Recollecting those times, those memories.
Your essence, your spirit, your touch;
On my mind.
Feelings of nostalgia overwhelm my consciousness.
Trying to block you.. it.. out.
Forgive and forget, a saying unknown.
You've taken this time, you have grown.
Me? Still stuck running in place.
Faux smile on my face.
Trying to erase; you.

Caught; tangled in the webs of self destruction.
Thoughts; controlling your every emotion.
Unseen; beliefs and morals.
Swallowed down the hatch.
Little left to grasp, concepts determine facts.
Strategically spinning, downwards; Downwards.
Spiralling out of control, not knowing how to face letting go.
Willingness, willing to grow.
Find your place, find your soul;
Find that smile again, find the whole.

Apologies; sincere?
This we've been made clear.
Love was not enough to keep you near.
The fear.
The fear of losing you brought me to that instance.
Trust? Trust was never know.
Doubt? Doubt reigned my mind.
These feelings of mine, made you leave me behind.
Endings. I knew they would be this way.
Hope? False hopes.
Leading me nowhere but to grow fonder of feelings of despair.
Love? Love was not enough.
Never will be, never was.