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4.6k · Jan 2013
Yoda! Star Wars!
Amber Jan 2013
Different, we are.
A nerd, I am.
Yoda, he is!
2.9k · Jan 2013
Dandelion
Amber Jan 2013
To me a Dandelion is not only a ****, killed, hated, yet god's prayers, for every wish to become true. Yet a beautiful sprung grown, flower wanting to be a rose, but accepting the fact that being a Dandelion is good.
2.5k · Nov 2012
Death by rope
Amber Nov 2012
November 19, 2012
The chair beneath my feet; the noose around my neck, slightly tied to the end of a branch, attached to a white, dust ocean, fan. Tears pour out of my eyes, down my pail cheeks, into my shirt; soaking up the moisture of a melancholy, excruciating, life all in one drop. "Why am I here? Will anyone miss me? What the f**k did I do wrong? Why… Me?" screaming the words aloud yet, with out a sound. Telling my self every thing I have, who I have. A mother that all ways wants to help, a father that doesn't care, a little brother clueless yet, dreadful; and yet again I try to put on my "happy mask" and just smile, it doesn't work. I am dead; all of the bullying, the joking, the abuse, I cant take it anymore.
1.9k · Jan 2013
Grandmother.
Amber Jan 2013
You are bright, psychedelic, jubilant.
You have made children, parents.
You have gave me a mother.
A life to introduce me in thus world.
I love you, we love you.
You are a streak of a sun ray.
You show me a world, new.
Green, red, pink, blue, colors everywhere.
You sing, projecting beautiful sounds.
Leaving me to live happy.
Thank you.
I love you.
Je t'aime.
XOXO
<3
I love you granny cat. To you.
1.4k · Apr 2013
Our Rights
Amber Apr 2013
What is wrong with being gay, lesbian, or bisexual?
Just because it's in the Bible...
So you are telling me;
If the bible said when you turn a certain age you have to jump off a cliff;
That you would do it.
You are telling me that you live your life off a book.
It is not gay rights, it is just rights.
We don't need to be judged, nor told right from wrong.
Is there a problem?
So... How do you tell children.
How do you tell children that two people can't love each other?
Human rights
Gays, lesbians, bisexuals are all human.
It is ours'.
Our Rights.
1.4k · Feb 2013
The Speech of My Hero
Amber Feb 2013
"I am sorry. I don't want to be an emperor, that's not my business. I don't want to rule or conquer anyone. I should like to help everyone if possible. Jew, gentile, black man, white. We all want to help one another. Human beings are like that. We want to live by each other's happiness; not each other's misery. We don't want to hate and despise one another. In this world there's room for everyone and a good Earth is rich and can provide for everyone. The way of life can be free and beautiful, but we have lost the way. Greed has poisoned men's souls, has barricaded the world with hate; has goose-stepped us into misery and bloodshed. We have developed speed, but we have shut our selfs in; machinery that gives abundance has left us in want. Our knowledge has made us cynical, our cleverness hard and unkind. We think to much and feel to little. More than machinery we need humanity. More than cleverness we need kindness and gentleness. Without these qualities, life will be violent and all will be lost. The airplane and radio have brought us closer together. The very nature of these inventions sires out the goodness in men, cries out for universal brotherhood for the unity of us all. Even now my voice is reaching millions throughout the world, millions of despairing men, women and little children, victims of a system that makes men torture and imprison innocent people. To those who can hear me I say "Do not despair". The misery that is now upon us is but the passing of greed, the bitterness of men who fear the way of human progress: the hate of men will pass and dictators die and the power they took from the people, will return to the people and so long as men die liberty will never perish. Soldiers! Don't give yourselves to brutes, men who despise you, enslave you - who regiment your lives, tell you what to do what to think and what to feel, who drill you, diet you, treat you like cattle, use you as cannon fodder. Don't give yourselves to these unnatural men, machine men, with machine minds and machine hearts. You are not machines, you are not cattle. You are men. You have the love of humanity in your hearts. You don't hate only the unloved hate. The unloved and the unnatural. Soldiers - don't fight for slavery, fight for liberty. In the seventeenth chapter of Saint Luke it is written: "the kingdom of God is within man". Not one man, nor a group of men - but in all men - in you. You the people have the power, the power to create machines, the power to create happiness. You the people have the power to make this life free and beautiful, to make this life a wonderful adventure. Then in the name of democracy let us use that power - let us all unite. Let us fight for a new world, a decent world that will give men a chance to work,that will give you the future and old age and security. By the promise of these things, brutes have risen to power, but they lie. They don't fulfill that promise, they never will. Dictators free themselves but they enslave the people. Now let us fight to fulfill that promise. Let us fight to free the world, to do away with national barriers, to do away with greed, with hate and intolerance. Let us fight for a world of reason, a world were science and progress will lead to all men's happiness. Soldiers - in the name of democracy, let us all unite!" ~Charlie Chaplin
This was a speech from Charlie Chaplin, he is my inspiration to change this machine world.
Filmed in 1940.
1.2k · Jan 2013
Fake.
Amber Jan 2013
Ribbon on the floor
I can't take it anymore.
I will never be a prep.
I will never be fake.
I will never be the thing I hate.
Preps wear ribbons. I don't know why.
But I was fake once and lasted about two minutes! HAHA!
This is what I thought.
1.2k · Nov 2012
A day of relief
Amber Nov 2012
A day of relief...
Her vulnerable body lay still, on a bed of pedals. Wilting flowers crumbled under the pool of blood around her. Dead. No one saw the pain in her eyes, the death that has occurred. She died with a smile, a tear, a mind finally in peace. The harmony  of the piano was perfect exit of her life; the tears of loved ones are released at the funeral. Her spirit watches over screaming to the mourning, asking them why they are crying, her death is a miracle not a tragedy... My death is a miracle, not a tragedy.
1.2k · Jan 2013
Granny cat "meow"
Amber Jan 2013
You come over with a smile of generosity and lovingness. I love you. We love you. You made my mother, uncle's, and further generation. You are my queen. You have showed me to smile when in doubt. I love you. Your knowledge of animals, you speak to them. You understand them. You give them a place to call home. I love you. I can't say it enough. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. It goes on. I might have my days, but when you are around I sure do get up quick. Thank you. I love you. Thank you for every thing. Thank you for my life. You are my creature. I love you.

~Amber your granddaughter.~
:3
1.1k · Nov 2012
A life time
Amber Nov 2012
In a life time I wont do as expressed ,yet I remain to feel faint. A world of sorrow; regret is what I live by. Sunshine rises for everyone to hide in the dark shade and let there wants lift, as others needs fade. My life as a view to others is a sad, melancholy, very dark life to live. Of coarse I won't live my life out to the fullest, because i'm afraid of the people in the journey of a life time.
1.0k · Jan 2013
Date of birth.
Amber Jan 2013
A day of laughter, excitement fills the air as the cupcake is delivered for that was all they could afford. Sizzling candles, each with a swirl of color, thirteen representing thirteen years of his day of birth. Sad that he shall grow up with little money, yet with a world of kindness, not greed. Happy day for him. A mother cries, as she looks in his eyes to see that he is a teenager, not her little baby. He now is only 7 years from adult hood. He is blessed with a heart of steel, a mind of hope, a graceful mind. "Thank you he says, but ma'am I wan't you to wish in light, and blow the dream to god, for he shall make true." "Oh, honey thank you." She blows out the candles with a tear now on the cupcake. She takes a bite... She smiles "Thank you. I love you" "I love you to ma!" They hug, they smile, they cry. "Happy birthday... I love you..." She whispers then slowly dies in his arms. He knew it, he cried, he forgave the secret she kept. "I love you to" A tear.
999 · Apr 2013
Jenny
Amber Apr 2013
I know you may not like me. You may not think I am cool. I have always liked you... Always. The moment I first saw you I couldn't take my mind off you. You are the prettiest thing that God has given to this world. You give me hope when in the deepest pit of despair. Your hair is amazing. Your smile is my light in a dark room. Though we remain friends; I will always think of you as my love at first sight. I will help you in all ways possible to find that girl, that beauty I wish to be. If you are happy then I must be. My stomach hurls when I see you every morning; When in horse-play-mode I stand aside to watch. Hoping I won't get in the way. You have set the bars aside when personality comes. You open my eyes to a world of joy. When we go our separate ways at school, I fall out of that world. You have showed me to just be happy. The love I have for you is to much for words, to much for life, to must too explain. I promise to protect you. If I could hug you all day or never go to school again, I would choose you... Every time. I wan't to be with you. I just wish we could be that odd couple. I hope this doesn't make things awkward between us. Jenny, love isn't enough. Jenny... Jenny I love you. Jenny the hug I gave you before giving you this was warm and excited. The beating in my heart, like the song "Seven Nation Army" by: White Stripes. It's fast so fast it skips a few beats. You're the beauty i'm the beast. You are life I am death. You're yang i'm yin. Opposites attract. Jenny I love you as a friend, a "girlfriend", a mother, a sister. I love you.
965 · Mar 2013
The real Devil (God)
Amber Mar 2013
Such a short time to live.
I have a question for the religious.
If God is real then why does he bring evil to this world?
Why does he **** people?
What did the Devil do?
Everything happens for a reason.
What about death?
What's the point of an innocent person dying?
Millions dead they go to a "better" place.
No they go to cloud jail.
Watching there loves ones dead with the loss.
Watching life walk among the ground.
Even the birds aren't free.
They are locked to the sky.
They had there destiny set from the moment the were born.
So why does God not listen to prayers?
The time comes.
Yup.
The time comes when you don't think.
I always wanted to die.
But I always feared death.
Why, God, why do you give me no strength to live?
Why do you not listen?
Why do you get respect?
If you are the creator of life then you are the creator of death.
God, you are the real evil.
You are the real "Bad guy".
God you are the real Devil.
919 · Feb 2013
Battle for love
Amber Feb 2013
If you ever see a picture of skeletons kissing, you will notice that you can't tell the ***, nor race. Attraction is not a choice.
Any liking of gender is better than normal.
I love everyone that has a heart.
And looks at this message in a positive way.

914 · Jan 2013
Good night
Amber Jan 2013
The celling filed with wiggly lines.
My bed soft mushy.
Pillow is furry, squishy.
My sheets silky, and warm.
My bed the place I slumber.
A place to say good night.
Wrote 1/27/13
903 · Jan 2013
On the wedding day.
Amber Jan 2013
Days pass. She watches, she whispers. "Why?" The people she sees through her window. Her basement is cold, dark, empty. Just one body lies on the floor. Hers. Up in a ball, raveled. One barred window pushed up in the wall. A boy crawls up pressing against the metal. Asking "Hello? HELLOO?" Looking at her and screaming "I will get you out, I promise!" That was the thing; she was locked in there, punishment she doesn't know what she did wrong. She can't remember. She is to weak to get up and tell him no. She can't even smile, she showed him the last thing she had left, tears. She had a blank face. Thus her black hair, tangled, long against her pail white figure. She wore a dress, or what's left of it, white, laced end. Sad, that was her first wedding dress. Once to her feet, now to her thighs. Cut, torn; she used half of it as an attempt to escape, losing her energy. No shoes, smeared makeup, she laid. She never saw that boy again. That's another promise broken. She was imprisoned. She didn't scream, he warned her "One scream, one bullet, one life." With a smirk. He locked her up. Called her names, beat her, hated her. She died that day. Knowing there is no one left. Knowing that no one cared. Her last words "I am sorry for whatever I did, I love you." She died thinking it was her fault. She still loved him. He thought she was a joke. She took it seriously. He killed, she apologized. Her vow was more than heart could say. His vow wasn't more than a lie. His vow was a lie. She should have turned when she could. On the wedding day.
Amber May 2013
Tho days seem never-ending, we still come home to a family. No matter the size or strength. We all see our opinions, as we don't look at others. Family is the biggest treasure known to man. Every day without your loved-ones creates more hope. In the name of God we are all connected, we are all brothers and sisters, mothers and fathers.

We seek out the good in people, as we miss their true state of mind. We want our image, we desire the dreams. We know dreams are the brick walls that separate dream from reality. To achieve we must work. Work is time, patience and effort. Without work we are nothing.

Without family we remain lost. Time grows as we age and create joy. Life is full of crazy things and life is full of love. We all know that. My time here, in this world, is worth living through. I realized that; Your life, my life, our lives' are worth living, they are worth exploring. If we mess up, we start over.

Depression, Anxiety, A.D.H.D., A.D.D. isn't a choice. I am sure that we would want to change the illnesses, but we can't. We can treat it, but that won't make it disappear. We can help create hope; or we can help **** it. The abuse from others to us is within the past.

"Yesterday is history.
Tomorrow is a mystery.
But today is a gift.
Thats why they call it present."

You're perfect.
I am perfect.
We are perfect.
Just the way we are.
Life is the test no one can study for... :)
865 · Jan 2013
Calm
Amber Jan 2013
My body is still. I enjoy the air. I live out the freedom in the moment. My chest up, down; breath after breath. Dress flowing with the wind. My bare feet, toes twine with the grass. The water at the end of the cliff bouncing off the dirt forming an army of waves, a battle. The moon center of my view, my mind. I am at peace. I am fearless. I am home.
810 · Dec 2012
Nightmares alive.
Amber Dec 2012
May ye slumber to be appeased.
Till they awaken.
Thus sleep into a deep trans.
For ye to ****.
Goodnight, goodnight, sweet dreams, goodnight.
Don't let ye ****.
Don't allow ye to feast.
Fall into a coma, fight for thy live.
As thus nightmares come to life.
Good night, goodnight.
**Come to life, come to life.
733 · Feb 2013
Reality
Amber Feb 2013
Child Reality (Part 1)
As a child you see the world as a playground.
Cars, driven by feet against ground, when you would run for speed.
The biggest pain you felt was a scratch.
The "Love" you gained was for a blanket, and kisses from parents.
You were a child, the saddest part of life.
When reality hits you, you'll be gone.
Blown away.

True Reality (Part 2)
Now you see the world as a grave.
Cars, passing people in need, colors of all type.
The biggest pain you feel now is the mistakes.
The love you feel now is pain, and the kisses from parents are gone, now from strangers, the kisses leading to ***.
You are an adult, following the sadness from you childhood.
The reality hit you.
You're gone.
Ashamed.

You are now tasting the scent of reality.
Gone, soon dead from reality.
731 · Mar 2013
Freedom
Amber Mar 2013
She lays on the grass.
Green and flowing through the wind.
Her hair blacker than death.
Her gown silk, whiter than God's light, ending with lace at lower thighs.
Her skin very pail.
Her smile happier than a child on Christmas.
Blue eyes sparkling, reflecting the stars above her.
Her feet grasping the rich soil beneath the grass.
The cliff has the water of war, battling the soil that creates the lift of eternity.
Her skin very pail.
Full moon floating the the Navy Blue sky.
She lay free.
Freedom released.
I have written about this image in my head several times.
I think it means something.
724 · Jan 2013
Depressed.
Amber Jan 2013
Right now.
I wish to die.
My future is death.
Why the hell do I write.
There is no point.
I don't know.
I am depressed.
I am sorrow.
I re-write everything,
just in different format.
I don't care.
I won't be missed.
I am not loved.
I write.
I am tired.
I am in pain.
I am sorry.
717 · Jan 2013
The poor. The deaf.
Amber Jan 2013
A day passes.
-No sound-
Dog indignant, jaws moving, saliva descending.
Growling eyes, barking movement.
-No sound-
A man, a child, adolescent.
Pointing laughing; jumping, head rolling.
-No sound-
Me walking, dawdle.
Head sagging.
Tear rain down, down.
Clawed shirt, petite shorts.
Exposed legs, arms, feet.
Years. I think.
My life without sound.
708 · Jan 2013
The truth.
Amber Jan 2013
I am done with life. I hate myself. I hate people. I want the sweet sent of suicide to rome amongst my feet. I feel of no place for me to be in. I am a disturbance.
How can I be so ugly in and out. I don't fit in. I am bullied. I am abuse with sounds and fists. I am alone. No one can relate. I am stuck.
I mustn't talk, no, not a sound. It's a sin if expressed. I am the passage way to depression, enjoy the ride while you can. I am sorrow. I am me, the worst to be.
Why must I be alone? What did I do? Well I can't complain, if god did this then what is he to be of heaven. God is the root to all evil. Well in my world he is. Believe and are betrayed.
I don't understand my meaning of life. Why must you drop me from heaven if so then why thee others gracefully down. I hate how I am separate from myself. The different views. The world is a dark place. I feel of nothing to be cheerful of. I am my only friend.
Most of you think, wow, great writing. These are my feelings. This poem is my mind. The only way I can communicate to any other is this, yet they read and just continue life without a doubt, while I am still right here. What have I become, a monster, a guesser.
705 · Feb 2013
Lifetime
Amber Feb 2013
A day of wanders.
A first step.
First words.
Training wheels.
First day of school.
Bike.
Middle school.
Highschool.
First car.
College.
Goodbyes'
Visiting parents.
Helping.
Raising.
New family.
More visits.
Makes bed.
Says goodbye.

Goodbye.
701 · Jan 2013
Rose
Amber Jan 2013
The fragrance of sweet red.
Leading you towards the fiery pit of pedals.
The thing of love.
To me is the thing of death.
To mourn then place.
One by one, extinct.
The beauty of life.
Pedals fall one, two, and so on.
Rose,
beautiful,
deadly.
Rose.
697 · Jan 2013
My problems.
Amber Jan 2013
I wish to tell you of my past. There is just not enough words. I can't find the right word. Abused, teased, told, ordered. I... My mind is full of words. I can't explain. I wan't to scream. I am alone. I write that in almost every poem. Every poem is my past. Something I don't want to remember. Why must I write out my feelings. This is random. I am sorry. UGH. I have A.D.D. I scream randomly. I cry for no reason. I laugh from at mid sentence. I stutter. I shake, not as a joke, not as a word. I shake. My hands eating, sleeping, typing, reading, writing, everyday, for no reason. I am addicted to monster, coffee, milk. Hey I just realized I am typing my problems. I guess. Oh yeah I have night terrors not night mares, night horrors. My night terrors were terrible HA it's in the name. I would dream of shapes, each shape would have a power. Like a square would control time, and in that time he can ****. I know it sounds stupid. But if something is stupid enough that my eyes open as asleep, screaming -NOT JOKING- and be able to wake up everyone in the household. HA on my birthday do you wanna know what my sister made me, of coarse you do thats why you are reading this. Well she drew shapes with angry faces on them and she taped them on my wall -which I face when I sleep-... When I woke up I screamed and punched a hole in the wall which broke my hand. "Thanks Ash."-sarcasm- Well that was I don't know a while ago, so yeah.
681 · Nov 2012
A cats mind.
Amber Nov 2012
Meow meow meow, meow meow.
Meow
Me-ow
Meow.
**:3
680 · Jan 2013
Words
Amber Jan 2013
The words stay.
My pain increases.
The truth are now all lies.
Something keeping me from dying.
My problems start adding on and on and on.
Over and over blood, sweat, tears.
Mistakes rome over my wrist.
My friends decrease.
I am alone.

Problems
Blood
Pain
Sweat
Tears
W­ords
Truth
Wrist
Lies
Dying
Alone
Mistake­s
Words

The years turn into days.
My future is death.
No one left.
Mistakes.
Alone.
Tears.
Words.
670 · Nov 2012
One
Amber Nov 2012
One
One drop led to thee end of me.
One douse was all I had left.
One tear ran through my blank face.
One pill left.
One of me on the floor.
One drop of blood hit the cold, dark tile.
One little happiness was all I had; to know that the pain is almost over.
666 · Feb 2013
My Pool of Tears
Amber Feb 2013
Rage fills in my room as I start to cry.
Tears fill up the room, making me drowned.
Deep under, covered in water.
Soaked, drenched.
I crave a smile, let down with a frown.
Why must you drown me.
Why push me father then I am.
I see no return for life.
I see blue, shimmers of light fading.
The waves rise above me.
The thing I live on is one speak of light, soon gone.
I should float, but I swim further down.
Bubbles rise, as I finally breath.
I don't want to die, but forced.
Murdered.
You created the tears that drowned me.
You don't care.
You swim in my pool.
My pool of tears.
665 · Apr 2013
Stand
Amber Apr 2013
Life can seem like it's over, that everything once good is now bad.
Life can be upsetting, even to those who wait.
Life can be full of experience, but can be full of mistakes.
Life can be ended, or saved.

We create hope, and despair.
We decide the future.
We choose the life we live.
We choose our paths.

You have a choice of right or wrong.
You can be bullied, be the bully, or stand up.
You have the option to help others in need, or let them suffer.
You have thee option to give, or take.

Please speak the voice you were born with.
Please fight against the hatred.
Please stand up, and tall.
Please.

I chose a life where you, me, we; can be free.
I helped and am helping those in need.
I am facing a stone that once hit me.
I stood.

Now you.
Stand up to bulling. Once and for all. We shall have the victory that man created.
664 · Nov 2012
Tis love?
Amber Nov 2012
Tis love?
A happy, gleaming full, heart warming world?
A melancholy, oppressing, shunning full world?
No;
Yes.
Love shan't be thee second on my list of wonders; yet the first.
660 · Apr 2013
Laurel Ridge
Amber Apr 2013
Thank you.

Every room you put me in.
My first room 502.
Second 509.
I remember my number, 4849.

One week.
The best week.

Every challenge is a test that we all have to pass.

Therapist every day.
Group sessions.
Terrible food...
Amazing stories.

Laurel Ridge thank you.
For teaching me,
To love the world and myself.
And how self harm isn't the choice.

*Every challenge is a test that we all have to pass.
I was an impatient at Laurel Ridge. And it changed me. :) Thank you
643 · Jan 2013
Empty
Amber Jan 2013
A day to me is a world of              nothing.



In a box lay                                              oblivio­n.            
                
  
                  
                                Space                                 everywhere.  
         *Empty
636 · Jan 2013
Gram
Amber Jan 2013
Hair up, not in a holder, in the air.
Not grey but brown.
You don't even need glasses, because you see the world as a flower any way.
You are perfect.
Everything that my family needs.
I love you gram.
<3
!uoy evol I
Je t'aime!
621 · Apr 2013
Time to say goodbye
Amber Apr 2013
When I'm alone I dream of the horizon and words fail me.
There is no light in a room where there is no sun
and there is no sun if you're not here with me, with me.
From every window unfurls my heart the heart that you have won.
Into me you've poured the light,
the light that you found by the side of the road.

Time to say goodbye.
Places that I've never seen or experienced with you.
Now I shall, I'll sail with you upon ships across the seas,
seas that exist no more,
it's time to say goodbye.

When you're far away I dream of the horizon and words fail me.
And of course I know that you're with me, with me.
You, my moon, you are with me.
My sun, you're here with me with me, with me, with me.

Time to say goodbye.
Places that I've never seen or experienced with you.
Now I shall, I'll sail with you upon ships across the seas,
seas that exist no more,

I'll revive them with you.
I'll go with you upon ships across the seas,
seas that exist no more,
I'll revive them with you.
I'll go with you.

You and me.
613 · Jan 2013
Good night.
Amber Jan 2013
Good night.
This is the last of me.
Tonight pills.
Tomorrow gone.
More tears.
More smiles.
I am sorry.
I really am.
613 · Dec 2012
Expiring
Amber Dec 2012
A ancient man of up to date, in search for his rugous body to expire. Very sapient, in a low spoken tone. Blackening, lusterless, tone of green eyes hazed behind his glass dome to in which seeks a luminous view. Thus being no longer youthful, such man twas engraved as my forefather.
  Tis of thy ancestor hair a majestic, ash, of none of thee less than one inch grown out of his marble shaped, sphere, crown. Scars are thee faded memories, thus he shall not keep them in mined nor heart.
Thank you Chad, you are truly in my heart you're death is a tragedy yet you rome half dead among the spirits guiding me. I love you. R.I.P Chad
610 · Mar 2013
Ghost (10W)
Amber Mar 2013
Spirit.
Light.
Drift.
Sunken.
Equivocation.
White.
Lifeless.
Sorrow.
Worthless.
Ghost.
601 · Jan 2013
Thoughts
Amber Jan 2013
I have all the feelings in my head. I hate and love. I just hate more than love. I am tired and depressed. **** this. I am done. Life, yup, not my thing. I **** at life. I can't even sleep without some type of emotion. I hate my life, me, people, this world. So tell me how much I have worth living for. I know what I have. But I have more hate towards people in me than love in anything. What the hell am I doing. Oh my god. Yes I scream. Yes I cry. I **** at math. But do you really need math for writing. Random noises leave my mouth. I don't have one feeling at a time. They just bounce together. When I cry I laugh. I scream and I am crying. Ugh. This is a poem, a ****** one. I listen to only songs that have meaning. What am I supposed to do besides run. Run from what. I don't know. Let me go. Zombiefy!! Woo. What the hell was that. A.D.D. taking over me. What did I do. Where do I go. The scars on my wrist are now gone. Except one. That one gave me more pain. It hurts like a pinch. And stings like a bee. Blood just there. It doesn't move until I make the next slash, making the drops turn in to a puddle. I let it build up inside of me. In my thoughts.
586 · Feb 2013
Once upon a time.
Amber Feb 2013
Once upon a time,
There was a kingdom ruled by a king. This king was not happy with money, he was greedy for love. He forced love upon woman everywhere, married, underage, it didn't matter. He walked to this girl, grabbed her hand and he sooner took her to his throne, for him to be pleasured. She didn't cry, nor scream in a seek of help. She just obeyed him in any manner of doing. He was happy, he was satisfied. Later that day he forced her hand in marriage. At the wedding the priest announced for them to share a kiss, he wanted yet again more... She didn't cry, nor scream in seek of help. She did every order, every command. Till the day of his death, she cried because she was happy. With the king now dead, she is the owner of this kingdom. She had the one thing she wanted, happiness.

Once upon a time,
There was a kingdom ruled by a queen, and this kingdom was as happy as can be. And as simply as that, the kingdom lived happily ever after.
574 · Jan 2013
His last day
Amber Jan 2013
"A day of life has approached me. The day of death. As others say it "My time has come." Then thee others cry. I am old now. It's just a regular type of day. Except today I lie on my death bed. It's comfy. I don't need anything. No water, fresh towels, jello. Nothing. I am sad yes, yet I do want is the pain to stop. Don't pull the plug yet. Please let me die trying. I don't want to give up. I love you." Those were his last words to me. "I love you."
  Two hours later; he died. I stayed holding his hand. After the buzzer was a tone of one. Continuing, beeeeeeeeep and so forth. I kissed him on the head. I never walked out. Yes, I cried. He was my husband. Seventy two years of marriage. I slept there because he was my home. He always told me. "Darling, I wan't to see the world. Do you mind if we sell our home and explore?" All I said was "You are my home." With a smile, after that we held hands under the roof of our house.  We married at about sixteen maybe seventeen years of age. We lived good. "I love you too." I broke. I cried. They escorted me out of there as I watched them finally put the sheet over his head. I screamed. I cried. I did not run when they put me in a room. A lady sat there in front of me and said "Please, don't scream. We will be keeping him here. Until you figure out how, well ether he will be buried or he..." I cut her off. "I understand. May I see him one last time?" I begged "Yes..." She said with a sigh. This will be the last I will see of him. Yet again I say "I love you..." Grasping his chest holding him with all my might.
  I never saw him again; because I ran. I ran from his last day.
Amber Nov 2012
I am tired yet to say, however I am astonished by the graceful sun rays that blind my eyes from its roaring beauty.
I may feel pain, though I feel free as the wind rolling to and fro.
I want a better night slumber, although I want every day to be the same for me to rise from my coma to walk past the rest of the tragedy, melancholy life's influencing me to do bad as I do good.
I am, I feel, I want.
TO MRS. JACOBS <3 <3 <3
557 · Jan 2013
My God, My Belief
Amber Jan 2013
We are all here for a reason.
That reason is unknown.

The flowers are my god.
They are there, no one can explain them.
No one...

Flowers are my belief.
They get crushed, yet bounce back up.
They are calm, colorful, fragranced.

What is your God, your Belief?
1/27/13
523 · Jan 2013
Lies
Amber Jan 2013
"But, I thought..."
"HAHAH fat ***, did you really think that anyone would like you. (With a crowd behind her)
"I... I just thought."
"Well you thought wrong *****! AHAH (The whole crowd laughs)"
"But what did I do?"
"You were talking **** about me, yeah he told me, go die you *****! (More laughs from the crowd)"
"No I don't talk about people... I didn't say anything"
"Oh "OK Sure" Yeah go say that you ***. No one likes you. Go **** you're self. HAHA (More)"
She walked out of the girls restroom along with the crowd. Me one the floor crying. I crawl to the nearest stall. I stay there for about 5 minutes. I soak up my tears to accept the fact that I have to go back. In my head I thought take her out, punch her, kick her, DO SOMETHING! I didn't, I wanted to. No cameras in the bathroom. No proof that anything happened that day. I wish I would have fought back. But I was afraid. Lies lead up to this. He told lies. He, she, they, them. Lies.
519 · Mar 2013
My Future
Amber Mar 2013
I'm seeking help. I think I'm going to die soon. I have seen the future before, I dreamt it. I know that sounds impossible. I went to a carnival, well it's more a thing that people make. Like you walk through lights, but when we where walking to go home. I realized that I have seen this before. A couple years ago I had a dream. Me holding popcorn, my mother next to me father and sister in front. Walking to a mall the catch the bus home. I stopped and just watched. This has also happened before from watching a movie. But this is not a coincidence if i can see the future then what about my other dreams? Are my dreams my future?
510 · Jan 2013
Flower
Amber Jan 2013
My life as a flower.
I shall wilt in fear.
I grow towards death.
I crumble the fastest.
I die by suicide,
not **** spray.
Ha, funny. :p
491 · Jan 2013
My body.
Amber Jan 2013
My lackadaisical soul. Very depleted, stale, in which rome the damp, disconsolate rain. Soaking up my clothes, to divulge my skin. Thus laying  motionless, inert. I am drenched. I love it. Being solitary, alone. Better than lied to. I love observing; listening, watching. I am silent, bashful.
This is random. I am sorry
489 · Jan 2013
Mother.
Amber Jan 2013
Mom, you have showed me to laugh.
Tough times at school.
Grades, people.
You shined through.
Strait from heart to heart.
You are a positive.
You made me.
You are me life instructor, my way to life.
You have showed me a path.
I am a purpose.
I am rain.
You don't hide like other when I may start create lightning bolts.
No, no you, you calm me, create me.
I love you.
Thank you mom.
Tough times shine through when you are near.
You are my hero.
You are my god.
Sometimes my only belief.
I love you, yet again said.
But not expressed.
You always ask me.
"Amber, how much do you love me?"
Well mommy, this is it.
I love you.
Thank you.
<3
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