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alwaystrying Jun 2015
the hindrance of seeing the truth
longing to touch the sweet taste
of what they call
sin

you love avoiding me, my 3 am muse
you love grilling me, too
I don't mind these tribulations
because I know of the weekly perk
when clouds burst in their teal dance
and you twirl round the room
alone

that precarious balance of
waiting to topple over prayerful cliffs
in your
special skirt.
alwaystrying Jun 2015
Cold and wet day, rain hectoring all down to the last pedestrian
A tired man stepped into a corner shop he never noticed before.

Warm glow from fireplace, neat stacks of books bedside a sofa
He sat down and gave his eyes to the ceiling, all worry melted.

The next time he heard the tinkling bell, the door opened again
Felt like a spell lifted, a teacup clanked. Ten years had passed.

Qui jetait le sort?
C'est l'ennui.


Frantic searching for lost moments
Wrinkles he never noticed before.

The curtains parted and on the stage, old
Sorrow pasted its stamp on his forehead.

You said I could have the night, you withdrew
pleasure and left love humiliated, a used tissue.
alwaystrying May 2015
Palette is a mess, too little paint
why's everyone in a contest?
I'm using spit to mix mine, to make sense
it's a noisy place
who said ambition had to be part of this room?

Crime waves its flag ever higher and crisps break
inside the packet
they didn't say offspring would go on such a spree
of blindness hunger and misdemeanors
Did it have to be via the moon spilling stolen rays
like the broken words you took from my kisses
only to splash on your canvass?

Four wheels are split and a boy freewheels
in the dying sun
while we carry the spikes and hikes
freaking hell, why can't fantasies live?
I think the lies outgrow their skin
and it's time to moult.

There's a man, on a highway inside his head
he won't come out, he's adamant that he's right
but he won't see he's not alone
He fails to see
that not everyone is a monster.
alwaystrying Jan 2015
Sweet oil heats, burns and spills over
skin sublime, so sensitive
who'd have thought a spaniard could fly off
a round of expletives on parents

Don't try to figger what ain't fit for fools
go fetch your yella bucket and                 (we told you so)
that box is waiting for you and (tap, tap)
sooner 'n you think, they need your hide again.

Being on the end of your spine, roll on over here
cartilage swings better than spume
that ugly red mother (don't be sore)
ssssettling sediment: the ocean beats slats, always cleans up
you never asked
zero, one, one, one, zero, one one
done!
alwaystrying Aug 2014
cruel to whet your time with promises I can't keep
and entertain you with dreams refusing to inhale
wiser to pack away wishes, escape the sting

but that hiss of discontent lingers in quiet rage.
alwaystrying Oct 2014
odd derision, tryed to reach out, how the air round me
laughs softly, aversion fills your words
cackles like a solid witch

there's no lift now, the ship has left
the boat is sunken, as are my eyes when I feel your intense anger
the steering wheel has been twisted, the head foggy

shaking with ice cold and sweat droplets on my face
frozen and melting at the same time
the sheet beneath me, like snow, no comfort, aversion fills up

the vesse l sinks, slowly
it fills, slowly it fills
like sea water in my mouth, my silence was needed

mute the racks of anguish
a cold burn inside, face skin totally peeled
scalding the tongue to learn again to go quiet
alwaystrying Dec 2014
On the very last day after too many activities after the other
I'd no idea how ruthless words could be
my sweet talker
beautiful bird out the window

Not asking, but telling
so, so telling
my sweet talker, no sweet talker.
alwaystrying Jul 2015
Assistance required, of a technical nature.
Urgent part need, optimal.

Insert a thought for the needy.
Satiate your own hunger, hurry!

New colors arrived after years, long wait, extra.
A trickle of lavender oil, burning towns.

The priest was not the savior, they all thought
Vow of silence briefly broken, to save another.

True sacrifice, his face is half lasered away
Insert the key. So close and far now, it goes.

Charity begins closer to home. Pilgrim, shame on you.
The light is out. Lend a candle then, a chunk of bread.
alwaystrying Jun 2015
I step out, steam rising in the mirror
did you know I almost fell asleep in there
that enfolding heat
and the calm beneath the surface
where winds are sleeping.

I step out and look into the glass
it calls out a muted syllable my rest can feel
there's no fright, I reach out, my hands to the mirror
and through the prism
and I become light.

You're there with me, on the other side
I swear you've not felt it till you have
and I see you rise from the waters, warm skin
and I watch you from the bed
you dry your supple folds and climb in
we curl up together
into each other, spoons to scoop dreams
and expect nothing.

This is where it gets so lovely
I told you about it long time ago, that fantasy
from another life
when you weren't so scared.

It's the sweetest deluge of hazy softness
and a cocoon of pleasure, swooning ooze
and we float
beyond clouds.

Wee thoughts seem to fall asleep but no, we repose
it storms outside, rain in an unrivaled match
the sun has packed up for the day
and it's still two o' clock.

Can you pierce the density of the cloud
undo the puzzle
stare into the eyes of silence
and find promises wafting that tomorrow will never keep
it assured you, once before
don't count eggs, the shells are crushed for a new colour
it's your patina, a new shade of disappointment
you take care never to entertain.

A nerve is struck when the doorbell rings
and I pull my hand out
of






the mirror.
alwaystrying Nov 2014
When you're looking for something you used to have
without realizing that in letting go, you get it.

It is made very clear, earn your keep or I'm gone
ok, sign away humongous liberties for appearance.

I'm not looking for you, I'm looking for people, that's
When callous got a backbone, the day it came.
alwaystrying Nov 2014
Through the years, it took us
consistent feeling, never altering
content with complacent idling
until the night, a surprise came
and knocked us on the head
off our perches of self assurance.

The night when we stepped out of ruts
and cuddled close together
like never before, eye to eye
now, shivering and turning inward
our single sheet not enough
our embrace fiery, out the cold.
alwaystrying Sep 2015
Some years now, it's been
strange that we still long
for that.

You say you drag me into your private moments
those sessions
in the morning, I don't know what to say.

What to do when castles crumble & walls tumble?
Do the princes and kings build again
or creep to hovels?

Hilltops grow shallow and heads enfeebled
a tiny break when that unwelcome pulse
collides with things forbade.

Quiet morning in reading, a silent house
light avocado curtains lift, fresh breeze
disciple in hot hiding, press a rolling orange.

Dates close and birth on the cusp
Who cracked the twenty tails? Poor sods.
Two calls and the heart lurches, all older now.
alwaystrying Jul 2016
I live in my horse's saddle: a beast, piteous.
Maidens sing forlorn as we pass.
The children do not see the chopper
at the roundabout.
Soon, their shorn locks will match the minstrel's sins of old.
Castles burn in the day: robbers ride boats on land.
Mascots fade against tapestries, hung out.

It's wonderful to sing out, revolt in time.
The sleepers don't hear the bees, save the woodsman.
Trees whisper secrets of the woods upon the wind.
Rows and rows of spears and woven flocks, poor things.
Descendants of cold metal.
They will come.
Too soon.

Bluebells and daisies flattened in an hour, green to brown.
Leather worn and sweat of ten rides polish the future.
Cut to make ribbons of blue for lasses unborn, the sky.
Bring to rise
new rivers of strange color, coppery seeping to earth.
alwaystrying May 2015
Really wanna hold you, tell you sorry
Wanna split the rose in you
and the bulrushes rustle  
till the morning dawns over the hillside.

Just as the one in your arms tells you
the right words at the right time
dint make mine
the wrong ones.
alwaystrying May 2015
You showed us the depth of love in a sordid world
your aid brought us to ship's end, diving into bliss
the creaking of your weight as we shifted quietly
and found magic when we met
there.

You taught me love, tights jeans and all
Don't be scarce.
alwaystrying Jul 2015
Up for a sweet one today.
Make the plans and thrill inside
anticipate the best to come.

Lather soap and hot on shoulder
Bring the water down
beau ful inside.

Oh, plans change.
See another stay along
But soon, cos hardly sleeping
with head filled of stepping out with you.
alwaystrying Oct 2014
thinking cap and working cap and playing cap and so on
too many caps to carry and sudden changing
where's the simplicity in it all?

I don't want to be your keyboard lover
I want you for real
when will you wake and see
you're closer to solution and it's quicker for you?

bring me in, please bring us closer
the owl's call a hoot away
it's been a long, long time now.
alwaystrying Jul 2015
When they think love will answer to every beck and call
it's just a cocktail of hormones and time
now the graveyard of wishes has their dreams added to it
a premature disaster when arrogance is a block
still, it's a gift but the timing is out of joint
freedoms flies out, a total mess now, responsibility
heavy on the shoulders not quite ready for the weight.
alwaystrying Feb 2015
One day of tasting bitterness, a long day.

Contrast amiss in the forum.

A small Egyptian taunts the patience of a clock.

The dog and the mole in a showdown with no end.

Quires and polish vie alongside closed shop windows, pets doze.

Training is a long trip to secure a noose.
alwaystrying Apr 2014
I will long for the moments when it was the beginning
everything so sweet, so pure
then, I send you still things I hope you like
and try to connect on a level where you don't feel such anger
in a world so filled with demands and wants, needs and cares
you will find me here, always
for you.
alwaystrying Nov 2018
down the stairs, a dark spiral
one of them, a mischievous one
made me take a wide tumble to the door
from second last step; desirous of that other one

she ga' me the old sammies and sugar
to take to the sweet peckers
who push such golden orbs
and there's red lines to fill the blue ones, too

quite deliberately yours
if love claws its way to you, why not acquiesce?
do be a divine little squirrel, give in sanely
eat your **** nuts
tired.
alwaystrying Jan 2015
I stripped the ocean of its salt, the winds whippingly
sailed to my
eyes.

didn't you write of how you tied the sun
to my
ankles
almost blasting
-uncalled.

merry joints never laugh and thank you
ever so much
thrice the crowing
in the morning, time stole away to the next month
a sixth of a year now.

thrash the whole grains, feed a flattened bread to the crowd
you can peer deep in the face of tomorrow's screen
but from these eyes
better to
turn your face.
alwaystrying Jun 2014
I love the dancing in those lights of yours
where we cavort in total freedom
did you know I see angels there?

they long for your absence to end
we are all here for you
swinging from midnight trees

let me see you shine once more
lift your flagging spirit
twinkle me your eyes again
alwaystrying Sep 2014
the toaster looked at me today so Jean popped up, surprise.
but Gabriel turned his head to watch a song on a Russian channel
I type in friend on the computer and it clicks back a response
how are you today?

everybody hides surprises, fleas in Doug's jacket
beer circles without coasters
one nut cracks, the whole lot shoots a load
you hold so tight, let go a bit.

which image do you hold so dear, it eclipses all else?
berries in a bog and dips in the road
I would never have thought you also had one
magic stripes don't match the stars in those eyes.
alwaystrying Nov 2014
To partake of a strange feast where the price claims haughty
too, bits of sanity
or decline.

Courage must be the face to the lion
in a pool of fear
and recognize the unacceptable.

The scorpion waits, a grumpy nip the heel
going round, sprain in soft sand
dessication tripled, slip in butter.

The search via crumbs to secret root
underlining hefty conditions
undermining liberty.
Internal debate.
alwaystrying Oct 2014
just another day to wade through and strange, that in the heart of it all
an unlikely blessing blown this way
an attempt at some lighthearted joke
work squeezing headspace into impossible places

debating whether to serve it on a platter or abandon altogether
scales tip, alarm bells go off and peril plays its little havoc games
an exile tired from the excessive demands slides out of view
and ends with a sidewalk splattered, sad remains

but someone sandwiched a smile
one more advised to take it easy
someone else laughed, the bag's not all lost
and another blew a kiss
      this way
today
alwaystrying Oct 2014
as it stands, it runs
high tide stays out late
and the ticket's expiring
joke, right? conspirators on the sea
and it falls flat, hopelessly flat

it appears unseeable
I will wait, then
yes, I'll have to.
alwaystrying Feb 2015
Oh, what a day for joy!

One scrum and a run for score
I'm making it, I'm making it
And oh boy, what a win!

May not be bigger than the rest, but never run.
Never underestimate the tinier package.
Unspoken contract in this wiring.

Sitting at my desk, head in piles of paper
unexpected surprise, really, a double take
Jaw dropping through the floor, it's you.
alwaystrying Sep 2014
good to see the sun shine once again
as if it has a choice
toys asleep in the attic and you're still waiting

I won't tell you, because you looked away
when you decided to be blind to truth
and deaf to reality, the shrieks

what the ostrich saw in the sand
curses you'll never know.
alwaystrying Aug 2014
They are like smoke in my eyes
or like the wind billowing through clothing on a washing line
your words bring me to any place you want

I ought get tired of it all
of the constant shunning and dreadful holes of silence
drilled in by periodic habit

But what they do to me when I lapse to dreamy
as my eyes at night fall to rest and
only you know.
alwaystrying Mar 2015
will succumbs to quests of others
a purchase in kind for tattered words
leaving on trails hardy, a few wishes
I've but one.

when I've done letting others seesaw between my ribs
gathering coins paltry for sweat
ingesting pulses assorted, not my own
breaking heels on melting tar
seeing another's dream grow taller
swallowing possessiveness
accepting ultimatums and
then, can I come to you.
alwaystrying Jun 2015
How I dream of walking among the reeds
and the whispering bulrushes
and holding onto the reins of tomorrow
Do you imagine anyone could slide out of
today and down into a chosen moment?

Take it and cradle a dream and make
half a universe wish come true
for me.

And count on Mercury to land some sweet spoils
in all the mess embroiled
in the middle of wintry thoughts
We can find a pinned butterfly to a tree
but it will never fly.

Like the wishes we refuse to relinquish
Nothing will step out dream state
until it takes to flight.
alwaystrying Jul 2015
Within my dakota dream, rests your rock
within your rock, I sleep like sunken ships
and when we wake, songs breathe to life
inside the ghost of irate storms
and lilies on the edge of streams dance
to no preying eyes.

You're writing poems on the ice again
the suite of the pioneer cannot slip.
Who won't like your bedside nonsense
it gave us time to think.

I've just enough time left
to flip a penny to midnight sky
and ride away on the trails of a high wish
inside the bark of trees old men find remedy of
within their breast, old secrets murmured in broken sleep.

It's here.
It's come.
Time to leave.
Again.

Don't bother turning out the light
it was never on.
alwaystrying Jan 2015
World rotator broke, needs hearts inside to churn
We are stuck in the same grid.

Agony on the forefront, sign your name to the list
Cardiac arrests in a jam and sad, nowhere out.

Rush your feet, paddle your wares
Sesquicentennial views would baulk at what we do.
alwaystrying Jun 2014
(ring, ring) when I call you, you know what it means
that missed call is your signal and you know it's a high again
I want you to do things again with you
I'm a ****** wreck without you near, hotting me with your touch
and me pushing your arms, grinding against your thigh, is all I want

just tell me what you want
you have me where you like
with your prize on its knees, take your fill
I remember how you liked me pressing you (there)
five scrumptious light squeezes
and
(that)

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