Perfection is for liars.
For people who are so tightly tucked into
their bed of lies.
That they only dream in black and white.

I strive for messy and real.
I want to feel pain and misery.
I want to feel love and happiness.
I want truth,

Break my heart, so then I
will know what love is.
Make me laugh, so when I cry
I can understand it.

I dont want a perfect love life.
Love is wrong, and messed up, cruel.
Love is right, and harmonized, beautiful.
Love is all of it.

Close your eyes.
Silence your mind.
Be still in the quiet.
And just feel the greatness of flaw.

A healed heart still pains.
For there will always be a fragment
torn off and lost forever.

There will be a moment,
no matter how fleeting.
That will cause a twinge of dispair.

For something no matter how cruel,
no matter how beautiful,
is gone forever.

We are told to not cry.
To not mourn
Over a loss that was seemingly undeniable.

Allow your heart that beat.
That moment to weep.
A firefly flickering in the summer air.

And after that moment, smile.
Cause it will happen.
This time more beautifully.

Guilt drips from my heart,
and tears cry from her eyes.
She wants to save me.

Confusion swells in my mind,
and her hands guide me.
She wants me to see.

Pity sinks into my veins,
and she stays strong to build me.
She wants me to be free.

Anger fills the void,
and her heart encourages.
She wants me to believe.

Pain.
Emotional torment.
A cruel battlefield of unfair strategies.

Hate.
Bitter engulfment.
A taste so sour against love.

Guilt.
Worthless suffocation.
A brainwash of lies.

Anger.
Selfish entrapment.
A young over indulgence .

Pity.
Forgiveness overflowed.
A river to clean my hands of you.

Guilt claimed my heart.
The fault I believed was mine.
Dissatisfaction at a constant.

Lies ate away my soul.
The fault I believed was mine.
Heartache surpassing all.

Shame covered my face.
The fault I believed was mine.
Untrue words spilling.

Failure corrupted my mind.
The fault I believed was mine.
Pieces always falling.

Guilt was yours.
The acts done against me.
My satisfaction at a constant.

Lies you told became riddles.
The truth unraveled before me.
My heartache lessening

Your shameful true self
Disgusted my image of you.
My true words covering.

Your failure was us.
The fault of only your own.
My pieces coming together.

A new kiss
Softer lips
With gentle urgency

Love trembling through
Soft caresses
Adventures never fleeting

Tears of happiness
To replace the cried out tears
Smiles constantly painted

Something new
Proving with greatness
Why the past is forgotten.

Tied down
Darkness closing in
Fog engulfing my mind

Suffocating
Fragments of myself
Drowning in emotion

Freedom
A stronger version, whole
Happiness awakens