in the black of night
i lay awake
wondering
how i ever got to this state
this state of mind
this feeling
of overwhelming consciousness
listen to me
i'm screaming
no words
no sounds
come out of my mouth
i am screaming
unable to gasp for air
slowly but surely
i fall
slip
crumble
unable to get back up
reaching hopelessly
hoping someone
will grab me
but no one is in sight
no one is near
for i pushed everyone
far far away
i am the only one here