I'm always the one who loves more,
but always the one alone.

I'm always the one who cares more,
but always the one being left to wither.

I'm always the stubborn one,
always opening the door for people,

when they clearly slam it shut.

People often leave me broken,
It's not a surprise.
I often walk alone and empty-handed,
It has always been a given.

I walk, I look, I settle,

for temporary bodies,
for impermanent pleasure,
for fleeting lust.

People judge me,
It's not a surprise.
For all the ways I killed my sadness,
My identity has been compromised.

I may have seen galaxies in your eyes,
I may have thought in the moment,
That i first saw you,
I needed to have you;

I did have you,
I owned you.
But you treated me like a temporary property,
I felt like a disposable waste of time.

Our days grew colder as my heart grew weary,
I never wanted this, but we couldn't be sadder.
I just wanted us to make it,
I hope you don't take it personally.

I hope you remember the day i told you,
The day i said i stopped thinking about you.
I hope you take care of yourself,
As much as i did before.

I hope you understand i need to do it,
For you to bloom like the flower i've always wanted grow.
I hope you remember how i told you,
That i loved you more than my own.

i'm sorry you drowned, i didn't mean it,
I'm sorry your bones have shattered,
Just like the way i shattered your heart.

I'll always remember you,
As the girl i'd go deep in the ocean for,
Not knowing,
i'd drown in you, too.

Oh, the month of october.
Nights turn into days,
With the dawn of a new flame.

Days turn into nights,
As i miss the only star i see during the day.
Are we standing under the same constellation?

Did you know about this?
Does it have anything to do with you?
The way heaven and earth, finally aligning?

As another night turn into day,
I stand dazzled by you,
Seeing galaxies in your sharp eyes.

You light up the brightest in this galaxy,
So bright, i sometimes lose sight of everything,
So bright, stars would be jealous.

you were like a sunset to me; beautiful yet fleeting.
in that moment, in your hues of pink and scarlet,
i knew i have found my home.
yet all beautiful things come with a price.

i may have found you now but sooner or later you shall need to set,
may it be with me or with someone else.
darling, i want you to know that you are by far the most incredible sunset i have laid my eyes upon.

i am not waiting for the day that you have to set,
nor am i dreading the day that you might fade away,
but rather, i am savoring the days i have with you.

the days i could look at you are be reminded
that i am indeed in love with every cell that make up every part of you.
i am merely a spectator,
breathing in every color you have to offer.

basking in the warm embrace you are yet to give me when i see you,
i miss the sunset,
i miss how it effortlessly takes my breath away,
as it seamlessly goes down gently, bridging the light and the dark.

i miss you, my sunset.
i miss how i seem to be the worst for you
and you,
the best for me.

My last hope for you,
is that you discover a love
that carries within it
the ability to make you question

why you ever thought
that what you felt for me was true
I pray you find a love
that makes you crave another,
like I once craved you.

The first time i saw her,
Everything in my head fell silent.
Her eyes were reflection of galaxies,
So many have gotten lost in before me.

Her uneven lips formed a smile like a flickering candle,
But a smile nonetheless.
Her kiss like strawberries on a sunny day,
Refreshing and pure.

Her hair was let loose like a restless ocean,
She was breathtaking.
And it was when i felt my heart skip a beat,
that i knew i had to have her.