Amanda

Amanda Jul 2013

Tears

Tears

As these tears stream down my face
I am brought back to a different place
a place I wish could be erased
or at least processed enough not to leave a trace
a place where my thoughts race
a place where I can still picture your face
I wanted you to keep up the pace
I hope in life’s true meanings you now chase
Instead of a high wrapped in pretty lace
regardless I am rooting for you to win this race
I pray you do not let yourself go to waste
because of you, it is you I no longer taste
and it is you that needs to be replaced
and now I sit here as tears stream down my face

Amanda Jul 2013

Pieces of Me

Pieces of Me
Take a closer look and you shall see
all these little, pretty, ****** up pieces of me
here they reside for all to see
because I wear them proudly on my sleeves
all these scattered and jagged pieces of me.

Sometimes these pieces of me get lost in their great abyss
from time to time they wander there and scream in an innocent bliss
“Hey, this is beautiful, does anyone else see this”?
These pieces of me are all unique and different
but as a whole they are not all here yet
so the rest of them I will not forget
what is even more, I await them with no regrets.

Take a closer look and you shall see
all these little, pretty, ****** up pieces of me
here they reside for all to see
because I wear them proudly on my sleeves
all these scattered and jagged pieces of me.

These pieces of me come home at their own will
and once we connect, it is me that they fulfill
attempting to whole the person sitting at the windowsill.
But for now, I am sitting here just wishing
all my irrational illogical pieces to just start glistening
and open themselves to a universe that is listening.

Take a closer look and you shall see
all these little, pretty, ****** up pieces of me
here they reside for all to see
because I wear them proudly on my sleeves
all these scattered and jagged pieces of me.

My goal is one day to achieve
a complex puzzle so beautiful and complete
something everyone could see and think, “wow isn’t that just so lovely”?
A lovely puzzle made from the finest, tiniest, prettiest, scattered, jagged, unique,
different, irrational, illogical, and ****** up pieces of me.

Amanda Jul 2013

Ego

Ego
I have this thought every now and again
I feel like I am one of the few
who considers the suffering of all our friends
we are all each other’s friends
we are all made up of the same two strands
why doesn’t the world think like this?
I don’t understand.
Just think of what we could all accomplish if we all lend
to all our friends
our helping hands
and form lifelong bands
that could withstand
time, space, hate, and heat
lifelong bonds that could diminish all the negativity.
I would love if I could see
a world rid of pain, suffering and grief
a world where we could all agree
to put each other ahead of the notion of the me
for the greater good of all humanity.
Imagine if everyone could just let go of their egos
oh the places mankind could go
oh all the beautiful amazing things we could all know
oh all the things our brothers and us could show
oh all the ways we could make our human brains grow!
But like I said
I have this thought every now and again
just a thought I thought and wanted to share with my friends.

Amanda Jul 2013

Triarchyness

Triarchyness
I am human and triarchyness is I
it is everything I stand for
it is how I dive, slide, and ride
this crazy thing called life that's mine.
I am human and triarchyness is me
it is the ROYGBIV goggles from which I see.
At the core
it is my values, beliefs, opinions and more
it is the guiding force behind my closing or opening of doors.
I am human and through the fire and the bliss
I will forever maintain my triarchyness.

Amanda Jul 2013

Let it be

Let it be
Started off smiling
didn’t know what was coming
Started off smiling
didn’t know what was coming
So gone I was smiling
So gone in your lies and…

I knew I had to get away
with you I couldn’t stay
You just gave me away
you knew I couldn’t stay

I always knew we would fade away
we were doomed from the start hey,
so sad you lost your way
but with you I can’t stay

Never say never babe
At least that’s what they say
I hope that you’ll be okay
And that maybe one day
You find your base then make your way
Because with you I can’t stay
In my heart you’ll remain
But with you I just can’t stay

So to eleven fifteen,
Its just time to let it be
Because my love
Is worthy of eternity
And with you that just won’t be.

I wrote these as song lyrics.

Amanda Jul 2013

Infinity

Infinity
How does one cope with being a seed of religion and growing into a scientist? Its a simple balance really. To me, god represents man and we all know real men answer to a good woman; so, naturally the universe would then represent womankind! So to me, to believe in both god and the universe, its simple to think that God is the Universe’s angel, and the Universe will always surround her angels with everything they need for always and infinity.

Amanda Jul 2013

11(dash)2

Ooooo 11-2 where are you??? sigh…rain outside my window makes my mind heal…I swear its your energy I can feel…still can’t wait till you become real…*soon