slightest bit of peace.
lays in your eyes,
in my heart.
the thoughts had for you and i.
could never come to be.
perhaps we are too much the same
oh, let me tell you that brings my heart such pain.
you visit my dreams often,
this secret love, i shall carry to my coffin.
and now i shall sleep,
that’s the only place that you and i,
will ever be, how i wish us to be.
so let me dream,
only to see your face.
to kiss your lips
to feel your touch
my heart cries for you
why isn't that enough

I dig my teeth into the grass
my nails in the dirt,
trying to never leave our garden of Eden.
But I've over stayed my welcome or so I'm told.
You say my frequent flier miles are too much to cash in.
you say my love will dissipate,
cease to exist
that's only something you don't wish to know.

Please don't say we're done, when I'm not finished.
I could give so much more.
Make you feel like never before.
Welcome this, don't leave me on the floor.
and I was struggling to get in,
after waiting outside your door.
I was sure, you'd give me more.
you never come to me, when i can't make it all the way to you.
you made it clear, you weren't near, near enough for me.
I guess you found someone better, but sometimes i still need you.
yeah sometimes i still need you.
heart skipped a beat... and when i caught you were out of reach.
and i'm sure, you've heard it all before..
but sometimes i still need you.

your love is the sweetest drug,
to detox from it,
something i didn't wish to know.
'you and i forever'
you strung the lies around my neck,
around my heart.
only to strangle me, and tear me apart.
so lost, and insecure
you left me shaking
fiending like a ******
who lacks control.
for you, your drug, ******.
for me, a person, named michael.
breathe in, breathe out.
i wish to extract you from my memory..
pretend you never happened.

I still feel you next to me,
I still smell your scent,
I still see your smile.
Memories whisking by,
floating above my head.
Teasing, only playing with my heart.
The time has come to let it all go.
Let go of all the teasing, tantalizing thoughts,
Forget the fragrance of your clothes.
Forget the warmth of your body,
Forget the taste of your lips...
Forget all the laughs,
Forget all the tears.
Forget all the moments I said I'd hold forever, dear
......

a little help. perhaps its finished.

To feel the warmth of your skin,
The love in each kiss.
Forgive me, Forget me
Lost in this wonderful mess.
Blinded by love,
Tangled with guilt
Forget me, Forgive me
Love is the only way we can make this work.
Forgive me , my flaws
Forget the negative stalls.
To love, to cherish
And with each day
We perish... Feelings are lost.
Can't get them back,
Not at any cost.
No, not true.
No hope lost,
No love has faded.
Just the ability to fight.
The willingness that brings you home to me at night.
Forgive me, never forget me.
Ramblings of a broken heart.
Never wanting to let you go.
Slowly over time.
Feelings only grow.
Forgive me, Never forget me.

And she sat there an innocent girl,
amongst many wolves.
all wanting a piece, some wanting her legs,
some what rest between her thighs,
some what lay under her breast plate.
she would no longer share herself
she was hers alone.
too brilliant, too special to share.
she will wait, wait for the one who held the key.
the one who held some understanding,
someone to help reach her spiritual plane.

My dearest friend, you'll soon be dead.
Don't you see what you've come to be?
Keep taking your poison,
Keep drowning out all your fears and concern,
Drown it out with ******, pills and herb.
Loose the peace, it took you so long to find.
Give up your daughter, your home and your life.
Give up me, and our friendship.
Give up all those wonderful times.
The monster in your veins wont let you feel the blame.
It burns and it aches, till you feed it again.
one last time, one last hit.
If it were up to me, you'd never get that last fix.
You'll beg and you'll plead.
You'll scratch until something bleeds.
You'll  say that you hate me,
But I'll just cradle you with love,
and maybe one day you'll see,
That the monster hurts both you and me.