As i know people don't like to hear this much
And is hurts me as much as as it will others.
I don't want these words to come out of my mouth,
as i know they will eventually.
but eventually don't they all?
I don't think i will ever see you again,
and that breaks my heart,
if i let go now, maybe it will hurt less.
I must say you kept me happy for a while.
Your kisses seemed to save what was left of me,
your eyes made me shine like the sun coming in your window,
and just for a little while,
your touch made me safe.
I will never pretend you did not exist in my life
Because that would be a lie.
But as i hate to say but have to say.
It's time to say goodbye.

I never cried,
because i didn't love you.
You never saw me cry,
because i didn't let myself.
You were never my drug,
because i never got addicted.
I never fell,
i never got that whole in love thing.
It never hurt to say goodbye.
I never looked like the fool,
because you were the one playing my game.
You weren't special to me,
because it never got to that point.
I never cared for you in my heart,
because you wouldn't let me.
I never fought for you,
because you weren't worth fighting for.
Your kisses didn't light me up.
Your hugs didn't make me feel warm.
Your cuddles didn't add a spark.
Your words didn't have any meaning.
All because i knew you would hurt me.
Though i wish this was all true,
You did see me cry,
because there was nothing else i could do.
You were my drug,
because i felt i needed you every night and day, just to breath.
I did fall for you,
I got the whole in love thing, because its real.
It hurt the most to say goodbye.
I looked like the fool,
because i'm the one that played your game.
You were very special to me,
because it DID get to that point.
I did care for you in my heart,
because you were the first to let me in.
I tried fighting for you,
because you were my love.
Your kisses made me shine.
Your hugs caught me on fire.
You cuddles gave me goose bumps.
Your words had all the meaning in the world,
all because i thought you wouldn't hurt me.
But as i hate to say.
You did hurt me, more than ever.

Another gone, gone again.
I thought he liked me for me.
I thought i felt safe with me.
I thought it would last longer than four days.
The good guys always get away,
but, as i always say its just one more off the list.
Maybe the next one waiting for me will last.
Two guys are there for me and seem like it.
I want someone to be there and be able to tell me if they are good.

Another gone, gone again.
As i lay with my phone calling and texting two.
I've never felt that comfored by someone.
When will the hurting stop?
when will they stop turning off the lights and keep them on?
When will the heart be one?
When will someone fill the pain of the hole in the heart?
The girl trapped in the room.
She can never get out, cause the door is locked.
Though i know someone will come along with the key and let her out.
Maybe he will save her for once.

Another gone, gone again.
Can't my life be like a movie?
I want John Cusack holding a boombox outside my window.
I wanna ride off on a lawnmower with Patrick Dempsey.
I want Jake from Sixteen Candles waiting outside the church for me.
I want Judd Nelson thrusting his fist into the air because he knows he got me.
But none of that happens.
Because they just want us to get hurt and do anything for them.

Another gone, gone again.
And i can't do anything but wait and cry.

Stephen baby, as we walked the shore.
We talked about many things,
but i didn't say half what i planned on.
You always treat me like everything is good about me.
You always say that there is something worth looking for.

Stephen baby, when i look in your eyes,
There is just something about them that show the truth.
I want to kiss you in the pooring rain,
Kissing you is like the world stops.

Stephen baby, You make me smile every second.
When you grad the back of my head kissing, i feel something different.
When you look at me i feel wanted and needed.
When i say your name...i just can't believe your mine.

Stephen baby, when i think about the 6 months we have.
I know they will be the best moments of my life.
When i think of us together, it's pretty unbelievable.
When i think, im the one that gets to kiss you.
I get butterflies.
I know i'm the luckiest girl in the world (:

Stephen baby,
your mine, i'm yours.
Stephen baby.

Someone you can stay up late with and talk about everything to,
Someone that will listen to every bit of drama and tell you the truth,
Someone that will fight a girl for you no matter what,
Someone that will hunt down a guy that broke your heart,
Someone that no matter what happens will be there for you,
Someone who if you need them there, will be there at 4:31 am.
Someone who will dry your eyes after a break up or fight with a parent.
Someone who will run and catch you in the middle of school when you see him hugging another girl.
Someone that will hold you and not let go until your ready.
Someone that will pat your back and just listen to you talk.
Someone that makes you laugh 24/7
Someone that will laugh when you trip and help you up.
Someone that will run through the rain with you.
Someone that will skinny dip with you and jump the fence.
Someone that will smile at the end of the day and say "your my bestfriend."

Some place you can go to be safe.
Some place you can go to have someone stand by you.
Some place you can go to feel warm.
Some place you can go to be protected.
Some place you can go where their parents will hide you.
Some place you go where you don't have to worry about anything.

I have this group of friends that no matter what they are there.
I have this group of friends that are connected in our own weird ways.
I have this group of friends that held me after a bad break up.
I have this group of friends that are mean to eachother a lot, but we joke, and we are a family.
I have this group of friends where we say were going to stay in touch.
I have this group of friends that when were upset were there for eachother, boy or girl.
I have this group of friends where we have a lot of drama and cry a lot..and it brings us together.
****, friends, love, heart breaks, same issues, music, class. ect.
we are all connected in some way, but different ways.
They are the bestfriends iv'e ever had.
I'll never let them go in my heart.