I thought that it would be a book
I thought it would be a painting
I thought I would have
a successful artistic creation

I have been searching for my day
when I would have it my way
I have been searching all my life
I thought it would be past the strife
that sometimes we have in life

I let relationships overcome my days
I let things fade away
I moved forward with time
just waiting for my Magnum Opus

I realize now though
it has come along
but not in a painting or with a song
creation can come in many forms
my best creation is in my womb
I am waiting because
my baby will be born soon

Hello, can you hear me?
Hello, I am here.
Can you see me?
Are you listening?
I am screaming,
I am hurt,
I am crying inside.
Are you listening?
Can you hear me?
I need help.
Come and get me;
I have been here,
all along.
Where are you?
I am waiting.
I need you,
I can't feel you.
You look past me like I am nothing.
HELLO, I am living.
I am alone, I need your help.
I am here, I have been all along.

I grew up with a guy,
he made me laugh and we would sing,
he would eat some really weird things.
I knew this guy he had a great smile,
his actions sometimes were like a childs.
I knew this guy who had children of his own,
when he talked about them his face shone.
I knew this guy that wasn't the same,
you knew that he wasn't just from his name.
I knew this guy who had a good heart,
I felt that from the very start.
I knew this guy that isn't around,
he had to leave a Carolina town.
I knew this guy who was taller than me,
but now he is gone unfortunately.
I knew a guy who was so daring and bold,
I am sorry to say he is out stone cold.
I miss this guy I knew so well,
I know there is some things he couldn't tell.
I knew this guy who could charm you away,
we talked as friends back in the day.
I miss his phone calls and his stories,
I knew him in bad days and in his glory.
I knew a guy who believed in sharing,
that guy's name was Darron.
I knew that guy who passed away,
sadly he left one year ago today.
I knew that guy who was really sweet,
I know my life without him has been less complete.

Life is bittersweet,
people come and go,
but you still have to keep walking with your feet.

You weren't always standing tall,
sometimes you had to kneel.
However, you cherished every moment
yet still feel some sorrow at your heel.

The people who left,
the people who died,
the moment you broke down and cried.

The past is gone,
the memories are rough.
The future keeps happening,
your feet can't move fast enough.

Time slips away through your fingers,
the sand that was between your toes.
The sunset that still lingers,
will bring another sunrise again.

I feel so low,
so down.
I feel so wrong,
and I feel my frown.
I feel sorrow,
I feel the tears.
I wanna see tomorrow,
but I cant get past my fears.
I want to be okay,
I want to be alright.
I pray every night.
I ask for help,
I feel like a lost book on a shelf.
I want you to read the words,
but to remember them is something else.
Are you understanding I'm at my worst?
I look back at my last pages,
I look back at the wrong places,
but I cant seem to remember much of myself.
I guess I have to go back on reading,
or have new pages written for tomorrow..
I know I can be misleading,
but it truly is only because of my past sorrow.