she sits there
without a care
or at least
that what it seems


however,
if you look inside
deeper than ever
you'll see a small lever
which is really quite clever


she hides her emotions, feelings and all
behind this three inch wall


but if you rupture this wall
all hell would break loose


her body shuts down
her face is pale
covered in sad but beautiful red satin


so she keeps that wall guarded
in the depths of her mind
and there it will stay
for no one to find

*I.I

since birth
i've trusted her
with my secrets
my heartache
my problems

she was always
the prettier one
who got all the guys
even one in particular

he was my first crush
ever
and i thought that i was

in love

little did i know
that while i was day dreaming
about
our hands interlocking
our lips meeting
our warm bodies
against one another

she was doing that
and more
with my love
my one true love

he was
slipped away
from my very fingertips
like soft sand
stolen

*I.I.

there are so
so
so
so
so
so many things
i wish i would i have said

your smile
could light up even
the darkest of rooms

your eyes
two deep
dark
enchanting
pools of electric green water
that i hopelessly wish
i could drown myself in

your skin
soft and warm
against my own

****, i miss that  

the way you furrow your brows
when you're working on homework
or reading an interesting book

the way your hair
would always look like you just got out of bed
never styled
or brushed

ha

i always thought that was really cute

my favorite thing about you
is the fact that you
do
not
care about other people's opinion
you didn't care what people thought about us
and knowing that...
i really ****** up

i wish i would have told you these thing when we were together
because
little did you know
i loved everything about you
still love everything about you

and every ******* day that goes by
i live with regret pumping through my veins
for not telling you these thing when we were in love

so thats why im writing you this letter
handwritten
because i remember you telling me
"handwritten letters are more meaningful"

FOR ALL THE THINGS I WISHED I SAID TO YOU BUT CANT ANYMORE BECAUSE

you're gone
and well....
*******
i miss you

*I.I.