Memories that cling to my mind
Include fireflies and soft kisses
holding hands and tears

No matter the pain i suffered
in the loss of all the abuse
that was one of the best days ive experienced

In that moment i felt love
unconditionally
with no boundaries

with love proven
in unbreakable eye contact
staring straight into each others souls

that night i will forever remember
I will ignore the arguing
I will ignore the harsh words

I will ignore the games
I will ignore the betrayal
I will ignore the pain

I will just remember that night
where the world revolved around us
when we were finally reunited

Because thats the night i first felt love
and the night i knew i was in love for good
Even though our lives have changed

And we are on new roads
with new love to be made
fireflies dance in my head

The soft kisses remembered
the look in your eyes that night.
I will forever remember.

tuck me into a bed of lies
of you saying you love me one day
and you hate me the next

chain me down
with thoughts of you and her together
while you touch her the way you did me

suffocate me
with endless days of longing
of reaching for you and getting nothing

beat me
with abusive words
when inside i know you think differently

just free me
let me go
before i go crazy

Im saying goodbye
but not to you,
because you have been long gone.

Im saying hello
To a new woman
who has grown from the ashes of that destroyed little girl

Im saying farewell
to those never ending tears
which will undoubtably fall again for another

Im saying its great to see you again
Since you’ve been so down for so long
doubting every thought entering your mind

Im saying never speak to me again
because you wanted nothing but to bleed
to gasp for a last chance at life

Im saying stay with me
to that courage
to the smile that shines through those eyes

Im saying its over
Because i dont love you
not like i love her

Im telling her I love her
because you didnt anymore
And to be deadly honest

Im better off with you not loving me
I rather love myself then you.

Dreaming at night is no longer a luxury
Dreams of grandeur and success no longer fill my mind
Nightmares of heartbreak have taken it place

I'm afraid to feel like this forever,
Like something in the grand scheme of things will always be missing,
To feel like Ill never see you again

So much hurt and pain I've felt,
Dealt by no ones hand but your own,
Yet my pure heart still wants to take in your love.

My mind hates my naive heart
For thinking you could possibly be that boy who loved me so strongly again.
When you've become this womanizing man, who damages me knowingly.

You love another now it seems.
While I sit here alone, feeling the pressure to love someone else and forget like you have.

I don't know if I can.
If I can forget how I loved you.
If I can forget how you loved me.

Even though the clock hands have changed into months.
And we are in a game of never ending silence.
Which I never seem to win.

i wander around wondering whats going on
why my heart aches still
and why my head is so fogged

i want to be over this
i want to be like you
moved on and level headed

i still cry
i still hurt
and i still think about the unborn babies

i wonder if you do
I wonder if i cross your mind
a time or two

i dont want to remember the things you put me through
i dont want to remember that person i was
I dont want to remember the feeling of that pain any more

I dont want to see who you really are
I dont want to see how different youve become
I dont want to see you destroy who you once were

I dont want to realize its over
I dont want to realize it will never be
I dont want to realize my lips wont touch yours again

I want to be free of it all
I want to be free from these painful shackles that hold me down
i want to be free of you

I feel so betrayed
so many lies
to confuse my brain and threaten my heart

Your actions argue with your words
Your heart says it claims me
And sometimes I believe you

I want to trust that no matter what
the love is there and only for me
But I cant see you, I cant touch you

I cant see if Im wondering in your mind
If our kiss remains in the back of thoughts
my body in your dreams

So many daggers thrown at my heart
Poisonous words entering my mind.
Creating doubt in my soul

Tears running down my face
without your hand to take them away.
No arms to take the nightmares away.

No hand to touch the emptied womb
to satisfy the thought that you were once happy about it
taken away from me.

My soul aching with loss
my body trembling with self hate.
wishing nothing but for you to console my pain

Id give all my anger away.
Id give all my hurt away.
Id give up the hate.

To feel your touch
To feel your love
To feel us again.