You know how when you want to make a perfect snow angel?
And there's always that one handprint getting out that messes it up.
Well being with scott, there is no handprint.
Because being with scott, every minute you live life.
If its either 3 hours or 3 minutes.
Things feel possible when im with him,
flying or even finding love.
I never have a dull moment with him.
He's always making me feel good, and im always smiling.
I'd never trade him for anything.
He's like the music in your head all day,
the first person you text in the morning,
the drug you take to stay sane,
and the sun that puts that smile on your face every morning.
Being with him is like seeing the stars at night even though you can't.
Being with him is like living again & feeling happy for once in your life.

Another gone, gone again.
I thought he liked me for me.
I thought i felt safe with me.
I thought it would last longer than four days.
The good guys always get away,
but, as i always say its just one more off the list.
Maybe the next one waiting for me will last.
Two guys are there for me and seem like it.
I want someone to be there and be able to tell me if they are good.

Another gone, gone again.
As i lay with my phone calling and texting two.
I've never felt that comfored by someone.
When will the hurting stop?
when will they stop turning off the lights and keep them on?
When will the heart be one?
When will someone fill the pain of the hole in the heart?
The girl trapped in the room.
She can never get out, cause the door is locked.
Though i know someone will come along with the key and let her out.
Maybe he will save her for once.

Another gone, gone again.
Can't my life be like a movie?
I want John Cusack holding a boombox outside my window.
I wanna ride off on a lawnmower with Patrick Dempsey.
I want Jake from Sixteen Candles waiting outside the church for me.
I want Judd Nelson thrusting his fist into the air because he knows he got me.
But none of that happens.
Because they just want us to get hurt and do anything for them.

Another gone, gone again.
And i can't do anything but wait and cry.

Have you ever dreamed about that one guy?
the popular guy in school.
The cute 6'4, ***** blonde
who plays baseball, parties and drives.
The guy who dated the blonde cheerleader.
The guy who walks the halls
head up, books on side, black hat on, laughing as he walks.
he looks so fun and happy.
If you had the chance to read his mind,
would you?
He's the guy every girl wants.
Don't you really wanna know what he thinks.
I mean....
He's Blake Chandler.

He was.......
everything to me
and it hurt to let him go,
i cryed the most for him.
I was trying to change,
my parents did'nt like him
so in order to change
i had to set him free
as i let him go i wanted to take him back.
Hearing him beg to me,
was the biggest pain in my life,
he knew me so well
and loved me like no other.

Didn't ever think i was going to feel good again,
i was hurting for so long.
But as we went out last night and stared at the city.
I realized...i was happy,
for once in 3 months,
i smiled a real smile.
And it was all due to you.
You make me happy,
as no one has in a while.
All i needed to see was your smile,
all i needed to hear was 'i like you',
all i needed to feel was my laughs as you tickled me.
I wouldn't trade any moment with you foe anything.
I know i'll see you soon:)
Cause i like you and you like me

I feel different when im with him.
I feel safe,like he likes me for me
I feel like i dont have to be embarresd to laugh or smile.
When i do something embarassing, he just lets it go.
We are so much alike.
I've never been this way.
He saw his name on my hand and thought it was cute, and took a pic.
Most guys think its weird..
He's a country boy, and when im in his arms..
The whole world stops.
Im really happy.
know one can take it from me.
But him..
If he leaves

If i kissed you,
would you kiss me back?
If i said i care for you,
would you care for me too?
If i said i love you,
would you love me too?
If i cuddled in your arms,
would you cuddle in mine?
If someone called me ugly,
would you tell them im beautiful?
If i turned to blade,
would you grab it and through it?
If i grabbed alchol,
would you through it against a wall?
If i was with a random guy,
would you run in and pull him off?
If i yelled at you,
would you grab me by the back of the neck and kiss me like in the movies?
If i looked your way,
would you look mine?

As i lay awake, night after night.
Not wanting to leave your sight.
Hoping that the smell in my room,
that's of you, will never leave my mind.
I dream and dream that i hope will be.
To see you next to me,
your eyes shining in the moon light,
your arms wrapped with mine.
Our hearts beating as one at the same time.
Your kisses light up my day,
And when you look at me, i feel the whole world stop.
I wake the next morning having to go to school.
Without you, and i realize..it was just a wish and a dream.
That i know will come true soon.
Because having you in my heart makes me know your real.
and having you care about me the way you do makes me know were real.

I never cried,
because i didn't love you.
You never saw me cry,
because i didn't let myself.
You were never my drug,
because i never got addicted.
I never fell,
i never got that whole in love thing.
It never hurt to say goodbye.
I never looked like the fool,
because you were the one playing my game.
You weren't special to me,
because it never got to that point.
I never cared for you in my heart,
because you wouldn't let me.
I never fought for you,
because you weren't worth fighting for.
Your kisses didn't light me up.
Your hugs didn't make me feel warm.
Your cuddles didn't add a spark.
Your words didn't have any meaning.
All because i knew you would hurt me.
Though i wish this was all true,
You did see me cry,
because there was nothing else i could do.
You were my drug,
because i felt i needed you every night and day, just to breath.
I did fall for you,
I got the whole in love thing, because its real.
It hurt the most to say goodbye.
I looked like the fool,
because i'm the one that played your game.
You were very special to me,
because it DID get to that point.
I did care for you in my heart,
because you were the first to let me in.
I tried fighting for you,
because you were my love.
Your kisses made me shine.
Your hugs caught me on fire.
You cuddles gave me goose bumps.
Your words had all the meaning in the world,
all because i thought you wouldn't hurt me.
But as i hate to say.
You did hurt me, more than ever.

We are young
We have heart
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We are strong
But we don't belong
Born in this world as it all falls apart

I think its kinda funny.
Im over you & thats the truth
though you dont believe it
your the one that looks bad
cause why would a girl like me want you
your nothing and im everything.
Im not the one that looks stupid or pathetic
you are, cause you lost something amazing.
Im to good for you and there are better guys
youve stolen my heart but i stole it back.
cause im over you now.

As i talk to you, the world is calm.
As i care for you, people think i'm crazy.
because i havnt known you long though we are one.
Your amazing and you make me laugh.
You make it feel like the world is in one piece again.
And all because your in my life,
it all feels better and happy.
The world may come crashing down someday.
But for now we are here for each other.
And all i can ask of you is to love me for me.

It was one wonderful night with you.
Your the most interesting person ive ever met.
Someone i want to be with everyday,
Someone i COULD love forever.
So cute, sweet, and funny.
I once asked you....
When we stoped talking, did you ever think about me?
You replied with 'yes, all the time'
You gave me butterflys..i can't even explain how many.
I guess you could say i felt like a kid getting a new toy.
Telling my mom you were gorgeous, behind the costumes.
As i tried on costumes, i flirted and gave you my facebook info.
Thinking id never get to see you again, i called you.
you told me i smelt good, and you couldnt stop flirting either.
but as i could go one forever, i must stop
and just say your kisses were amazing, i never wanted to stop.
and you are literally the best guy i have met.
So as you are out of my life once again, which upsets me.
I must say i miss you.
and i will never forget you...
EVER!

He caused me a great deal of pain,
like no one else has before.
I loved you,
i really did.
I dont care if you believe me or not.
because its the truth
But you did me wrong,
and it's not something i can just forget about,
my mind won't let me.
i smell you sometimes,
and when i do, i have racing thoughts.
not good ones wither.
People called them all lies, and me one.
But only you and i know the truth.
AS i have your scent in my mind.
as i do right now....
i hate to say,
when i smell your axe or body scent.
I need to cover up my nose,freak out, but sometimes want you.
People said it was ok to miss you,
for we had a relationship,
but you hurt me.....
Mentally & physically.

Stephen baby, as we walked the shore.
We talked about many things,
but i didn't say half what i planned on.
You always treat me like everything is good about me.
You always say that there is something worth looking for.

Stephen baby, when i look in your eyes,
There is just something about them that show the truth.
I want to kiss you in the pooring rain,
Kissing you is like the world stops.

Stephen baby, You make me smile every second.
When you grad the back of my head kissing, i feel something different.
When you look at me i feel wanted and needed.
When i say your name...i just can't believe your mine.

Stephen baby, when i think about the 6 months we have.
I know they will be the best moments of my life.
When i think of us together, it's pretty unbelievable.
When i think, im the one that gets to kiss you.
I get butterflies.
I know i'm the luckiest girl in the world (:

Stephen baby,
your mine, i'm yours.
Stephen baby.

Someone you can stay up late with and talk about everything to,
Someone that will listen to every bit of drama and tell you the truth,
Someone that will fight a girl for you no matter what,
Someone that will hunt down a guy that broke your heart,
Someone that no matter what happens will be there for you,
Someone who if you need them there, will be there at 4:31 am.
Someone who will dry your eyes after a break up or fight with a parent.
Someone who will run and catch you in the middle of school when you see him hugging another girl.
Someone that will hold you and not let go until your ready.
Someone that will pat your back and just listen to you talk.
Someone that makes you laugh 24/7
Someone that will laugh when you trip and help you up.
Someone that will run through the rain with you.
Someone that will skinny dip with you and jump the fence.
Someone that will smile at the end of the day and say "your my bestfriend."

Some place you can go to be safe.
Some place you can go to have someone stand by you.
Some place you can go to feel warm.
Some place you can go to be protected.
Some place you can go where their parents will hide you.
Some place you go where you don't have to worry about anything.

I have this group of friends that no matter what they are there.
I have this group of friends that are connected in our own weird ways.
I have this group of friends that held me after a bad break up.
I have this group of friends that are mean to eachother a lot, but we joke, and we are a family.
I have this group of friends where we say were going to stay in touch.
I have this group of friends that when were upset were there for eachother, boy or girl.
I have this group of friends where we have a lot of drama and cry a lot..and it brings us together.
****, friends, love, heart breaks, same issues, music, class. ect.
we are all connected in some way, but different ways.
They are the bestfriends iv'e ever had.
I'll never let them go in my heart.

As i write this poem,
as everyone is new, but somehow the same.
Life goes by, days go on, nights flys by.

I don't know for sure if he's the one or maybe he is.
Life tricks me, and confuses me.
Can't one thing be what it seem?
cant one moment be like a movie?
can one person be the guy in the movie?
can anything make sense anytime soon?

I want him to be mine.
No one else but him.
He completes me, makes me think, and cares for me.
But don't all guys act like they do?
i know, as i've been told.
The one will come along, and if they all act the same.
You don't know if they are true of not.
Maybe he's the one..or not.
Until then, i'll keep looking (:

Ever had that one secret?
you cant tell anybody, but some know.
Ever have that one secret you wanna tell...but your affraid?
Ever had that one secret where you wanna start over
and not tell anyone?
Ever have that one person you thought you could trust,
then the truth comes, and you know you cant?
ever have that one secret, the school finds out,
you lose friends and gain some.
Ever have that one secret, and where you lose a friend, you know they arnt really your friend.
Ever have that one secret....
you just wish you had never told.
Everyone has secrets....
you just never know how bad someone's is.

I put a wall up, around my heart
as i feel something's going to come.
I don't want to get hurt again
as i have many times.
My one last love, that i trusted with my life.
Broke it as i knew he would do.
Maybe i was just hoping he wouldnt..
i give them the benifit of the dout...maybe thinking i will love and trust a guy soon.
and if i trust them they will trst me..
but since my heart was broken the last time
i will put that wall up, until i know im with a guy that will protect it
so everyone called my heart "the walled up heart"
as it will be for right now.
and you can prove to me your worthy.
if you want to be the one to tare down my wall.
as its of stell for now.

As i know people don't like to hear this much
And is hurts me as much as as it will others.
I don't want these words to come out of my mouth,
as i know they will eventually.
but eventually don't they all?
I don't think i will ever see you again,
and that breaks my heart,
if i let go now, maybe it will hurt less.
I must say you kept me happy for a while.
Your kisses seemed to save what was left of me,
your eyes made me shine like the sun coming in your window,
and just for a little while,
your touch made me safe.
I will never pretend you did not exist in my life
Because that would be a lie.
But as i hate to say but have to say.
It's time to say goodbye.

I don't think you will
ever fully understand
how you've touched my life
and made me who I am.

I don't think you could ever know
just how truly special you are
that even on the darkest nights
you are my brightest star.

I don't think you will ever fully comprehend
how you've made my dreams come true
or how you've opened my heart
to love and the wonders it can do.

You've allowed me to experience
something very hard to find
unconditional love that exists
in my body, soul, and mind.

I don't think you could ever feel
all the love I have to give
and I'm sure you'll never realize
you've been my will to live.

You are an amazing person
and without you I don't know where I'd be.
Having you in my life
completes and fulfills every part of me.