Amanda Edmonson

Amanda Edmonson Jan 2011

He caused me a great deal of pain,
like no one else has before.
I loved you,
i really did.
I dont care if you believe me or not.
because its the truth
But you did me wrong,
and it's not something i can just forget about,
my mind won't let me.
i smell you sometimes,
and when i do, i have racing thoughts.
not good ones wither.
People called them all lies, and me one.
But only you and i know the truth.
AS i have your scent in my mind.
as i do right now....
i hate to say,
when i smell your axe or body scent.
I need to cover up my nose,freak out, but sometimes want you.
People said it was ok to miss you,
for we had a relationship,
but you hurt me.....
Mentally & physically.

for someone i can never forgive.....and try to forget

Amanda Edmonson Jan 2011

PERFECT TWO

You can be the peanut butter to my jelly
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly
You can be the captain and I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that I feel on our first date

You can be the hero and I can be your side kick
You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'
Or you can be the sun when it shines in the mornin'

Don't know if I could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me
And I'm the one for you
You take the both of us
And we're the perfect two

You can be the prince and I can be your princess
You can be the sweet tooth and I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages

You can be the ***** and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as we're together

Don't know if I could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need.

IM not stealing it..its from a song.
but its so beautiful so i had to put some up:)
its by auburn.

Amanda Edmonson Jan 2011

Blake Chandler

Have you ever dreamed about that one guy?
the popular guy in school.
The cute 6'4, ***** blonde
who plays baseball, parties and drives.
The guy who dated the blonde cheerleader.
The guy who walks the halls
head up, books on side, black hat on, laughing as he walks.
he looks so fun and happy.
If you had the chance to read his mind,
would you?
He's the guy every girl wants.
Don't you really wanna know what he thinks.
I mean....
He's Blake Chandler.

Blake chandler...
adorably cute popular guy at school.

Amanda Edmonson Jan 2011

Kody

It was one wonderful night with you.
Your the most interesting person ive ever met.
Someone i want to be with everyday,
Someone i COULD love forever.
So cute, sweet, and funny.
I once asked you....
When we stoped talking, did you ever think about me?
You replied with 'yes, all the time'
You gave me butterflys..i can't even explain how many.
I guess you could say i felt like a kid getting a new toy.
Telling my mom you were gorgeous, behind the costumes.
As i tried on costumes, i flirted and gave you my facebook info.
Thinking id never get to see you again, i called you.
you told me i smelt good, and you couldnt stop flirting either.
but as i could go one forever, i must stop
and just say your kisses were amazing, i never wanted to stop.
and you are literally the best guy i have met.
So as you are out of my life once again, which upsets me.
I must say i miss you.
and i will never forget you...
EVER!

to kody, a guy i like/liked very much. It was like that one person you fall for everytime you talk to them. And you never stop. That one person you never want to say goodbye to and you want to show them off...someone you will never ever ever forget in your life..
So kody, the best way to say all these words are in a poem...as i have done now..but a poem cant ever say or explain how i really truly feel.
ill never hurt you, no matter what.

Amanda Edmonson Jan 2011

will you ever?

I don't think you will
ever fully understand
how you've touched my life
and made me who I am.

I don't think you could ever know
just how truly special you are
that even on the darkest nights
you are my brightest star.

I don't think you will ever fully comprehend
how you've made my dreams come true
or how you've opened my heart
to love and the wonders it can do.

You've allowed me to experience
something very hard to find
unconditional love that exists
in my body, soul, and mind.

I don't think you could ever feel
all the love I have to give
and I'm sure you'll never realize
you've been my will to live.

You are an amazing person
and without you I don't know where I'd be.
Having you in my life
completes and fulfills every part of me.

Amanda Edmonson Jan 2011

The walled up heart

I put a wall up, around my heart
as i feel something's going to come.
I don't want to get hurt again
as i have many times.
My one last love, that i trusted with my life.
Broke it as i knew he would do.
Maybe i was just hoping he wouldnt..
i give them the benifit of the dout...maybe thinking i will love and trust a guy soon.
and if i trust them they will trst me..
but since my heart was broken the last time
i will put that wall up, until i know im with a guy that will protect it
so everyone called my heart "the walled up heart"
as it will be for right now.
and you can prove to me your worthy.
if you want to be the one to tare down my wall.
as its of stell for now.

you cant have my body and sure as hell not my heart.

Amanda Edmonson Jan 2011

the secret

Ever had that one secret?
you cant tell anybody, but some know.
Ever have that one secret you wanna tell...but your affraid?
Ever had that one secret where you wanna start over
and not tell anyone?
Ever have that one person you thought you could trust,
then the truth comes, and you know you cant?
ever have that one secret, the school finds out,
you lose friends and gain some.
Ever have that one secret, and where you lose a friend, you know they arnt really your friend.
Ever have that one secret....
you just wish you had never told.
Everyone has secrets....
you just never know how bad someone's is.