Secrets.
The hush hush of the
passion we felt.
Hidden;
keeping me from you,
keeping us
from the eyes of curious,
of the furious.
Forcing us,
forcing them,
to be wrapped up in the
Lies.
Hiding the truth.
While I sit
fighting the tears -
for all those years.
You meant nothing you said.
Everything,
nothing more than
Broken promises.
The whole world, mine.
You'll give me the stars.
Always there for me,
never a care - for me.
Forever was ours,
or that's what you said.
And now I sit here with my life
filled to the brim with
secrets,
lies,
and broken promises
intertwined and intermitted.
Nothing mine
anymore
and nothing, yours,
forever more.
So please analyze
the pain in my eyes
from all of your lies.
As I respect
your lack of regret
for the secret
of the broken promises.

I promise this.

I want to open my eyes in the morning
and meet the cool
familiar
crystal blue.
I want to forever be the big spoon
even though,
we both know,
I wish it was you.
I want to linger in your smoke
as your laugh reverberates
off the trees,
off the moon,
off the stars,
and resonates.
I want to say those things,
those things that make the corners of your mouth
part
to reveal a curtain
of pearly white-
your own sweet work of art.
I want to be pulled close
into your warmth
as I dare you, again.
"You won't kiss me."
Because we both know you will.
It always happens
in the end.
I want to take your breath away
like you take mine,
it's true;
Simply,
truthfully,
passionately
I want
you.

Delicate being.
Perched so fragile
in the lap of peril.
Tied to the tracks
by your own will.
Held in danger's way
by your own means.
Porcelain doll
standing in a hurricane.
Delicate flower
in the blizzard of winter.
Paper-thin ice
in a heat wave.
Defying the odds
of time
and of fate.
Supposed to break,
but only seeming to bend.

Laying there:
Motionless and meaningless;
flat, and waiting for one to walk upon.
Taking it like habit.
Why is it that you don't move,
oh, doormat?
Why is it that you let them walk
in
and out,
over
and about?
They see you there and feel the urge;
a rush from inside their brains.
I must use.
I must use.
No, no!
You must refrain!
Doormat.
How brave you once were.
A girl, so strong.
A being, so brave.
Now, you lay,
and lie,
and try,

and

crave.

Stand up.
Dust yourself off,
or shake yourself out, if you must.
Doormat you shall be no more.
Doormat you shall be,
no more.

Exist-

the agelessness.
Save this:
for one last kiss.
Try this,
the trying bliss.
Clenched fist;
the cry that's missed.

a simple smile
sent my way
and i dont hear
a thing they say

the light it fades
the smiles pass
seems i'll always be
happy, last

When the twilight fades,
the darkness envelops the world.
There I will be:
back down in the dewy grass,
breathing with the earth;
eyes wide-
taking in the millions of specks of life.
I could count them all
with a life-time of darkness;
but the light brings new days,
new chances.
Yet,
still,
I wait for the time
where I can steal out into my bliss -
our bliss
and lay there in silence;
you,
me,
and the stars.