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Sep 2014 · 759
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alyssa Sep 2014
She was here when they were there.
Learning more about herself while her friends stood in the corners of rooms.
Thoroughly appreciating the world
while  they lost track of time in their intoxicated hours
She didn't understand why they sleep in the bed of strangers hoping for an unlikely love
She would rather sit on her couch and let him lay his head in her lap
Reminded that she may have made thousands of mistakes but he wasn't one of them
She would never understand why society pushed lust over love
Aug 2014 · 637
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alyssa Aug 2014
im learning how remove you without damaging peices of me
Aug 2014 · 673
Reminder
alyssa Aug 2014
Never take anything for granted. People can leave as quickly as they come. Take pride in your work. Your loss is their gain, take nothing personal. A little can go a long way. Laugh often. Everything is temporary. Life is too short to be unhappy.
Aug 2014 · 514
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alyssa Aug 2014
Too glam to give a ****
Aug 2014 · 771
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alyssa Aug 2014
Im sorry that i keep writing you into poetry like you weren't already impossible enough. Love shouldn't feel like walking on glass. Arrange all my pieces into a stained glass window. I want you to fall in love with my colors. Go ahead hang me up with the same pictures your mother loved, I'm looking for home. Im sorry that i thought i found it in your eyes but i have a habit of falling asleep there every night. Next time i will reserve 3am for sleeping. if your heart feels like an inn, i suggest you buy a smaller house. Its all uphill from here. This attic doesn't carry bits of you in its closets. Im learning how to close doors. My lungs have become dusty from not saying your name. At night i breathe in constellations and share secrets between the sheets in my own mind so these days your name rarely gets caught in my mouth. Heres to finally letting go and seeing the sunlight. This is the first day i haven't woken up and checked my skin for your presence. People like you get caught in veins. Im sticking you to poetry, Im hoping one day, this is the only place you'll stay.
Aug 2014 · 512
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alyssa Aug 2014
I wrote your name in the sand
The tide could not erase it
& the ocean has been in love with you ever since
Jul 2014 · 897
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alyssa Jul 2014
caught smoking trees
it started with me
you were in my face
pushed me out of my place
i was out my window
i hit an all time low
i was chased
i picked up my pace
i ran to my friend
to my needs he could tend
dazed and afraid
i had got not what i paid
but in fact laced
i wish i had mace
i walked him back home
i was out all alone
i went over a wall
took a large fall
ran into the unknown
they had an unsettling tone
once they were near
i was frozen with fear
back on the ground
you could hear a loud pound
glass to my ear
this felt like a year
out like a light
i was unable to fight
awoke with pain
i had nothing left to gain
clothes were tattered
body was battered
stumbled through my door
he insulted me with "*****"
lied on my bed
thoughts racing through my head
out of breath
nothing left
back in my face
now i really wish i had that mace
i was back outside
my life felt like a lie
runaway home
i was accident prone
rumors spread
my reputation was dead

but after all this
i realized
ignorance is bliss

i stood back up
raised my cup

who was to blame
did you need to change
was it because of our fight
is it me that was right?
what if you looked through my sight

would you be able to forgive yourself if you knew you were the reason behind that dreaded night
Jul 2014 · 470
Intoxicated thoughts
Jul 2014 · 405
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alyssa Jul 2014
i don't care about grand gestures or flowers at my door
i just want your teeth pressed to the small of my back
i want your stupid ****** sense of humor making me laugh at 4
when i have to be up at 6
Jul 2014 · 370
Daily reminder
alyssa Jul 2014
You can't please everyone
Jul 2014 · 1.6k
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alyssa Jul 2014
I saw that you were perfect
and so I loved you.
I saw that you were not perfect..
and I loved you even more.
Jul 2014 · 320
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alyssa Jul 2014
**** (me) you
Jul 2014 · 350
Daily reminder
alyssa Jul 2014
Your value doesn't decrease based on someone's inability to see your *worth
Jul 2014 · 562
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alyssa Jul 2014
Things changed so quickly
Suddenly, unexpected and somehow perfectly.

In the beginning I could barely look at you without my head pounding and my heart sinking. For some reason I was scared. I thought you were like everyone else and i was afraid to sink under your judgement

But instead you knew how much I needed you and you reminded me through those endless phone calls and long talks that you may in fact need me even more

So now during the days that seem to go by so fast i look at you and have become infatuated with who you are

It was only until this time I realized without you I could never be me.
Jul 2014 · 366
Atsoc ozner
alyssa Jul 2014
I love you

I love your laugh
the loud one
and the soft one

the creases under your eyes that seem to dance with your different expressions
the patches that lie upon your neck from my lips that you never try to cover

your usual sayings that have been overused and worn out
the small things you whisper into my ear
the tensing of your muscles when you can't pull me closer
the strain of your lips because you aren't ready to pull away
the sigh of content when you fit into my small perfectly

i love everything about you, i always will.
Jul 2014 · 260
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alyssa Jul 2014
Its hard to constantly question you
i enjoy the mystery in your eyes but i long to stop chasing it
it would be nice to know the whole truth no matter how much it hurts me
because i know i could recover
such a struggle to wonder if its you or me
i know you've been through it all
i know you think I'm like the rest
but truth is im not
I'm here to love you in the same way that everyone could not
but you're still too hung up to believe it
even though you've already seen it
i like the chase
just not this in particular
its really so simple
treat me like your girl
not like some pearl
and i promise to give you back the world
Jul 2014 · 373
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alyssa Jul 2014
you say you need to find yourself as if you haven't been standing next to me this entire time. you were always a little uncertain.. falling away like the paint that peels off fences on a hot summer day. how do you tell someone that you've been feeling like a broken hinge for quite some time and everything has been hanging awkwardly when you aren't together.  i never thought anyone could tilt my world the same way you did. you said you'd give me sunrises and all i gave you were half attempt excuses for life and broken shells that crumble under my own feet. I know nothing ever lasts but i wonder if the beach ever misses the sand that gets lost in my shoe because sometimes i feel like people have been taking pieces of you your whole entire life. a souvenir is not someones soul, stop parading their uncertainty with big edgy smiles. find yourself so that when someone finds you, you'll know exactly what pieces to give away. start putting yourself together or someday someone will walk through your door and shape you into something you hoped you'd never become.
May 2014 · 855
Remember the "ly"
alyssa May 2014
Tell me it will be ok repetitively
Run your fingers through my hair slowly
Pick my head up constantly
Trace my spine softly
Learn my personality quickly
Bite my lip occasionally
I will love you unconditional**ly
May 2014 · 644
(my favorite poem)
alyssa May 2014
"Six humans trapped by happenstance
In bleak and bitter cold
Each one possessed a stick of wood,
Or so the story's told.

Their dying fire in need of logs,
The first woman held hers back.
For of the faces round the fire,
She noticed one was black.

The next man looking cross the way,
Saw one not of his church,
And couldn't bring himself to give
The fire his stick of birch.

The third one sat in tattered clothes,
He gave his coat a hitch.
Why should his log be put to use,
To warm the idle rich?

The rich man just sat back and thought
Of the wealth he had in store.
And how to keep what he had earned
From the lazy, shiftless poor.

The black man's face bespoke revenge
As the fire passed from sight,
For all he saw in his stick of wood
Was a chance to spite the white.

"The last man of this forlorn group
Did naught except for gain
Giving only to those who gave
Was how he played the game.

The logs held tight in death's still hands
Was proof of human sin.
They didn't die from the cold without,
They died from ---THE COLD WITHIN." - james patrick kinney
May 2014 · 447
JaryMane
alyssa May 2014
Buy pick
Crush grind
Roll pack
Burn ignite
Breathe inhale
Exhale blow
Lit Lifted Loved
May 2014 · 305
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alyssa May 2014
Our worlds are so different
but every now and then we take a few moments to ourselves
creating something thats all our own
a simple look
a soft touch
you trace my spine
and i feel your lips shaking on the back of my neck
my fingers running down your chest
i never mind giving everything to you
you pull me in closer
the silence is embraced
these are the times im happy when everything is left unsaid
May 2014 · 357
Who am I?
alyssa May 2014
picked chosen loved
i saw light for the first time
your grip was warm and enticing on my fragile body
your fingers left an imprint on my skin
and as i lie upon your inviting lips you breathed me in
As a gain to you, there was lesser of me
you emptied yourself of a stressful day
and i entered you serving my purpose
often thought of as crutch...


*cigarette
May 2014 · 427
73
alyssa May 2014
73
i woke up
73 minutes had passed
they were gone
and so was i
well my mind was..
but physically i was present
reminded that there was still so much to be happy for
even though the world seemed so bitter
and since then i lost a big part of myself
i still have yet to find it
and even in my wildest dreams i would choose to have never lived that night
because i miss the old me
and i always will
May 2014 · 463
Underneath
alyssa May 2014
You always told me you loved her
from senior year til just shortly ago
i didnt question the legitimacy of you both

but i talked to her about you
and she told me the relationship was so physical
but the worst part was you could only compliment her looks
she longed to be told she was pretty from within
and my question is...
how can you love someone
if all you touched was their skin

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