Awaits the pressures of tomorrow
Now I won't sit in my sorrow
My nerves are just shaking
But darling, you won't see me breaking
Small talk and laughs
Don't focus on the past
Be here, be now
I know it's a lot to ask
But quitting isn't something I would allow
So, you can sit & sulk in the corner,
Or do something that will make you stronger.
So on goes my dress
No leggings, no sweats
With a smile on my face,
And red on my lips
This here is my moment of bliss.

Confused in delight
I imagine her with blue, doll-like eyes
Skin soft & milky white
With a smile that gleams with light
A look that pierces the soul
A touch that makes you feel whole
Hair long, flowing, & dark
Like a black, purple, or deep  blue
I desire to kiss her soon
My passion burns deep within
For a fantasy I made up
No more than a mere fib

Moments of what to feel
Consume my brain,
Dissipating my pain
Along with the whispers from my heart..
Is this real?
My heart shouts yes
But my mind can be depressed
And it causes me to stress,
Sometimes it won't rest
Sometimes it will push you to the test

Ridiculous it may seem
But people can be so mean.
Yet, your kindness doesn't make me squeam
I believe you
When I am with you, I don't want to scream
My mind is suddenly at peace
For your touch brings me ease

I know your mind wanders
It brings up times of bothers
Your heart is aching for you to listen
Mine is patiently wishing
hoping your anxieties don't overcome your heart
For I see no reason to tear us apart
A connection so magical it makes us scared
Questioning if either of us are prepared.
Hoping we'll always be there
But something in my gut says we'll never tear

Your eyes leave me mesmerized
I could stare at you for hours
Without any urge to cower
Your arms keep me safe
You fill me with confidence
And not rage

she pours herself a glass of wine
hoping to pass the time
blue eyes of fear
this will be the first year
in many
that not a tear was shed,
my hands were sturdy
my night has been nice
and look, not a friend in sight

if I had a box of love,
for myself there would be none
from myself I run
day dreaming into the sun

even without my nug,
I still feel snug
maybe the anger came from our love
I opened all my locks
then our love hit the rocks
I was left with scars
constantly feeling like I was in mars